unloved-her

2007-11-30T21:46:00.000+08:00

# Sorry friends that tagged me & I have not reply or whatever at all . Cause i didn't even bother to see my own blog to check if there's any tag .. But surprise to say that there's tags .
I will link or relink you all soon . I'm sorry about all this ..

` My life is still the same . As usual , working .
Nowadays , busy doing house chores as Mummy is away .
It can be quite tiring at times cause I've to do all this after my work .
Well , it is okay .
Last few Nights , when I'm free , called Mummy .
Chatted with her for awhile .
Today cant call her cause grandma & mummy & my uncles are going over to my Aunty's house for buffet .
Sians . I'm not there with them ..
Tomorrow will be the big day for my cousin .
She's getting married . Sorry & sad that i cant get to attend her wedding .
It's such a happy occasion .
However , I will be going back Malaysia very soon .
At least i get to attend my Jiujiu's wedding .
Still unsure which day going off but it will be next week .
I misses almost everyone at Malaysia , especially those small little cute Precious of mine .
And by the time i come back to Singapore from Malaysia , It is time for receive my ' N ' level result .
There's still filing to do . I don't feel like doing it .
But i have to get it done before i leave for my holiday as I won't be back here so fast .
So shall take one night to get ready all the subject files first .
After getting result then see whether should go up Sec5 a not.

Sometimes things happen because people caused it to happen .
There are a lot of things which are far beyond our own control .
Is it everyone only have themselves in their eyes ?
They have never spare a thought for the others ?
Some people take friendships for granted .
Some people take love for granted .
In everyones' life , it is full of regrets .
But everything will just be too late .
Time will never stop or turn back for anyone of us .
So we shall learn how to treasure what we have got .
Grabbing well of every little small chance that is given to us .
Happiness wont last long .
It is just for that moment or so .
So it is on how people feel the happiness & what is the cause of it .
I'm tired to always seeing the same situations happening on me .
Sometimes i Don't even know what's happening to me & around me .
I don't seems to be able to understand why .
I just want a peaceful life and nothing else .
I don't need love , care & concern .
It's okay with me to only have myself in my world .
At least i don't get any hurt from anyone .
I know who really cares for me and who don't .
I believe in my own instinct .
Somehow no one understand but it's alright for me .
Cause i don't need anyone to understand .
I keep everything to myself .
I'm used to it and i know it is consider a bad habit of mine .
No one can help me and I know very well that only i can help myself .
But well , the conclusion is I have given up on almost everything & myself .
Friends , nothing has happen to me .
I'm fine .
PeiShan is still PeiShan .

2007-11-10T20:16:00.000+08:00

Erm yahs , didn't blog for quite some time . so here to update my blog .
Have been working all this while since school holidays had started .
If during weekends , there's no prom0ter job , I will be rotting at home .
My life is just DEAD . I have no mood for almost every thing .
And for weekdays , I get to see all those cute & boisterous kids .
Although working for the bookshop was not that easy but at least the people there is kind & friendly .
I've been late for my work . I really cant get myself to wake up a bit earlier ..
However , on monday onwards , I cant be late but got to be more early . Cause will be doing sales already .
Hopefully i can handle the parents & customers .
I cant spend much even if i have got my pay . I got to return Mum S160 ..
Firstly was the money for the clothings bought for the promoter job .
Secondly is my handphone bill . It's $78 this month .
I'm shocked when i saw this amount . Because normally my bill will only be about $35 .
Too much outgoing calls made this month . No more for the following months .
I got my own things that i want to buy . I don't find it happy to spend all my pays on the bill .
I have to handle the bill all by myself . So it's enough ..
Didn't have good sleeps this nights . I cant fall asleep whereby I'm feeling so damn tired .
In the mid of night , i will be having running nose . I will be sneezing & sneezing ..
Yesterday's night , i got woken up by the thunders . Yuphs , I'm afraid of that & i got difficulty going back to sleep .
Hm , Mum & me started to talk today . For 1week & 5days . we've not been talking .
Well , maybe it's some thing good . At least we can talk things more easily .
Hais . There are things which outsiders wont be able to understand . There are things which me myself don't know & don't understand .
Still there are things which i know very well in my heart . I'm able to understand too .
There is too much things happening round me this days . But from this incidents , i get to know who are people that really cares . Really thanks .. (x
I'm a girl with no confidence & my mind is filled with negative comments about myself .
I don't know what i can do to change all this .
My life is still in a mess now . I don't know what i can do to make myself live my life a little more happier .
I hate myself , my life too .. I see nothing good in myself . Somehow i wish i could just run away from all this sorrows & not get affected by it .
I don't know how to cheer myself up . Some times , i laugh at my friends' joke or entertainment but after it ended , everything is back to the same .
Suddenly i misses my childhood . Those days when I'm back at Malaysia . Playing & enjoying every happy moments with all my cousins there . I misses everyone . Hais ..
What should i do ? I have no idea ....

* My girl Shuyu , I've blogged .
She's the one that called me to blog .. [:
Loves .

2007-10-22T19:09:00.000+08:00

19th Oct - meet up with ling at Tiong as we're going down to Fico sports hub . yu came awhile later . did nothing much there . see our class boys play soccer . about 6+ , we left there . went to Redhill market for dinner with ling . she ordered a stingray . it's damn spicy but nice . she could not really finish it as it is too spicy . we were like so full because we drank too much water & not because of the food we ate . walked to ling's house & she went her way & i went to take my bus home . was bout 9 when i reached home .

20th 0ct - last min decided to meet up with hui to kbox as she cant come for steamboat yesterday night . i was so careless that i forget to take my ez-link card . quickly called my bro & asked him to take it down for me . at Tiong , layed para before taking bus down to town . shop shop awhile . After kbox went down to plaza sing to have pizza hut . waited for ling . shopped at plaza sing while waiting . it's really bored there . as pizza hut was full , so got to wait . after we ate our dinner , thought there was still shuttle bus to Tiong . so we waited & the securiy told us that there's no more shuttle bus as we missed the last shuttle bus . grrs ~ . went to the main road to flag for cab to Tiong . took neoprint wid ling & huii . After that took bus home . At 1st my bus came but i didn't take it . ling bus came & she also never take as she's still smoking . yet in the end , it was still ling's bus that came first . not long later was my bus . hui was last to board her bus home . after reaching home , bathe etc then conference with ling & yu . hang up about 11+ . slept at 12+ .

21st 0ct - meet up with yu first at town about 3+ . there was still samuellim & his friends . they went to play pool . bout 4.30 , left as we need to reach queenstown at 5 . took train down but still we're late . after that , i think we were waiting for boonwee to reach . yu was quite moody already due to her hunger & love . trained down to marina south . hueyting & jaz have reached . took bus to the place where we're gonna have our steamboat . got 2tables as there were 14 people . yea , got to thanks samuel lim , jaz , yu & hueyting for making the foods for me . it's tasty . (= after finishing our food , we were deciding where to go . erm most of the boys wanted to play dota . so well , let them go & play norhs . so the girls went down to town . i suggested to take neoprint . we went to Cineleisure but the neoprint shop was closed . we quickly went to Hereen . thought that i will be closed . lucky it was still not closed . jaz asked the lady if we could still take . she allowed us to take but well we have to make it fast . lucky ! happy to be able to take that neoprint with jaz , hueyting , yu & also to be the last group to take neoprint in that shop . wont forget it . [: after that i have to go home already . hais . wanted to take cab home but no cab . we girls went to the bus stop . then hueyting & jaz took the same bus . yu & i took different bus . reached home at 11+ . my house area was like so quiet & dark & i'm abit scare so i walked fast . dad was still watching tv . quickly went for a bath as i was tired & having headache . was feeling better after a bath .

Thanks Hueyting , Jaz & Boonwee for the Birthday presents . Thanks to all my friends who wishes me . Although the birthday yesterday was not perfect in the end but it's really really good enough . As long as all are happy , then Ok norhs . [: Actually there's no need for any sorry from Jaz , Hueyting & Peng . Cause I'm happy enough to see you all coming & but yet ate very less . Still , Thanks for those who came & a very big THANKS to Jaz , Hueyting , Yu , Ling & Hui for the past 3days . Great fun & enjoyments . LOVE YOU GIRLS !

2007-10-17T19:20:00.000+08:00

The days back in school were boring & tired . Have to wake up early . This 2days Yu didn't come to school . She's sick . * Hope she is feeling better today . *
During lessons , were not really listening to what the teachers were talking . =x were talking more . Last 2periods Mr Siah didn't come in . So slack till the dismissal bell rang .
Went to find mummy & br0 at Chinatown . Bought things etc ..
That's all barhs .
Byes ! =))

2007-10-15T19:08:00.000+08:00

Yesterday night talked on the ph0ne with Ling & Yu . * Sigh *
After hanging up the phone at bout 11.3o , i thought i can go to zzz but i cant . & i remembered that i drank c0ffee in the morning . I'm damn bored lying on my bed , trying hard to fall asleep .
This m0rning woke up early at bout 8.3o . Going out with my girls & friends to celebrate Peng's birthday . Went town for k-lunch . It rained & only i had umbrella . So 3girls shared an umbrella (: It's fun as we sang , laughed & celebrated Peng's birthday with a birthday cake & birthday song . Went plaza sing for awhile as Yu wanted to have a game of rock fever . By then , we're actually tired . Trained down to Vivo . Met up with the others . Slack slack then . We girls left bout 5 while the others went for their movie & some other activity . Reached home at 5.3o . Felt tired & quickly took a bath .
Tomorrow reporting back to school . Simply no comments . =(
I'm blur today . Firstly i forget to give a call to the boy that i'm giving tuition to cancel off today's tuition . Secondly i told him to come down tomorrow morning to give him tuition . Tht problem is i have school tomorrow . So when i reached home , i quickly called him again & his mum laughed . =/ paisae .
Stopping here . I want to treasure the remaining time to watch my Taiwanese Dramas .
Lastly , Happy Birthday Juepeng .

2007-10-14T19:10:00.000+08:00

Simply after 1month , there's a new post from me . Actually i dont know what to p0st ..
Finally ' N ' level was over .. For the time being , didn't have to report back to school .. However on tues , it's time for school again . Going back to school for the Step Ahead Programme . Have no choice but to attend for the sake of attendance in order to get promoted to Sec5 . If there's a choice i think no1 will wanna go back to that boring school .
My life is dead . Do what also dont seems to have the mood . Hais .. I dont know what's going on with me . Stayed at home everyday to watch my Taiwanese Drama . I just enjoy watching those dramas . Some i could even watch it again even though i've watch it once . I know i cant always stay at home & must go out to shop & enjoy . Got no mood & energy to step out of my house . Mummy wants me to stay at home . Sometimes when i see how sunny & hot the day is , i rather stay at home . Some days when i have enough sleep , i still feel tired . Ehs , now i can quite understand how yu feel when she's tired even with umpteen sleep .
Now from monday to friday , i'm giving my mum's friend tuition . Free of charge .. Just take it as doing a good deed for myself . As long as he can improve & not get worst is good enough for me .

To My Girls :
I know my attitude sometimes really lousy , the way i talk LL . * Apologies *
Me myself dont even know what's going on with me . Got moody dunno for what . Sometimes because of my family thingy . But i will cheer up no matter what . Thanks for letting me know that you girls care & will be by my side . You girls got your own problems . I really have to say that i dont know how to be good friend & that maybe i'm not all this while . Still , i'm always willing to hear all your happiness & sorrow . Importantly , you girls must cheer up especially Lingg . & Yu shall stay as happy as today . As for Huii , although long time no chat & go out together but still hope she can smile always . I seriously treasure the friendship with you girls . Maybe saying all this sounds funny or stupid but it is from my heart .
Once again Thanks load & Sorry . Loves & Misses ! Takecares .. <33

2007-09-14T19:39:00.000+08:00

have not been blogging for dont know how damn long .. since i'm not watchin taiwanese drama now , then i shall blog .. after more , my girl shuyu asked me to update my blog as it is getting boring .
finally prelims is over .. just today only .. but 2weeks later is N level already .. it just seems no more time to relax .. well , today knew our results for science ( phys + chem ) .. as expected , i failed .. mum still dont know bout it .. dont feel like saying cause i dont know how her reaction will be .. but i'm sure there will be disappointment .. shall stop talking bout studies ..
went bugis with mum after school .. she wanted to buy her groceries & also to buy birdnests ( yan wo ) for god-grandma as mid-autumn is around the corner .. my purpose there is to help her with the carrying of groceries .. reach home bout 3+ & i grumble to her that we reached home so early .. then she shoot me back by saying that i was the one that did not mention to go shopshop .. she did want to go shopshop .. perhaps i rushed her so she thought i did not want to shop .. i ended up having nothing back home but just earned a meal from her .. at first she still want me to pay myself for my own meal .. gosh ~ !
hm i'm tired now .. i just cant stop yawning .. maybe i'm boredd .. it's almost time i go watch my taiwanese drama already .. dont know if i can stay up late tonight anot to watch tv & again it is a taiwanese drama .. hees .. mum said last week that this week she will not let me watch again .. shall see later how .. somemore tomorrow is saturday .. i'm gonna sleep enough .. xD
shall stop here .. blog again soon barhs .. byebyes .. [:

2007-08-25T12:06:00.000+08:00

back to blogging again . hmm yesterday was gaya's sweet sixteen birthday .. after school didnt have any remedial so together with hueyting , jaz , yu & birthday , we went to cineleisure's Pasta Mania . really have a nice time there enjoying the meal . we went no where but sat there after finishing our meal .. talking & laughing at all sort of topics .. & were also discussing any fun places in singapore so that we can go & enjoy after N level .. harhas .. but time passes fast norhs .. birthday girl still got other programmes .. x) so we left & walked seperate ways .. jaz went to take bus .. the remaining 4 of us walked to the mrt . hueyting & birthday girl took the train .. yu & i took bus .. my bus came first narhs .. tat was for ytd ..
today staying at home , tml also .. at night gonna watch Campus Superstar Final .. that's y im online now .. at night brO will b using .. boreds , N level is very near & i have not start any revision . but shall see how as i still dont have the mood .. ermm think i stopping here already .. byebyes =x

2007-08-10T20:30:00.000+08:00

=/ we shy siahs . * kakas

that night - yu , sarina , shan , ling

us & it's us . LOVES

our cute t-shirt . xD

2007-08-10T19:07:00.000+08:00

smiles !

love you girl

me & sarina (x

fireworks

some more photos to be posted . shall wait for my girl to online so as to get the photos from her .

yesterday was National Day & yea , went out with yu , ling & sarina ..

bout 3+ left home & set off to suntec .. i was late as i told yu i will reach at 4 .. in the end bout 4+ then reach .. sorry .. reach already went to arcade to look for her .. after that went to slack slack norhs while waiting for ling to come .. walked to marina .. my leg hurts cause of my new shoe .. haiish .. ling came bout 7+ .. then went to find a good place to watch the fireworks .. found a good place & waited for very long .. people & couples everywhere .. & at last bout 8 , * BOOM BOOM BOOM * the fireworks .. people all cheered .. took their phones out & started capturing pictures & taking videos .. the sight of fireworks were really great & beautiful .. after the fireworks ended , everyone was heading towards the exit .. push here & there .. they just cant wait narhs .. alot alot alot of people .. as marina has no place to slack & it's crowded with so many people , all decided to leave this place .. so walked to the mrt .. & damn it .. city link is totally full kiaes .. walk & stop , walk & stop .. cause in front there are polices maintaining the crowds .. cant tahan those people that keep push .. they just dont have the patience to wait .. especially those aunties .. finally reached the mrt .. at first wanted to buy the starstar that people were holding yesterday but too many people so didn't get to buy .. took a train to orchard - far east .. slack outside burger king .. blahblahs .. then when was about to go home mum called .. she was not very happy .. she even said that she wont give me allowance for 1month if i still dont come home .. i really got no more mood by then .. waited for bus 132 but so long .. then aiyarhs , just take cab home narhs .. cause i cant afford to lose my 1month allowance .. lobang ling home first then to my house .. taxi fare -> $5 .. i really going to have no more money .. i dont wish to spend my money on all this thingys but yet have no choice .. i hate it .. reach home at bout 11+ .. wash up etcs .. bout 12+ then went to bed .. but lucky today after waking up , mummy didn't really say much .. hopefully should be ok narhh ..

prelim is near .. next week starting already .. haiish .. stress .. i cant concentrate .. dont know why .. no mood to study .. perhaps i'm stupid .. lalalas .. nevermind .. shall see tomorrow how , maybe tomorrow then revise abit barhs .. = (

2007-08-08T21:11:00.000+08:00

omg , what a finger you gave , ms lee .

* ai ai ai *

i smile when i have my gurls with me . xD

kisses !

shhhs . quiet please . =x

stress ah stress

peiSHAN & yongLING

just received a call from malaysia .. knowin that my jiujiu de laopo gave birth to a baby boy today , 8th August .. nice birth date .. how i wish i can get to see him now .. must be cutecute too .. i think only can see him when i go back .. x))

2007-08-08T20:08:00.000+08:00

SHAN & LING <33

<33 SHAN & YU

US - SHAN , LING , YU
LOVES & MISSES !

oUr ReflectiOn

6th Aug - on our way to vivo

blahblah - =/

today school ended at bout 10+ .. didn't study cause it was celebration for National Day .. upper sec were in the hall & it was damn HOT .. enjoyed during the singing part .. xD yu & i stood up , hand in hand .. sujuan did stood up together & hand in hand with us .. (:
after the celebration went to suntec .. waited for 111 very LONG cause we missed the earlier one .. at first wanted to go to plaza singapura .. a change of mind when we were in the bus .. went to play arcade ; parapara .. lol .. after suntec was to marina .. went to find q.q as to get back ling's bag etc .. bought a t-shirt at the shop q.q was working .. walk walk awhile then found a place & sat down & slack norhhs .. after tat went home .. ling & i waited for the stupid bus 961 for DAMN longg kkiaes .. more than half & hour .. in the end took 195 .. ahhws ~! both of us wait till cant tahan .. dunno why no bus 961 also .. * sighs .. & the both of us were having headache .. the weather HOT HOT HOT .. grrs ~

after reach home feel more relaxing but i'm very very TIRED .. gonna have a long weekend .. no school .. * wohoos .. urm , tml will be out ; not at home .. ermm think stoppin here .. need some rest .. (x

2007-08-05T19:41:00.000+08:00

ms LEE yongling

harhas , what's ling doing ??

27 july - shan & huii

ling siao nerhs ? =x

shhs ~

xD ahhs , * scare ..

ytd night , ms leeyongling came over to my house .. initially she wanted to go vivo .. but i cant go out .. & she didn't wanna stay at home so she said come my house .. she had dinner with me .. lols .. after that proceed to my house niaos . let her used computer norhhs .. my house got no games for her to play .. then i was doin my workk .. but i'm not BAD .. =x

then took alot of photos .. funny ahhs .. then bout 8plus goin 9 , she left & i sent her to the bus stop .. shall come again & stay longer horhs .. xD

had a nightmare ytd nite again .. suddenly woke uo at 1plus .. cant remember the nightmare .. haiish ..
* boredoms * tml school again .. # yawns # grrs ~! x((

2007-08-03T20:33:00.000+08:00

urm , quite alot to say today .. early this mornin , heard a loud sound " BOOM " .. at first my family didn't really bother .. who knows actually it was a block which was 2blocks opps. on fire .. the fire was caused by the gas explosion .. alot of people were around the block .. dad woke up & went down to join the crowd .. =/ lol .. this was in the news & papers too .. scary siah .. haiish .. in school happened some things but dont wanna write it down .. but os0 got funny thins like madam cheng & madam ku sayin yu & mie .. & also thingys bout junguang .. hm , i noe it's bad laughin at him but i just cant control myself from not laughin .. o.0
after school was geo remedial .. was abit late forh it .. before tat accompanied joel to the hawker to eat .. he was very hungry barhhs .. then there was this old uncle at the fishball noodle stall .. keep lookin at us .. den yu noticed tat he was lookin & told mie .. den dunno that uncle for wad shit scolded yu .. yu abviously cant stand it & talked back .. joel kept apolosgisin tho that uncle .. but in the 1st place it was the uncle that keep lookin .. grrs ~
geo. was sort of slackin narhhs cause we didn't do the worksheets she gave .. was laughin together wid yu , jaz & gaya .. yu was learnin tamil .. lols .. laugh till whole face red & hot .. after tat went to eat toast bread ..
& 1 more thin .. a auntie driver of a bus went down the bus to buy drink .. it's ridiculous .. how can she do that .. the passengers were all still on the bus & she left the bus near the bus stop .. i dont think this is correct ..
trained to tiong & walked back home .. weather is damn hot ..
it's weekend again .. can sleep late .. i'm very tired this days .. tml most probably goin out wid mummy to go buy things .. shall stop here .. post again some other times .. x( tata

2007-08-02T12:56:00.000+08:00

now in school .. harhas ..
madam cheng wanted the class to create blog ..
urm long time no blog already .. after school still got chemistry test .. dont think will pass or even do well ..
shall blog again tonight ..

2007-07-26T20:22:00.000+08:00

On 24th , before the lessons start , hui , yu & i have already gone to the sickbay . we called our parents , wanting them to come down to the school to pick us up as we aren't feeling well .. yu & huii's dad came before my dad .. my dad took quite some time cause the taxi uncle sent him to the wrong school & he din noe .. after he reached , we took cab down to bukitmerah's polyclinic .. i thought it would be cheaper if i c the doctor there .. but who noes in the end , it actually made no big difference to the clinic i normally go .. saw ridhwan at the clinic too .. followed by huii who reached quite long later with her ah ma .. waited very long before registration .. tired & bored at tat time .. worst is i'm feeling cold & tried using my pe t-shirt to keep warm .. the doctor gave me 2days mc .. waited real long forh the medication .. somemore no seats available .. bought bread home to eat & went to sleep .. haiish .. =/ didn't get any better .. but thanks daddy & sorry as when i called him , he's still in his sleep .. =]

at first did thought of going to school ytd .. but when mum woke me up in the mornin , i wasn't feeling well .. my body aches .. & since i'm given mc on tat day , so rested at home .. woke up at 10+ .. didn't do anythin much but rest .. for the past 2days , have been wearing jacket cause feeling cold ..

today went back school .. was feeling quite tired .. lessons ok ok norhhs .. gort chemistry test .. well , nothing to say .. & my july's progress report was disastrous . only passed 2 subjects .. lols .. & prelim is just so near .. 2weeks away only .. but really no mood to study .. also dunno y .. ermm , tat's all .. shall post again soon .. hopefully with some new photos taken ? xD

2007-07-22T20:33:00.000+08:00

nothing much to say bout my weekend .. was at home .. didn't went anywhere .. except sat went to tiong awhile & bukit merah central .. at home watched tv norhs .. having sore throat now .. just now went to buy Strepsils .. haiish .. think i'm falling sickk soon .. good or bad i also dont know ..
gonna be boredd cause there will be school tomorrow again .. got physic test .. after school got english test .. ahhws ~! one day 2 tests .. x(
stop here nerhs barh .. have to pack my bag soon .. hope it will be a good start of the week tomorrow .

2007-07-18T20:32:00.000+08:00

t0dae in school i think nothing much had happen .. to0k back chemistry test .. failed by 1 mark .. after school was " N " level chinese oral .. waiting ro0m was at 512 classroom .. very cold due to the fan , air con , raining weather & nervous-ness .. for todays' group , i'm the last one as well as the last girl .. there're a few malay students from gan eng seng sec & a whole lot of malay students from queenstown sec .. one by one , my classmates left the room .. when it was my turn , =] the few queenstown students wished me good luck .. they're all so friendly .. one of the oral teacher was a china teacher if i'm not wrong .. the reading part was still fine .. but the conversation part was not that easy because we've to talk about singapore ; ai guo in chinese .. hope the marks wont be that bad .. i ended bout 4+ .. yu & lingg waited for me .. thanks gurls .. love you girls .. & sorry for the waiting ..
haiish .. nowadays feeling tired .. & always giddy .. dont know what happen .. but nevermind .. that's all for todays' post ..

2007-07-16T19:44:00.000+08:00

reflect0n of us again .

3 of us !

=)) yu & me

=p bleahs

shan & lingg

# 13 july #
that was the photos for Aesthetics Night which was on 13th july .. last fri .. that day after school , quickly went back home & got prepared . then waited forh lingg to get dolled up & call me . she mit up with me first .. after that we took bus to tiong , then train to boonlay , followed by cab to yu's house .. thanks yu & ling for helping me with my make up & straightening of hair .. LOVES .

after getting ready , we set off to jurong point .. were at the arcade for quite some while .. went to the toilet after that & it was then we took so much photos with each other .. after all this , we proceed to singapore poly for the Night .. overall , the performances put up were nice .. did quite enjoyed the concert .. but was tired throughout the concert & hungry as i have not eaten my lunch & dinner at that time .. feeling giddy too .. after the concert , we were still thinking where to go for our food .. took the bus 1o5 .. but in the end , made up our mind to go to lao pa sa to makan .. so changed bus to 111 .. the bus journey was quite a long one .. the worst thing was after alighting , we still walked more than 3o mins before reaching lao pa sa .. so damn HOT .. by then , i can only say i'm like half dead .. feeling giddy , sleepy & hungry .. just weak .. after our food , we went to take cab .. the 3 of us will be taking the same cab .. but the shitty thing was we waited so damn long before a taxi uncle stopped to pick us up .. all the cabs available did not stop as they wanna pick up those ang mohs .. in those taxi uncles' eyes , they can only see money .. lingg alighted from the cab first followed by me .. yu was the last .. reach home was bout 11+ going 12 .. bathe & blahblah , slept at only 12+ .. i can say a fun but yet a tiring friday ..

* 14th july *

woke up at 10+ .. was still feeling tired .. bout 12noon went to tiong with bro .. at first it was still fine .. saw my primary school friend .. then when i was bout to pay money for my bread , i realise that my mum actually took away my $12 .. i was so fed up at that very moment .. cant cool down .. mood wasn't good already .. waited for the bus so long . reached home , sort of confronted my mum why she took away my money w/o asking .. & well , nothing good happened .. quarrelling started .. was so angry cause the money was she gave me at first .. she took back just because of the dress .. it's just ridiculous of us .. cant stand her .. the good thing was she didn't manage to slap me as i siam .. she slapped the air in the end .. she said that my attitude was like i'm gonna eat her up .. LOL .. then she also gave me the broom & called me to beat her but i didn't .. pushed the broom away .. after all , we were in a sour condition .. till today , she didn't talk to me , didn't give me allowance . just gave me that black face of hers .. but whatever , anything .. grrs ..

about today , feeling tired .. monday blues .. lessons as usual is boring .. today got 3 tests norhhs .. physics test , chinese test .. then after school was geo test .. went to 512 classroom for the test .. got air con siahhs .. damn shiok .. i totally don't know how to do .. bout 4o mins later , i slept .. so cooling .. good sleep .. woke up once then slept back .. feeling hungry when the test ended .. don't know why headache .. perhaps of the weather .. hate the weather .. feeling quite sleepy now .. tomorrow , hopefully wont have anything after school .. haish , wednesday will be my " N " level Chinese oral .. sway enough , i'm the last one of that day .. yu & huii will be having it on thursday .. x( boring neiihs ; no one to accompany me on that day .. ermm think i stopping here .. indeed a long post .. that's all .. [:

2007-07-10T20:58:00.000+08:00

=/ mirror image . muackie

# twist , yeahs

yu's messy hair . harhas

xD yu , eiu're in the photo . saw it ? your hair .

opps

dreams of reality *

pig mouth . LOL

bleahs xp

=0 in jurong point's toilet / 10th july

shan & yu * smile ~

one of my cUtie x)

ytd in school happened quite some things .. not too pleasant .. after recess , there was 2periods of chinese .. madam ku left after the 1st period and so yu & i went to the toilet .. da wei & francis were in the boys toilet .. francis phone dropped into a big & deep " hole " .. they have difficulty getting it out .. yu , meiling & i went in to see .. tried & wanted to help but seriously it's very hard getting it .. then madam lim was actually walking around .. there were quite some times tat yu & i went in the cubicle to hide in case madam lim step into the toilet but in the end she din .. harhas .. but madam lim caught da wei & francis .. in the end dunno how , francis got back his phone .. after scho0l went to jurong point with yuu .. x) went there to actually buy a dress for the night this friday .. shop & ate there .. also took quite some photos .. * enjoyed *

quite heart pain .. bought a heart necklace which costs 17bucks .. & =/ also bought a new big pinky mirror as the old one was not in good condition .. well , the dress i bought cost 15bucks .. but sad to say , it does not suit me as my mum said that the dress is meant for the age of 2o+ .. so i think i will be wearing something else this friday .. but i hope mum will give me back 15bucks .. x( that money is my savings which came from my daily allowance .. i still have to pay for the class photos using my own money .. i really dont have much money anymore .. haiish ..

talk abit bout today .. last min when i was about ready to leave my house for school , remebered that todae there's temperature taking .. asked my bro for thermometer .. he told me it was in school with his teacher .. i was like so fed up .. din even tell me earlier .. so i quickly called friends to see if they hav extra .. no one has & lucky in the end huii gort an extra .. thanks girl .. hmm yu did not go to school today & is abit xian .. lessons as usual it is still boring .. math lesson i was really shag & tired .. having flu & i was like to fall asleep .. after school was math remedial .. can say quite relax cause do other school's math paper 1 .. bout 3 can go home already .. then i went bukit merah alone to help mum pay bills .. bout 4.30 then reach home .. was feeling tired now .. having headache & feeling giddy .. school is really boring & dead .. think i stoppin here .. there's still some things for me to do .. blog again .. [:

2007-07-04T20:32:00.000+08:00

ever since sko0l started , i've nort been blogging .. maybe it's because i'm tired & lazy & was abit busy .. after all i'm nort tat free .. i will only use boring to describe the sko0l life i'm havin .. teachers seem to b going abit faster & doing lots of revision .. there's group study after skool .. it's really dead .. the weather ish so damn hot & i still have to try my best to pay attention . & ytd early in the mornin , yu & i gort caught by ms buga. .. the reason is because of our short skirt .. and so todae i wore a longer skirt & yet i cant even see her . grrs .. sho no choice , i've to wear the short skirt tml as my long skirt ish being washed .. ytd nite went vivo walk walk wid my cousin , mum & bro .. after tat went chinatown as my auntie in malaysia asked my cousin to buy 2 t-shirts .. todae after skool was my " N " level english oral .. when my turn ish gettin nearer , i was gettin more & more nervous .. my hands were cold .. nort warm .. tish shows tat i'm really very nervous .. i dunno how well i did but durin the oral , my nervous can be seen as my hand was shivering slightly .. mayb ppl find tat i'm useless but my shivering comes with reasons .. after oral i went home .. den jush now went forh dinner .. later bout 9+ , my cousin will b leaving & goin back to malaysia .. & tish sat which was 7th july , she will be leaving forh hongkong from malaysia .. she's getting engaged in hongkong .. * congrats * haiish , but she's only here forh 2daes .. short & quick journey ..
tish few days i'm feelin very tired .. dunno y .. i think i'm stoppin here now .. quite some photos to post .. the photos were from the photo album tat my cousin brought back tho show us .. but she's takin back the photo album .. gonna post it some other times barhhs .. =/

2007-06-24T20:43:00.000+08:00

* sighs * sko0l ish starting tml .. i'm nort able thu wake up late already .. it's very tiring & bored when sko0l starts .. gonna hab difficulty gettin myself out of the bed .. but nhu choice .. still hab thu ghu thu sko0l .. x( tiredness .

2007-06-19T21:42:00.000+08:00

t0dae went back sko0l .. was caught by a teacher of my skool as my shirt was tucked out .. but he din sae anithin .. jush gesture mie thu tuck in & went off .. mit yu at queenstown mrt first .. den walked thu sko0l .. was shocked thu c a bunch of classmates outside the clinic at blk 6c .. gort vincent , johnathan , kahhao , peiwen , xiuqun , jazreel & zihui .. den after tat came huey ting .. den together we all went up thu klass .. only 2 boys were in the klass .. harhas .. but madam ku din sae much .. was feelin restless the moment i'm in klass .. we were bein released at 2.45 if i'm nort wron .. huii came my house thu take the poa homework ..
jush now chatted wid my cousins who are at ireland through webcam .. my bro , mum & mie chatted very long wid dem .. forh bout 2hrs plus .. almost everyone of dem changed .. misses dem lorts .. hope thu c one of my swit cousin soon .. he changed sho much .. wad shocked mie was he gort a tattoo on his arm .. really cant believe tat he did such a thin .. but he will only b back at malaysia at year 2o09 .. he don like the life at ireland .. he hopes he can come back next year or even tish year .. but tat's nort possible barhhs .. haiish .. but still i'm able thu chat wid through webcam ..
urm tink i shall stop here .. hab thu off computer nerhhs .. (x

2007-06-18T21:21:00.000+08:00

ermm .. din blog forh quite some time as dere's n0thin much forh mie thu sae ..
t0dae went back sk0ol in the afterno0n forh chinese lesson .. quite relax but i'm very tired by then .. we did oral todae .. yu & i were the first 2 thu left skool .. the less0n ish thu end at 3 but bout 2+ we were able thu leave .. went home after tat ; walked home from tiongg ..
dere's another 2hr chinese less0n tml .. & next week sko0l ish reopenin .. boredds .. i'm feelin sho tired now .. i dunn0 y .. mayb it ish because i din sleep well ytd nite .. =/
hmm tink i stoppin my post here .. shall c if i'm gonna blog tml .. x)

2007-06-05T21:39:00.000+08:00

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2007-06-04T21:31:00.000+08:00

i din sleep at all last nite .. only to0k a short sleep from 7+ thu 1o .. dunn0 wad's happenin thu mie ytd nite .. i totally cant ghu thu sleep .. tink alort alort ytd nite .. haiish .. but i'm ok ..
was feelin quite fine todae .. nort really tat tired .. tish afterno0n went back sko0l forh lesson again ..
urm , just like the other days , i mit wid yuu first before goin thu skool .. & yea , as usual , we're late .. but still we to0k our own swit time .. haas .. tish time , i've thu open the door & walk into the klass 1st .. i took some time thu settle myself down as i kept laughin .. well , walked into the klass .. nothin happened .. jush tat nort much friens attended the lesson todae .. although the lesson todae was relaxin but it was sort of boredd ..
after the less0n went thu tiongg wid yu .. lingg came awhile later .. x)) yu & i hab rajah inn .. * yummy *
ling & yu wanna ghu dhu their usual thin .. i left first as mum was rushin mie cause i nid thu help her . sho i walked home ..
dere's a 2hr physic lesson tml .. the worst thin ish it starts in the mornin .. ahhws ! cant sleep late niaos .. i will b very dead tml mornin .. the lesson starts at 8.3o .. i've thu wake up quite early as i dhu things slowly .. x(( it's a meaningless h0liday ..

tat's all nerhs barhs .. =/ sighs

2007-05-29T19:17:00.000+08:00

hmm , hab nort been bloggin m0re than a week .. n0w here thu update ..

it's very boringg & dead this h0lidae .. because of wad madam cheng said thu my mum , my mum ish once again bein strict towards mie .. less freedom .. although madam cheng din really sae anithin bad bout mie but she had indirectly cause my life thu change .. haish .. * speechless *
seriously i hab nhu confidence thu sit forh my N level .. i don feel like studyin & work hard .. dere's only one reason ; i'm tiredd .. i wanna hab a long rest .. i've nort been really relaxin , nort
leadin the type of life i want ..

well , tok bout my dae .. todae woke up at 9+ & went back thu sleep again .. only woke up at 11+ .. i felt sho tired .. & i'm habin flu .. i dont feel like wakin up but i hab nhu choice as i'm habin an extra lesson of math at 1 .. it's stupid enough .. still hab thu report back thu skool durin tish so called holidae , yea .. left house at bout 12.4o .. the weather was sho hot ~ .. grrs .. lucky the bus arrived when i reached the bus stop .. mit up wid yu first .. haas .. at tat time it was already past 1 .. obviously we're already late forh the lesson .. we din bother much .. still went thu ntuc thu buy tibits .. & took quite a slow walk thu skool .. the klass was actually habin the lesson in the computer lab .. urm , madam cheng din scold us forh being late .. she jush sort of nag .. i dont know wad's the lesson was all about .. i'm jush hopin the clock could quickly strike 2.3o .. the time thu get out of the skool ; lesson ended .. din went aniwhere after skool .. went home .. & watched dvd ..

i tink tish ish my life .. the life i dont like & dont h0pe forh .. spendin my every dae jush like tish .. it's really meaningless .. x(

- faithfulness is a myth -

2007-05-19T21:49:00.000+08:00

ytd nite wanted thu wake up at 11.3opm thu watch tv . i went thu bed at 1o+ & actually set alarm at 11.3o thu wake up . well , in the end , i cant wake up when my bro woke mie up & tell mie tat the alarm ish ringin .. =x

den tish mornin i was sho damn tired & my bro was irritatin thu wake mie up as he wanna ghu bukit merah central forh breakfast .. i gave him a scoldin & went back thu sleep .. it's only 9+ .. i sae i'll wake up soon .. bout 1o den i woke up .. went forh mac breakfast .. my bro gave mie a treat .. haas .. thanks nerhhs oh .. reach home at bout 12+ ..

sort of bored .. did nothin much .. watched tv blah blah blah .. jush now went thu hab dinner wid mum , bro & uncle .. we ordered the foods first & before my uncle reached , the foods r all ready .. sho in the end , we started our dinner w/o my uncle .. but we ate very slowly .. bout half an hour later , he den reached .. by tat time , i've ate finish & i'm full .. =/
but there's still alort food .. hees .. the worst thin was on our way back home , mum suddenly shouted & said she brought the wron key . gosh ~
nho one was at home kkiaeys .. & i don brin my key .. sho i quickly called dad .. he was still at his work place .. xians ~ .. sho we all waited at the playground .. waited forh bout an hour .. it's bad .. x( mum ish sho blur .. kakas .. opps .

tml ish sundae .. gonna hab a very borin afternoon wid nothin forh mie thu dhu .. * yawns .
see if i can find anithin thu dhu tml .. i shall get myself somethins thu dhu ..

2007-05-17T21:05:00.000+08:00

todae gort back all those exams results .. gosh ~!
it's totally disastrous .. sho far pass only math & english .. science & combined humanities failed .. haiish .. tml will b knowin chinese & poa .. it wont b of any betta or good marks , yea ..
i was sho disappointed in myself .. my math paper2 , my careless mistakes worth a total of 13.5 marks .. serious .. grrs ~ but wad done cant b undone ..

skool ish really boringg .. i told mum bout the results & she was unhappie wid it .. i tink she wont b allowin mie thu ghu out tml nerhhs .. shall c wad she says tml mornin .. =(

ytd went forh the learnin journey .. damn xians .. we went thu the National Museum .. the place ish nice but nothin interestin thu walk .. dere's nothin tat caught my attention & interest barhhs .. =/ it's a total waste of time ..

don feel like goin thu skool tml .. simply nothin betta thu dhu in skool .. rather stay at home & sleep .. but i wanna c my poa & chinese papers .. urm , shall stop here ..

todae daddy's birthdae .. x))

;

[ ` Happy Birthday , Dad * ]

2007-05-15T20:44:00.000+08:00

back thu bloggin nerhs .. ermm , forh the sake of missyshuyu .. xD or nort she's gonna beat my butt .. =/ don beat my butt nerhhs .. hees ~
hmm , i'm sick .. & was absent from skool todae .. ytd evenin went thu c doctor .. & gosh ~ .
i'm habin high fever once again .. 38.4 degree .. haiish .. & in the clinic i waited forh bout 40 mins till it's my turn .. sho many ppl sick norhhs .. x(
ytd nite was quite terrible forh .. my face was swollen .. perhaps it ish because of the strong medicine .. & the whole nite i don seems thu b sleepin well .. & 11+ i'm woken up by mum as it's time thu eat my medicine .. todae woke up at 9+ .. had my breakfast den took my medicine & went thu sleep again .. slept till bout 12+ .. now still habin slight fever .. my throat was swollen .. & was down wid cough & flu .. hopefully tml mornin my fever will b gone .. goin back skool tml .. habin learnin journey tml , yea .. finally exams was over . but when thursdae gort back results , gonna die & b disappointed in myself .. all i ask forh ish only a passin mark ..
durin the period of exams , i slept late & woke up early .. i tried my best ..
i'm feelin drowsy now due thu the medicine barhhs .. perhaps i nid more rest ..
ermm , tink i stoppin here nerhs barhx .. shall blog again tml or some other times ..

- good luck everyone & hope i get well soon -

2007-05-01T19:27:00.000+08:00

hab nort been bloggin forh quite some days ..
haiish .. a new month .. time seems tho pass very fast tish year ..
sunday , mum was sick . ytd , bro was sick . & todae i'm sick ..
in the early mornin bout 6 , feel sho unwell .. was down wid fever & flu .. woke up & took medicine .. den went back tho sleep .. woke up only at 11plus .. whole body was sho weak .. eyes was swollen & reddish .. den bout 1plus , went tho sleep again .. den bout 3plus woke up .. tiringg .. now still habin slight fever .. tish few days hab nort been sleepin early & well .. jush cant get tho sleep .. x(( borinns .. exams ish jush 3daes away .. i'm still nort prepared yet .. i os0 dunn0 wad can b done .. jush wont b able tho dho well in mid year ..
dere's skool tml .. most probably i will ghu tho skool .. even if i unwell , i tink i will still wanna gho skool .. * yawns .. weak & sick ..

2007-04-26T18:59:00.000+08:00

todae was eng & chinese paper one .. early in the mornin rained sho heavily .. went tho skool by cab wid yu , ling .. sujuan gort onto the cab at the last min ..
my eng paper one , haiish .. i tink i cant make it .. it's really bad .. chinese paper one should b can pass but nort well .. * sighs .. somehow i dunn0 y i din hab the idea on wad tho write .. x(
wadeva it ish , dere's nothin more i can sae .. i tried my best already ..
& after the exams , went tho tiong forh lunch wid huii , ling , yu & meiling .. took neoprint together .. went home after tat ..
my days r still sho borin & tiredd .. hmm , tml gort skool .. * yawns ..

~ my heart belongs to no one -

` nothing is forever , nothing is eternity *

# no words are truthful #

2007-04-25T18:15:00.000+08:00

tok abit bout ytd in skool .. ermm , ytd durin pe , re-run forh the 2.4 .. warhs , after my 5th round , it rained & had nho choice tho stop runnin .. by den i'm wet .. & tish few daes , yu & i hab been provokin guang . ahws lalalas . wadeva .. hu call him made mie on mondae .. towards him , i can only sae i'm petty ; xiao qi gui .. ytd in the nite , went tho bm's mac tho study .. i was feelin sho damn unwell as i'm down wid flu after the rain .. cant sleep well ytd nite .. all thanks tho my flu & cough .. grrs ..

todae lessons r boredd .. as usual norhhs .. i'm still tiredd .. the 3rd week already & i'm still that tiredd .. haiish .. after skool went tho clementi forh pizza hut .. omg ~! it costs us each $12.6o .. i'm broke now .. x((
opps ~ .. i'm leavin house soon .. goin tho bm agian tho study .. but i still hab nort change into my clothes .. i'm in my pyjamas .. =/

tml ish our english & chinese paper 1 .. h0pe can pass well which ish hard .. well , hope everyone the best forh tml papers .. JIAYOUS !!! must pass wid flyin colours yea .. xDD

* i'm very happy , my life is getting on very well *

` what i promise myself , i surely wont break it `

# i dont know where i'm heading to , what i'm hoping for #

- you caused me to become speechless -

2007-04-23T21:05:00.000+08:00

first dae of the week .. skool ish borin .. lessons r sho dead .. chinese lesson i tok back tho madam ku .. yarhs yarhs , showed her attitude .. ahws lalala .. english lesson stupid guang .. i provoked him .. wakakakas .. he was readin a story book & obviously he's nort payin attention .. sho i said him " eiu're nort payin attention . " warhs , he fierce siahs & replied mie " i was !! " in his sho called " manly " voice .. powerful ~~ .. he's just sho special .. can pay attention while readin a storybook wid the engrossed face .. well , i'm scared tat he'll throw a chair or even run after mie .. grrs ! after skool gort chemistry remedial .. he's jush irritatin , as i've finish my test sho i slept .. when ms lim called jaz tho wake yu up .. he asked ms lim if should wake mie up anort .. jush nice i woke up & heard tat .. i os0 noe how tho shout & angry sho i shouted at him angrily " SHUT UP ! " kpo guy .. after tat went tho huii house .. every mondae will b goin tho her house tho slack & sing & .............
yupphs .. nothin more tho sae ..

[ sometimes i dunno if i'm tinkin too much .. but my instinct tells mie tat there're alort i dunno .. people seems tho b hidin thins from mie . i really don hope tat thins r of wad i imagined .. i'm nort blind , nort deaf & nort dead yet .. i can still see , hear & feel .. but wadeva it's , lookin at all tish now , it tells mie tat dere's nothin good .. he made it sho obvious tat he's avoidin mie .. seriously dere's nho nid forh eiu tho avoid mie cause dere's nothin i'll wanna dho .. & i'll fulfil the promises i made tho myself .. i will smile & laugh in front of you , i will . ]

` ru guo xiang ku , wo hui ze ji zao di fang ; i'll find a place myself if i wanna cry .

ni bu bi dang xin wo hui nong shi ni jian ban ; you dont have to worry that i'll cry on your shoulder . `

# yi ge ren de wo yi ran hui wei xiao ; i'll still smile even though i'm alone #

2007-04-22T19:15:00.000+08:00

ytd went out tho celebrate lihao's in advance . woke up early norhs .. ling called mie & woke mie up derhhs . i've gort a new name norhs .. =/ sho cant blame mie derhhs as i live up tho the name .. mit up wid ling at tiongg den after tat went tho queenstown tho mit the others .. at first lihao din wanna gho tho kbox .. but in the end , we still went .. sho we people [ hui , ling , yu , kenny , andrew , cheeho , lihao , thomas & his bro & me ] went down tho cineleisure .. i tink all of us enjoy the singings barhs .. meiling & kaisheng came later .. bought a birthdae cake forh lihao .. johnathan , xiuqun & peiwen os0 went kbox .. but they were at another room .. at first at tiong , saw johnathan & peiwen .. after k was bout 3 .. at first wanna watch movie .. but in the end , the timing does nort suits .. sho din watch movie .. bout 4plus , lihao , & one more guy , meiling , huii & mie went tho paradiz centre tho play pool .. & zongyao was wid 3gurls which we dunno derhhs .. they din follow us .. bout 5plus huii left nerhhs .. den we continue tho play till bout 6plus .. after tat meiling , lihao , mie & the other guy went tho plaza sing forh pizza hut .. we ordered the Hut's Family Feast which consists of 2regular pizza , 4 soups & 4 drinks .. we still odered the drumlets & the Ocean Platter .. meiling ate alort .. we played zhong ji mi ma as we cant finish the Ocean Platter .. meiling & i still ordered ice creams .. hehes .. in the end , the meal costs $75 .. after the meal was bout 9plus .. den the 4 of us took cab tho tiong .. in the cab , was damn shitty funnie .. laughed almost the whole journey from plaza sing tho tiong .. wakakas .. ermm at first went tiong ish because lihao wanna buy gloves but in the end the shop closed liaos .. den went up arcade as meiling wanted tho use away her tokens .. den saw cheeho & junren . the boys & meiling went tho safra while i went home .. i cant gho wid dem tho safra .. mum din allow .. sho reached home at bout 10 .. slept at bout 11plus as i cant fall asleep .. haiish .. urmm , i din spent a single cent ytd .. everythin lihao paid .. a big thanks nerhhs ..

todae din went out .. was at home .. in the mornin i felt sho dizzy .. haiish .. it's like the past .. afternoon was sho borinns .. i've gort nothin tho dho .. sho i smsed good boii .. he's sho bad .. he said mie dumb dumb ? i'm lazy piggy , he's os0 a pig .. 5plus wanna gho orh orh .. in the 6plus , i tink he fall asleep .. i went tho bathe .. 7mins later when i came out & replied his sms , he din reply .. meanin he's soundly asleep .. ahhws ! jush 7mins & he'd fall asleep .. really a pig .. but he don admit siahhs .. somemore sae the pig callin other people pig .. & sae he don wan b pig cause pig ish fat .. grrs ~! he's tryin tho sae i fat ?! he denied .. ahwws lalalas .. if he woke up liaos sure wont reply my evenin sms wan norhs .. * sighs
x'(( haiish .. tml skool again .. boredds & tiredd ..

[ * everything is a happy day ; i'm feeling happy ` ]

[ ~ i only wanna let you know , feel & see that i'm happy ~ ]

[ # i'm gonna laugh & smile # ]

[ ' in front of you , i wont let you know how sad i am ; i wont let you see my tears ' ]

( + good gurl - lazy piggy + )

( * S.s.S ` DUmB dumB *)

( ` BOomS , Bo0s . Surprise ! ` )

2007-04-20T19:53:00.000+08:00

i dunn0 wad tho post todae .. * sighs ..
durin assembly , it's funnie .. =/ cause of guang guang .. yea , it's him again .. dere're too many funnie things .
nho remedial todae .. sho after skool went tho huii house .. ordered pizza .. urm but she gort tuition .. sho din stay at her house forh long ..
hmm todae another tells mie tat i gort depression .. ehhs , he's nort the first one .. but i don hab depression luhhs ..

my days now are very happy . i'm laughing loudly & smiling always everyday . but why no one believes that i'm seriously happy ? i dont know what's really happening .. & what's the next few things that are gonna befall on me .. but i've to admit that i'm getting weaker , be it physically & mentally .. erm , so ...............

tml goin out .. celebratin sweetiepie's birthdae in advance .. harhas .. yupphs , sho hope it's gonna b a great dae barhx .. lalalas ~~

[ `` lazyy piggy ** ]

[ # booms , bo0s ! surprise ! # ]

2007-04-19T20:08:00.000+08:00

at first tish mornin if i could wake up early , i'll b mittin yu & ling forh breakfast .. but yupphs , in the end , i cant wake up at all .. & ling & yu din hab breakfast as yu woke up late .. ling gave mie 2 calls in the mornin bout 5plus barhx .. i'm soundly asleep .. =/
it's raining in the early mornin ..
ermm & early in the mornin , it's sho conicidence .. haiish ..
nothin muchh .. there's 2periods of english .. & the 2nd one , mr ali was nort around .. i slept through out .. when the social teacher , which ish the next lesson , came in .. i don even noe .. & my friens woke mie up .. i can only sae i'm nort listenin tho social at all .. i'm DAMN tiredd ..
hmm the first period of pd ish quite funnie .. the 2nd period was use tho revise physics .. sho borinns ..
after skool , bout 3 .. went tho visit haris at his house .. ermm haiish .. he don seems good .. his eyes r swollen & watery .. guang guang was very very funnie .. urm at least haris did laugh at wad he did .. really hope haris will b fine soon & able tho get over it ..

[ ` crazy & joyful * ]

[ # lalalas # ]

[ ~ i'm not good cause if i'm good , you wont abandon me ~ ]

[ * yeahhs , booms ! ` ]

2007-04-18T21:14:00.000+08:00

time seems tho pass slowly tish mornin .. lessons were sho borinn ..
somethin real sad happened tho one of my klassmates .. haiish .. hope everythin ish still fine forh him .. x((
i tink i shall nort write bout wad really happen durin chinese lessons .. it's the worst !
urm the last 2periods was social . durin the lesson , guang was pissed off by some boys of 412 .. he was irritated & he shouted at dem .. he complained tho the social teacher .. but well , the teacher did nothin much tho stop tish .. after social , they came back tho provoke him .. tish time round , he took the metal bar & walked out of the klass .. lucky the boys ran away fast enough or nort dunno wad ish gonna happen barhhs .. the boys din stopped .. they came back again .. sunny kana tish time round .. guang jush ran out sho angrily out of the klass & chased sunny .. he ran after sunny .. tish caused sho many ppl tho come out of the klass tho c wad's happenin .. warhhs norhhs .. todae was not a good dae forh him barhs .. sometimes quite pity him derhhs .. but i'm bad narhhs .. =/
after skool waited forh huii awhile as she went tho music room forh the result of syf .. actually she gort english consultation but i'm naughty .. i called her nort tho gho & pull her out .. askin her tho accompany mie .. sho we took bus & went tho tiong .. on the bus , we discussed wad tho eat .. i wanted tho eat long john silver .. she wanted tho eat kfc .. but i don wan .. & she don hab the mood tho eat long john .. den she said eat mos burger but i don like .. sho when we alighted , i decided eat kfc luhs .. well , we went in by the back door of kfc .. well , the world ish too small & it ish such a coincidence .. too coincidence kkiaeys .. * sighs .. aiyarhs , forget bout tish part .. but in the end , i din ate finish everythin .. x((
went tho huii house after tat .. took cab tho her house .. but din stayed at her house forh long as we went tho jurong east wid her aunt .. yupphs , i tink tat's about todae ..

` [ you've never seen me cry cause of you . but rest assure that no matter how weak i am , i wont let you see & know that i'm actually dropping tears cause of you . ] `

* [ a bunch of great liars ] *

~ [ i'm tired of all this that is happening . i'm sick of my life . ] ~

2007-04-17T20:55:00.000+08:00

tish mornin went tho sko0l together wid ling .. lessons were all sho boring ..
during pe , it's funny luhhs .. =x gort somethin tho dho wid guang .. i shall nort sae wad had happened as it is abit nort too nice .. english lesson ish damn shitty borinn .. * yawns ..
after sko0l gort chinese oral .. ermm i'm too nervous tat the teacher spotted it & told mie tat it's my weakness .. " N " level cannot b sho nervous .. but hopefully the oral overall still ok ..
went home after tat .. & saw ling on the bus worhhs .. sho coincidence ..

[ ` just another meaningless day ` ]

everyday is still so tired for me even though i've got enough of sleep & rest . it has been the second week that i'm feeling like this .. i'm restless .. actually there's quite somethings which i've already know bout it . it is only that i act as though i know nothing .. i'm using my smile & laughter to cover everything up .. it's so hard to act ignorance .. i'm not able to take as though i know & heard nothing bout you .. but i'm left with no choice .. i can only say i dont know anything & i heard nothing .. i'm not blind , not deaf .. i can sense & feel things .. after all you did not give me your love . in the end , the promises you made are left longing , right ? you still abandon me whereby you said before no matter what happen you wont abandon me . is it you wanna tell me now that i'm silly & just a big stupid to believe your words ? i hate it so much when things are like now . you made me feel the shame , do you know that ? the ME now is simply another changed ME .. from the lively & cheerful me , i've change to a ME who i dont even know myself . there's so much i want to tell you & let you know but i choose not to bother you .. since you did not even wanna contact me , then i shall not be so thick-skinned ..

[ + b0ttle of Hearts + ]

did not sms goodboy todae .. although he said tat i din disturb him but i tink i bother him too much nerhhs barhx .. i almost everydae os0 sms him .. sort of use tho it nerhhs .. but i todae neba sms him .. x( cause he don wan his bill to HIGH . ytd he said next time den sms mie as he busy & not wantin his bill tho high . tat's jush a way tho chase mie away barhx .. haiish .. but wadeva & nebamind luhs . but i'm veryy boredds .. i hate the nights .. nights are alwaes the time when i feel really bored & sad .. i'm alone in my room & my mind will wonder round .. the only part i loves is when i can sleep .. i only gort mood tho sleep . * sighhs .. hmm tish 2 nites nho sms from precious .. he said he gonna b busy tish daes & sho will forget tho send mie sms .. it's fine wid mie derhhs .. i boredd os0 dunn0 can dho wad .. cant sms tish person , cant sms tat person .. all busy , all nort free .. den os0 gort someone tat seems tho avoid mie but deny .. aiyarhs ! i dunn0 narhhs .. eiu all r lyin tho mie .. x) smile .

[ * blahs blahs blahs , lalalas * ]

# __ struggling with my life happily __ #

- i'm fine -

2007-04-16T21:31:00.000+08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY , MUMMY !!
LOVES YOU NO MATTER WHAT HAPPEN BETWEEN US .. <3
muackies + huggies !

2007-04-15T19:11:00.000+08:00

ytd nite my gurls called mie & we conference .. they wanna cheer mie up .. they tried tho entertain mie & hopin tat i'll laugh or at least mood will change abit tho betta .. but sorrie gurls .. i din get ani happier .. i jush kept quiet .. i really cant cheer up .. it's sho painful .. the blow tish time round was too big ; i cant take it .. i'll try my best tho get myself out of tish asap as i gort my gurls & os0 goodboii tat really cares forh mie .. but still it's very hard .. wadeva i dho , my mind ish nort wid mie .. my soul seems apart from my body .. it's true & real .. i cant believe tat someone tat once loved , cared , doted & treated mie sho good & much will dho all those thins behind my back .. & he manage tho lie & keep all tish from mie forh sho damn long .. & yet in the end i knew all tish betrays nort from his own mouth but someone else ..

i dunn0 wad ish happening .. my health seems sho weak tish yr .. i vomited jush now .. it's the second time tish yr .. throughout 2-3 yrs i can don even vomit once but yet tish yr i vomited twice in 2months .. now my stomach hurts & i feel tat dere's still more tho vomit out .. i din even hab the appetite & mood forh my dinner .. i sort of skipped my dinner .. last month i jush vomited sho badly .. i find it sho cruel .. there're problems forh mie tho handle & solve .. there's hurtful facts forh mie tho accept .. & now my health ........
it's really sho tiring ..

[ will you people return the lively & cheerful of me back !? ]

[ my life is dark ; my heart is shallow ]

[ i hate everything that is befalling on me ]

[ it's too cruel & unfair for me to face all this now ]

2007-04-14T19:43:00.000+08:00

the feeling of being betrayed .. the feeling of being kept in the dark for more than a year .. the feeling of having to accept the facts of different things time after time .. when dere's already sho much problems unsolved , my heart gort hurt by some other horrible facts .. i've been struggling with my life after since eiu left mie .. everydae hopin & tryin tho b happie .. tish 18months dere's nort a dae whereby dere's really a great happiness in my life .. it's unfair enough .. it's cruel enough .. i'm a human too .. i dho hab feelings like everyone else out dere .. i hate tho c myself crying bacause of eiu .. wheneva my tears dropped cause of eiu , my heart hurts sho badly .. will eiu noe & understand such feelings ? i control myself from cryin since i insisted on knowin all those hurtful doings of eiu .. in front of " dem " , i din wanna let eiu all c tat i cry .. i bear wid it .. on the bus , my eyes r wet .. i took deep breathes forh my tears nort tho drop .. the moment i alighted , my tears rolled down .. it's sho painful & hard tho stopped the tears from rolling down .. i'm totally sad ; i cried .. my tears somehow cant stopped droppin .. fridae's nite was sho tiring , sho painful .. my mind was filled with all ur cruel doings .. dere's nho way i can get it out of my mind .. it repeated & repeated .. i cried till i fall asleep .. my eyes were swollen .. the moment i was awake , it's all those betrays again tat was in my mind flashin .. i hardly cant believe that you did such things to me behind my back ..

things r easier tho sae than dho .. eiu all tink i loves tho b sad marhs .. i os0 hopes tho b happie , smilin naturely like how it used tho b like 3years ago .. if eiu people were in my position now , will eiu all still b able tho smile & laugh like nothing has happend before .. will eiu all understand how i feels ? dho eiu all noe how tired it ish tho face sho much sho much things ? when such things happen tho mie , i'm sorrie tho sae tat my heart & i cant & wont b able tho take it .. it's too hurtful .. friends tell mie tho cheer up but how tho .. i'm sure if such things happen on eiu all , eiu all os0 cant cheer up .. i noe it's nort worth cryin forh such ppl & thins but can i control & stop my tears ? the answer ish i cant .. can anione of eiu dho it ? i tink it's a nho ..

when my mood was sho bad & down , nho one was by my side .. i smsed goodboii .. he din reply & till now dere's nort a reply .. i smsed someone else & told wad happened .. he replied but later on , dere's nho reply form him .. & yarhhs , til now os0 nho reply .. i din wanna bother anione ; i don hope tho create extra disturbances & even burdens tho eiu all .. jush leave mie like tish barhs ..

if tish daes , i dho thins tat let eiu all feel pissed off or wad , please forgive mie .. if i irritated eiu guys , tell mie or ven scold mie .. i'm sorrie tho people tat really cares & hopes tat i can b happie cause i'm nort able tho cheer up barhhs .. if dere's ppl tat still really cares forh mie , i'll wanna sae i appreciate it ..

[ ` struggling with her tired life ] *

[ * no mood for anything ]`

[ ~ depressed ~]

2007-04-11T20:39:00.000+08:00

i'm totally lost & gone this time .. i did something wrong .. i dunn0 y thins will turn out tho b like now .. i don wan thins tho b like tish .. i dunn0 how tho sae .. but i wanna explain .. i feel sho BAD in my heart .. i dunno wad the hell i'm doing .. i don wan ani hurts .. my heart feels sho guilty now .. everythin was like suddenly sho sudden .. i din noe when it really started .. i only noe i've tho dho somethin ..
i'm totally & wholly tiredd .. im breakin down soon .. it's sho hard tho forget & at the same time leadin my life w/o ani hurts & changes .. now he don sms mie .. he simply don tok tho mie .. i did somethin wrong ? why ?! will eiu tell mie wad happen ? i HATES the way thins ish now .. i hates ur ignores .. i can only sae tat eiu're avoidin mie .. i din contact eiu tish daes since eiu din too ..

i don wan hurt anione .. i , one person gettin hurt ish betta than 2 .. but eiu should noe wad ish happenin here .. i hate myself .. i feel sho depress now .. tish yr , every month of tish yr , i've neba been totally happie .. it's gettin worst each month .. more & more thins ish happenin tho mie month after month .. when i've nort even solve one problem tat ish in my heart , the other happens .. when one problem ish terrible enough forh mie tho take it , how the shit am i gonna take the another BIG BLOW ..

i wanna leave . i have no more strength to face all this . i'm sorry for everythings to everyone .

2007-04-10T20:59:00.000+08:00

i've gort nothin much tho sae .. almost everydae ish the same .. nothin seems tho hab change tho the better .. forh people round mie , if tink tat i'm happie or hab become more happier tish daes , den let it b norhhs .. tink i'm still sadd , it's os0 like tat norhs .. but i'm tellin ppl tat i'm happie , i can smile , can luagh , can tok & tok .. sho yupphs , i'm perfectly FINE physically & mentally .. lalalas ~ !
after chinese remedial , was habin a real bad gastric pain cause din eat .. it's painful .. haiish ! it's raining too ..
now i'm coughin ; throat feelin unwell .. feelin sickk soon .. tish few daes , i'm really tiredd .. totally .. hab neba been sho tired before .. but yet i'm doin thins tho keep myself occupied .. i dunn0 wad more i can dho ..
now i've tho os0 worry forh the money tho pay my bill tish month .. mum dunno tat i gort the bill nerhhs .. i hide it & she've been askin & tellin mie tho get ready my bill's moneyy .. uhs , but i seriously hab nho way tho take out the money .. but cant care sho much nerhhs . jush let one dae after one dae luhs .. she will soon find out derhhs ..
don feel like postin any longer .. when i've the mood den i post some photos tat was taken wid huii .. yarhhs sho stoppin here ..

2007-04-07T21:22:00.000+08:00

boredds .. was at home tish 2daes .. * yawns .. just posted some photos .. the first 2 was yu & mie .. taken at vivo .. the second & third was huii & mie .. one was taken at tiong & the other was taken on the bus when we're on our way home after the watchin the final soccer match .. the last three was taken at home wid my pyjamas .. gort nothin tho dho sho took some photos .. zilian ~ 2 was taken ytd nite .. still gort quite alort .. hees ..

2007-04-05T21:50:00.000+08:00

hmm .. todae pan wei aho came into our klass tho gib us a motivitional tok durin pd .. i nearly fall asleep .. damn tired .. after skool was nafa 2.4 run .. as i gort leg , tat's y i can run .. but ish only whether can run well anort .. sho i've tho sae i can run but din run well .. get tish correct .. the boys went first .. mostly seems tho run well & fast ; can pass .. after tat was we girls .. the weather was damn h0t .. the heat was really unbearable .. tish yr , i tried my best .. even our nie pe teacher called mie tho run when it's my last round . he said tat i can pass .. but i was walkin at tat time as i gort nho more strength .. hard tho breathe .. i failed by bout 2mins plus .. but hab tho thanks tho my friens like sunny , binwei , isman & some others tat called my name & ask mie tho run .. thanks precious too ! haiish .. abit disappointed .. hab tho take re-test .. xians .. whole body achin now .. x((
tink stoppin here . nid tho get some rest soon ..

2007-04-03T21:16:00.000+08:00

wad a dae n0rhhs .. durin physics lesson , we went tho the computer lab .. den madam cheng caught mie comin into the blog .. she called huii & mie tho gho down tho the parade square & stand beside the flag pole . siaos n0rhhx .. in the end we din stand beside the flag pole .. we sat down at the shelter near the security counter .. we relax one corner .. we chatted .. den cheng wan us call our parents .. in the end , mum n0e bout it & i noe she's unhappie . but wadeva n0rhhs . after skool gort nafa .. tired after the nafa .. i'm still sho lousy in fitness .. lol ..
after tat went tho eat raja inn wid yuu .. was hungry as i din eat anithin durin the recess & only ate a bowl of beancurd after skool . went home after tat .. saw mum black face .. nort long quarrel wid her .. she don let mie use computer n0rhhs .. sho unreasonable .. i jush tok back .. grrs ~! den after i finish my poa homework , i tell her i finish my work nerhs & wanted tho use the computer .. mum nowadaes mood nho good n0rhhs .. den sort of vent her anger on mie .. dunn0 her narhs .. * sighs .. suchh a stressful life . nothin much tho sae nerhhs barhhs .

__ [ ` lost in the lUst of l0ve * ] __

2007-04-02T20:39:00.000+08:00

hmm .. todae quite a borinn dae barhhs .. nothin much happened .. & yarhs , 4more weeks tho exam .. grrs ~! urmm after skool gort chemistry remedial & after tat went huii's house .. sing sing sing ..
urm tml nafa test .. gosh ! really gonna suffer .. i cant dho sit up cause of my backbone & yarhh , i'm lousy in all this .. i admit .. x(( haiish ..
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[ * Forh those bo liaos people tat tag mie all those rubbish * - i dunn0 who eiu people r .. but jush stop all tish .. all tish shows tat eiu ppl r really very childish .. nothin betta tho dho den gho find some other thins tho dho narhhs .. don come my tagboard & tag mie all those nonsense .. if eiu all wan dho all tish , den tish ish n0rt the right place .. sho get away from my blog .. ]

2007-04-01T21:45:00.000+08:00

it's really boredd at home .. there's nothin forh mie tho dho ..
ytd os0 at home .. cant gho out .. haiish .. grrs ~! somemore 1 whole week nho allowance neiihs .. dunno if tml mum will gib mie anort when i ask . really sho unreasonable n0rhs .. she now os0 neba tok tho mie . x(( sobs ..
now sms-ing wid precious .. he ytd neba sms mie worhhs ..
but received 1 goodnite sms from deardear todae at bout 12.45am todae .. harhas .. was quite happie narhhs cause normally when he neba sms mie , dere will nort b even a goodnite sms . but i don tink he rmb somethin .. * sighs ..
chattin wid good boii now .. but sad , i've tho offline soon .. he alwaes sho late den online .. i still owe him somethin .. hehes ..

tml gort skool .. xians .. * yawns ..

2007-03-31T19:25:00.000+08:00

thursdae , a fun dae . after remedial went tho vivo tho watch muvie , mr bean's holidae wid farhan , ridhwan , izwan , kweexiang , binwei & yu .. the muvie was funnie , the part after muvie when we went tho play water was fun .
ytd was sports dae .. cheered forh our house , phoenix .. [:
but thins ytd was n0rt good at all .. next time , i wont b goin tho samueltan's birthdae party animore .. tish ish tho prevent the similar thin from happenin again .. since his parents & relatives g0rt such a bad impression on us forh goin late forh his party last year .. & even said tat y he will invite such ppl tho his party .. ppl who came dere late & jush tho eat .. well , sho in future he don invite us & we dont gho .. was sho angry tat i din really hab my dinner ytd . went tanglin halt wid yu , huii , deardear & peng .. huii & i shared 1plate of fired hokkien mee . at first my mood was betta & wanted tho eat . bout 5mouths later , samueltan called & i don hab the mood tho eat animore .. sho called huii tho finish it .. after tat , went tiong wid huii .. ling came tho find us .. saw ziyu at tiong .. sho together the 4 of us went tiong park .. we saw some skoolmates at tiong park .. left dere at bout 9plus , reached home at bout 10 .. mum was unhappie wid mie n0w .. wadeva it ish narhhs ..

precious 5o% comin back tish june forh 2weeks , 5o% comin back durin september forh 1week . it's very short .. haiish .. x( but hope he will b comin back durin june as everyone misses him loads .. loves *

2007-03-28T20:17:00.000+08:00

it's another moody dae forh mie .. mood was still the same .. nho much change .. i was late forh my bus sho bo bian hab tho take cab .. haiish ! dunno y i sho sway .. i fail sho many tests tish month .. i take wad test , i fail wad test .. poa test i dunn0 how tho dho .. i anihow dho .. i dunn0 wad rubbish i wrote .. i simply gort nho mood forh anithin .. i hardly tok .. i jush sat dere , diam diam .. listen tho wad ppl tok ..

i noe tish daes i'm really very different .. most ppl notice tat & showed mie their concern .. i'll try my best tho cheer up & b abit happier than n0w .. sorry tho get eiu all sho worried f0rh mie but i'm okiaeys .. it's my some problems ..
once again i really gort tho sae i appreciate those tat truly cares .. dere's quite alort of eiu all .. thanks forh tryin tho cheer mie up , be by my side tellin mie tho cheer up , b happie ..

but i felt touched .. as my goodboii actually cares sho much & gort worried forh mie .. he even online at bout 9plus+ ytd nite & chatted wid mie forh tat awhile .. & peng has been checkin up on mie , seein if i'm feelin betta anort .. my gurls os0 tried their best tho like cheer mie up .. as forh other friens & klassmates , they called mie nort tho b sad & etcs ..
deardear i dunn0 wad tho sae .. he called mie ytd nite wantin tho noe wad happen tho mie but i din sae .. ` x(( thanks thanks thanks tho eiu ppl .. & sorrie too .. * sighs
tish few nites , precious smsed mie before he gho orh orh .. somehow i wish he ish here wid us ..

lastly , i hope ppl round mie / all my LOVES can b happie .. wad matters ish they're happie & n0rt whether i'm happie an0rt .. my happiness does n0rt matters .. all of eiu jiayous nerhhs ..

2007-03-27T17:39:00.000+08:00

although ytd went tho orhorh much earlier but i cant get tho sleep & really had a hard time sleepin .. my heart & mind ish feelin sho terrible .. i was still hopin i'm able tho b happier when i woke up & gho tho skool .. i din feel ani betta todae .. my mood was totally down .. even the pe teacher asked mie y i'm sho moody & cause of tish he reduced the running around the field from 5rounds tho 3rounds .. * haiish * wadeva i dho , i don hab the mood , simply nho .. i tried tho cheer myself up but i still cant b happie naturely .. everyone asked mie wad happen , y i looked moody , sad , troubled .. all i replied ish nothin , i'm okaieys blahblah .. i tink the mie todae was really very very different from the mie i normally looks like .. even when todae i laugh i cant laugh ani longer .. i laughed & stopped .. i tink i will b like tish forh tish week ; unhappie .. nho one seems tho b able tho let mie feel happie & cheer mie up .. & those tat can don seems tho really care .. i don wan tho lie tho myself & tell myself all those lies which r nort real at all .. i'm tiredd . tish 9months , i really live my life till very sick & tiredd .. i nho longer hab the courage , confidence in anithin .. i nho longer feel the happiness but only feel the sadness .. i'm unable tho b the cheerful mie .. DEAD & GONE FOREVER !

by tellin mie eiu'll change but needin time tho get over somethin , my heart & eiu gave mie the slightest hope . but yet my eyes tells mie tat eiu're nort tryin ur very best everydae tho change & get over .. this had caused mie nort tho hab the slightest hope .. eiu treated mie as if i'm nho one , i'm invisible .. eiu've neba seems tho notice wad ish happenin tho mie .. wheneva eiu noe , it's obviously someone told eiu bout it .. everytime when i see the cares from eiu , it might b good but yet it appears tho b bad .. cause eiu dho sho as someone called eiu tho dho .. sho dho eiu all tink i should feel happie or ??eiu don hab tho feel guilty forh anithin .. eiu did n0thin .. wad i did ish jush on my own will .. eiu din call mie tho dho sho .. everythin ish jush my wishful thinkings & doings .. mayb all tish while , i'm jush another gal tat eiu used tho flirt .. i really dunno .. i knew eiu told someone tat eiu wanna care forh mie but jush dunn0 y eiu're unable .. but eiu said eiu'll try .. i n0e all tish but i choose nort tho sae anithin .. even when i'm unhappie or angry wid eiu , i will always n0rt let eiu n0e tat it's eiu .. & os0 n0rt tellin eiu wad happen tho mie cause i hope tat eiu're happie & don get affected by my thins as i don wanna add any burdens tho eiu .. eiu've ur own problems too .. x(( haiish .. sadded .. sobs sobs .

i really hab tho sae sorry tho people like my gurls , my good boii , peng & some others tat gort worried forh mie todae .. but thanks forh all of ur cares .. as forh deardear , thanks f0rh botherin tho ask mie wad happen even though it ish someone tat told eiu tho dho sho & sorrie tat i din tell eiu wad happen ..

2007-03-26T21:34:00.000+08:00

early in the mornin rain sho heavily .. g0rt lightnin & thunder .. mie was scared of all the thunders .. * dont laugh * ermm .. den yu came tho find mie at the bus stop i alwaes alighted cause of mie fearin the thunder .. * dont laugh horhs .. * but i'm really very scare of thunder .. from small till n0w .. while walkin tho skool , saw the 2kai's .. kaiheng , kaisheng .. hmm reached skool went tho toilet .. yu & i pon the first period ..
ermm don really hab the mood tho type more on wad happen in skool etcs ..
if tml mood betta than i mayb den type more on wad happen todae , blahblahblahs ..

2007-03-25T21:03:00.000+08:00

todae woke up at bout 9 .. the tv programmes n0rt nice sho i watched my dvd till 11 .. den watch the tv show .. after lunch went tho tiong wid brO .. all my brO's fault .. if he neba lost his ez link card , i don hab tho gho down tho tiong .. weather sho hot n0rhhs .. grrrs ~! when i went popular saw huii & her family .. & i was sho blur tat i called her dad " auntie " . x( s0rrie , i dont mean it .. tish was the 2nd time tish week tat i called an uncle , auntie .. paisae paisae .. after some while in the popular wid gurlfrien huii , i left .. hmm , after takin the new ez link of my bro , went tho buy food & drink den went home nerhs . reach home at bout 3plus if i din rmb wrongly .. reached home watched dvd & at the same time tokin on phone wid my gurlfrien yuu .. hang up after some time .
xianns .. tml g0rt chemistry test .. gonna fail liaos .. i dunn0 y i don hab the mood tho study , revise & rmb .. x(( haiish .. well , i'm prepared tho fail & os0 gettin a very disastrous march progress report .. * SIGHS

precious really very great . ytd before he went tho sleep , he gave mie an sms jush tellin mie he's goin tho sleep nerhs & blahsblahs .. wo ye ai si ni nerhs .. muackx . & rmb tat eiu said eiu'll come back f0rh mie derhhs ohx .. don forget ..
i gib deardear a sms ytd nite .. x)) i'm happie f0rh the moment when i saw dear's replied sms . because it has been quite some time tat he din call mie laopo nerhs & he said he love & miss mie too . deardear , eiu're in my heart .
aw ~! ytd good boii forget tho reply my sms n0rhs .. 1hour later den he rmb tho reply . but i fall asleep liaos n0rhhs .. * humpf .. gort computer den f0rget mie nerhhs .. harhas .. tish daes i alwaes sms good boii .. ehhs like disturbin n0rhhs .. n0w i os0 sms-ing wid good boii .. thanks good boii f0rh sms-ing wid mie tish daes .. (=
mie was boredd marhhs .. den deardear alwaes like n0rt free , reply very late derhhs .. sort of like don wanna sms wid mie .. sho i din really wanna gib him troubles .. & deardear os0 don sms mie tish daes . ish i gib him an sms derhs siahhs .. )x
:] percious jush n0w gib mie an sms neiihs before he gho orhorh .. hehes .
hope girlfrien yu can last long wid her boyfrien . jiayous !!
i'm fortunate tho hab people tat love & cares f0rh mie . it came from their hearts .. i really love eiu people !

2007-03-24T21:22:00.000+08:00

tish m0rnin i was really tired . i set alarm at 8.55 & stopped it when it rang .. i slept back .. & when i was about tho fall asleep , my handphone rang .. huii called .. picked up & well she was outside her tuiton center , waitin f0rh her teacher tho come .. sho i peii her chat till her teacher reached which was bout 1hour plus later .. den went tho brush teeth , eat breakfast & blablabla .. after everythin was done , went out tho tiong wid mum & bro .. i was sho damn blur tat i f0rgot tho take my ez-link card when i left .. went back home tho take .. bought 2pairs of skool shoes .. den os0 bought webcam & microphone as tho c & tok tho my cousins in Ireland . (x
ermm bought 1plus , mum & bro left & went home .. i was still at tiong .. dunn0 wad tho dho .. jush walkin around as i'm waitin f0rh yuu tho come .. real boredd .. shop os0 like shop finish liaos .. hmm lucky at bout 2.3o huii's dance ended & she came down tho find mie .. at bout 3plus , we left tiong f0rh plaza sing as we're mittin yu at dere .. we din stay at plaza sing f0rh long .. we walked tho paradiz center f0rh pool .. saw hai shien .. [:
there were nho m0re tables .. sho decided tho gho tho kim seng .. the weather was sho damn HOT .. grrs ~! we was like sho sway .. even kim seng os0 nho tables .. after some while , decided tho gho tho safra . lucky dere were tables available dere .. huii & yu played .. i sat dere tho look .. huii has tho leave as she's habin dinner wid her family .. ehhs sho after she left , i learned how tho play pool .. x( i'm stupid & retarded n0rhhs .. bout 7plus left safra .. went home after tat .. reached home at 8 .. lucky mum din really sae mie .. todae was n0rt feelin well .. i'm feelin like h0w i felt tat time when i vomitted .. seems like my health was n0rt in good terms .. haiish ..

. misses deardear . he's still the same .. he will never sms me unless he got things to ask .. this just wont change . harhas .. [ o2 . feb . o7 ]
` misses good boy . but he just wont be online earlier than bout 10/11 .. but good boy cares f0r me derhhs . i'm his one & only good girl . good gurl will never be replaced . (x hehes [ 14 . o3 . o7 ]
* misses precious . he's just not in singapore . even though we got contact each other , but still he's not with me . no matter what , precious will be in my heart .. [ 14 . o2 . o7 ]
# i hope my girlfrien yuu can cheer up & be happie .. as f0rh girlfrien huii , hopes she can b even happier than n0w barhhs ..
__ i hOpe all my LOVES can be well & fine & happie . i wont feel any better if you all aint ok .. lovin & missin eiu all .. muackies ..

2007-03-23T21:47:00.000+08:00

hmm .. t0dae skool was still ok barhhs . somehow quite tiredd .. goodboii was bein bullied by mie . ytd i took awae his one & only pen causin him hab nho pen tho write .. todae i took awae his math paper , & he cant dho his corrections . he jush sat dere lyin on the table . lookin quite pissed off .. harhas . but i n0e he wont get pissed off derhhs .. xD well , he took awae my ruler & he said mie FATTY . x(( haiish .. sadded .. urm goodboii made a beg the previous dae . he said if i pass my chinese , i 1o o'clock has tho b online . if he pass , he will 9 o'clock online . grrs ~! in the end , i lost & hab tho online at 1o .. =O dere's still another beg on the geography test . hehes .. durin assembly i was sho pai sae . i stood up when actually was titus who was behind mie had tho stand up . i thought mr cheng was sayin mie tho stand up .. LOLS ..

the happie thin was tat dere's nho remedial as we're goin forh the match of our skoOl soccer boiis vs. bishan park . after skool went tho tiong wid yu , peng , goodboii , kaiheng , binwei , justus & ridhwan . peng & i went tho pierce our ears . harhas .. after tat went tho eat kfc . ehhs only yu & i ate .. the boiis din eat & in the end they went tho kopitiam tho eat .. at kfc saw my ganmeii , wenxin .. long time nho c nerhhs .. after tat took train back skool .. went tho bukit timah derhs dunn0 where tho watch the match .. sad siahhs .. our skool came in 2nd while bishan park sec came in the champion . but well our skoOl has tried their very best .. x) )
durin the match was exciting .. & it's funnie too as dere's some funnie photos of 2person bein taken .. wakakas ..
after the match , went tho hab dinner wid yu , huii , kah hao , vincent , bradley & johnathan ..
ehhs .. the toilet dere was sho dirty .. * yucks
after tat we went home .. parted wid yuu as she walked the different wae as us .. all of us excpet kah hao took the same bus . among dem , i'm the last one tho alight . harhas ..
was quite a tirin dae . * yawns ..

__ myprecious todae discharge liaos .. sho good .. :] finally he's fine nerhhs .. hmm he must really takecare of himself .. loves & misses <3>
__ smsed mydeardear ytd .. was angry wid him tat time den he din sms mie f0rh quite some daes .. deardear thought i still angry wid him sho he din wanna sms mie & i'm like alwaes pissed off when sms-ing wid him . urm but i don feel pissed off w/o reason derhhs marhhs .. but deardear said he wont abandon mie nho matter wad happen . tat was one of the prOmise he made . hope the promise made wont b left longin . deardear g0rt miss mie all those while when he din sms mie .. he told mie he miss mie . x)) & he cares f0rh mie . ytd fall asleep when i haven replied his sms . but i can sort of feel tat the words he said ytd nite was filled wid his different feelins . i'm still lovin deardear alwaes . urm nho sms fr0m him yet . sort of sadd but it's ok :[
__ mygoodboyy seems tho b bullyin mie tish daes .. harhas .. badd & naughty siahhs .. x(

tml can sleep abit later .. but goin out wid mum tho tiongg .. nid buy skool shoes etc. .. den after tat should b mittin yuu .. but the thin was i dunn0 wad time i'm gonna mit her as mum din tell mie wad time we're goin tiongg .. she said n0rt sho early .. hmm seems abit busy tml .. =/ abit relieved tat dere's nho homework ..

2007-03-21T18:54:00.000+08:00

sko0l was really boredd .. tiringg .. hmm i failed my poa , chemistry os0 dunn0 should sae pass anort .. all results os0 suckin .. seems like tish month my progress report gonna b a gone case .. the 2boiis beside mie g0rt pay attention in klass worhhs .. urm it seems like i'm the one n0rt tryin my best in my studies .. all my friens near mie r workin hard , puttin tat little bit of effort . opps * how arhhs ? dere's really a possiblility tat i cant finish my sec education till i take my "o" levels .. if i cant make through " N " i might b leavin here nerhhs .. x(
urmm todae hab flu the whole dae .. n0w os0 n0rt well .. coughin .. haiihs .. # unwell
feelin stress .. i'm tiredd .. moody derhhs .. but i'm fine !
harhas .. tml m0rnin eatin breakfast wid ling & yu .. g0rt tho wake up early .. lol ..
hmm tink tat's all .. xD

2007-03-19T21:30:00.000+08:00

wad tho sae f0rh todae neiihs .. hmm , first dae of sko0l tish term .. was really sleepy sometimes .. haiish ..
first period was poa .. g0rt back test paper .. urm i failed .. guang guang was the lowest & he g0rt sho fed up .. he cried kkaieys .. nho joke .. i saw it wid my own eyes .. & some others saw too ..
den chinese lesson , heard tat he g0rt agitated again .. kweexiang made him .. warhhs .. todae don seems a good dae f0rh him .. n0rt long later , g0rt agitated again by yu wid her raisin up her hands imitatiing him .. he saw & knew it .. lol ..
ermm .. after skool g0rt remedial .. after remedial , huii pei mie went tho tiongg .. we ate kfc , drank sweet talk .. x))
reached home at bout 6.45 .. mum was like sayin mie .. but it's okiaeys .. she was n0rt angry . luckyy .. urm todae mood was s0rt of moody .. still sadded barhhs ..
warhs .. soon g0rt tho offline niaos .. good boii haven online siahhs .. he said 9plus online .. haas .. but it's okiaeys narhhs ..
i hope myPRECIOUS can get well soon .. * sighs ..
x . __ disappointments . x__

2007-03-18T19:45:00.000+08:00

hmm .. todae was sho damn tired tat i only woke up at 11plus .. i quickly woke up as i wanna watch the show on channel 8 .. dotts .. if n0rt i surely continue my sleep ..
todae stayed at home .. went nho where other than goin down tho buy somethins tho eat ..
ytd nite i smsed myPRECIOUS a birthdae sms .. den i gort tho n0e tat he ish in the hosipital as he's habin fever .. he still said wad if he dies , i mush takecare of myself .. haiish .. chOy ! he will b gettin well soon .. n0thin will happen tho him .. i dunn0 wad i can dho .. sho n0w i can only wait f0rh his sms as i called him tho sms mie when he's well nerhhs .. myPRECIOUS hao ke liann .. peng rmb his birthdae .. sho i tested deardear .. he don rmb at all .. nho heart ; bo xim .. i gave him a chance & called him tho tink hard .. still dunn0 , somem0re still anihow bomb tat todae ish the dae i become his laopo .. GRRS ~! disappointed n0rhhs .. his brother neiihs .. * speechless
tish afternoon online awhile .. my good boii g0rt online w0rhhs .. ermm chatted wid him .. although the chat was a short one but it's a nice one .. lol
urm tml skool reopen niaos . xians ~! i did n0ne of the homeworks assigned .. g0rt tho face the consequences soon .. my stomach n0w very pain .. dunn0 wad happen .. quite xinku .. x( sighs *

myPRECIOUS..
HAPPY BIRTHDAY ! & eiu must get well soon . it's a MUST ..

i n0e sometimes , some ppl jush dunn0 how tho appreciate wad i've done f0rh dem ..
but it's fine barhs .. cause i don ask f0rh dem tho appreciate it the thins i've done ish on my own will ..

2007-03-17T21:14:00.000+08:00

ytd nite went tho sleep at bout 1o .. habin nho choice n0rhs as mum was back & was supposed tho wake up at 5 tish m0rnin as goin forh the campus superstar gurls as a supporter .. den i fell asleep quite fast as i was damn tiredd .. but was awoke by call & sms's .. tish m0rnin at bout 5plus , huii called , givin mie a m0rnin call .. i was still sho tired tat i din really speak but only sound like " hmm " .. actually ytd nite at bout 12plus , received a call from yuu sayin tat she's n0rt joinin campus todae nerhs & asked if todae wanna mit later an0rt .. sho i said yarhs & gave a mittin time tat ish 8 .. i was half wae through my tight sleep when i picked up tat call kkiaeys .. i was n0rt clear in mind at tat time .. sho in the end told huii tat mittin yu at 8 & hang up the phone .. guess wad .. ii went BACK tho SLEEP . i've no choice as i'm shiity tiredd .. woke up at bout dunno wad time nerhs .. i don rmb .. but was yu who called mie tho wake up derhs .. it ish really hard tho get up from bed n0rhs .. todae i g0rt myself prepared quite fast .. gort ready quite fast .. went tiong mrt tho mit up wid yu den went down toa payoh n0rhs .. * yawns .. huii , ziyu , meilian & other queenswayans r already down dere .. there's sho many people dere n0rhs , joinin f0rh campus .. ermm waited till bout 2plus den finally was huii & the other queenswayan's turn .. we're all sho nervous f0rh dem .. although the result was n0rt good but still they did their very best nerhhs .. ish jush tat the judges r too strict .. urm after tat went down tho marina tho eat long john wid yuuu .. den after tat walked tho suntec tho play arcade .. sad n0rhs .. the para machine at suntec was gone .. grrs ~! x(
a 8yr old gurl ish really good in playin rock fever .. * claps * took train home after tat .. walked home fr0m tiongg .. tOdae was a tiring dae ..
xians n0rhs ..

ytd nite online , my good boii din online .. n0w , my good boii os0 n0rt online .. misses him niahs .. (x hees .. happie & honoured bein his only GOOD GURL .. he gave mie a name n0rhs .. short f0rm ish S.S.S .. LOL .. at first it stands f0rh swit sugar shan .. harhas ! it's nice but weird sho he den changed tho super swit shan .. goshh ! super neiihs .. i told him i cant accpet bein a SUPER swit shan .. sho in the end S.S.S stands f0rh swit shan shan .. xD sho swit of my good boii .. he ate fruits tat dae when out wid him & others n0rhs .. * huggies dry w/o DRY *
i os0 miss myPRECIOUS .. it's LOADS .. he is n0rt back here tish holidae .. lookin f0rwards tho june holidae which ish still longg .. by then , i hope tho c myPRECIOUS .. :]
ehhs , as f0rh deardear .. it's still the same n0rhs .. H.U.M.P .. somehow & at all times i'm disappointed in him .. i dunn0 yy .. i'm confused by somethins .. deardear called mie tho gib him some time tho get over somethin .. =( nothin m0re tho sae ; speechless ..
well , i love my GIRLS ! <3>
as f0rh those tat don bother tho gib a damn care f0rh mie , den it's okiaeys .. i wont dho or even sae anithin .. i will jush b diam diam .. cause after all i should b jush nho one ..

i'm still n0rt able tho b happie even though im tryin hard .. eiu ppl called mie tho cheer up & tho b happie but i cant .. i seriously cant smile naturally .. i dunn0 wad ish called happiness .. i only n0e wad ish called unfair & cruel .. i dunn0 h0w long it will takes tho heal the hurts in my heart .. if dere's someone tat loves & cares f0rh mie , i'll b able tho get over everythin in my heart m0re easily .. but sad tho sae , dere's nho one & i'm alone by myself tho face all tish .. but it's okiaeys cause i'm n0rt facin tish forh the first time ..

2007-03-16T19:53:00.000+08:00

mie wid my lovely PINK ROSE ! (:

tat ish my PRECIOUS PINK ROSE <3>

t0dae was tired f0rh mie . at first i don intend tho sleep .. in the end i online till 4 , i went tho sleep .. i cant tahan .. & was suppose tho wake up at 7 tish m0rnin .. i received a m0rnin call frOm yu .. but i went back tho sleep after hangin up .. cause i'm simply damn tiredd .. in the end i woke up at bout 8plus .. quickly prepare myself as i'm goin tho toa payoh f0rh the campus superstar boiis .. mit yuu at tiong den went down by train together .. haas .. by the time we reach dere , it was about tho start .. at first was still fine but after some time , i gort quite b0redd .. yu & i went tho pizza hut & ate .. lol .. nice w0rhhs .. xD
hmm yu & i g0rt roses w0rhs .. her rose was blue in colour .. mines ish pinkk .. =)
we din stay at toa payoh f0rh long .. we left at bout 1plus if i din rmb wrongly .. mitted binweii & boon at lucky plaza .. sho yu & i took 143 dere .. it was like sho sway .. went lucky plaza f0rh poOl but cant as boon was the only one tat ish fully 16 .. den walked tho cineleisure .. os0 cant cause we r n0rt fully 16 yet .. sho we took cab tho paradiz centre .. lol .. the extra one dollar f0rh the cab .. GRR ~! as usual i din play poOl .. i sat d0wn & watched dem play .. as they're playin , was at the same time waitin f0rh tat lihao tho come .. keep sayin comin nerhs comin nerhs .. one hour later still haven come .. * nana * nOrhs ..
binwei left quite early as he g0rt basketball .. den left boonwee & yu playin .. it's sho funnie when yu said tat the loser treat eat fries .. den when yu was losin , it will change tho winner treat eat fries .. boonwee was like shocked n0rhs .. harhas .. sho funnie siahhs .. lol ..
played till bout 5plus .. den left n0rhs .. we walked tho plaza sing .. on the wae , yu was tokin about being a gentleman .. harhas .. urm waited awhile f0rh lihao at plaza sing .. den we took the train .. i alighted at tiong , the first one tho alight .. x)
ermm walked home n0rhs ..
mum came back nerhs .. g0rt 2new pyjamas .. baby mickey & minnie mouse neiihs .. ermm tml wakin up early .. mittin huii , yu & some others at 6.3o at tiong .. goshh .. it's early .. but well , g0rt tho wake up early .. huii , her sis & some others ish gonna join the campus superstar girls tml .. JIAYOUS ~! =)

nowadays felt so confused .. i dunno why ..
there's no definite answer given to all my uncertain questions ..
haiish .. x(

2007-03-16T00:54:00.000+08:00

ytd was a fun dae .. i woke up late niahs .. supposed tho get up at 7 .. lihao gave mie a m0rnin call at 7 . i picked up & went back tho sleep .. 9plus woke up .. i'm late ! rush .. wash clothes .. took mie quite some time .. din mop & sweep the floor .. x( mum reachin back here tml m0rnin nerhs .. dunn0 goOd thin or bad .. haiish ..
went hab breakfast wid ziyu .. mit wid meiling , liha0 & huii .. after tat went tiong wid huii & meiling .. bef0re tat at queenstown ntuc , i took 6 plastic bags f0rh ziyu .. LOL .. xDD
went tiong f0rh quite awhile .. bout 1 we parted .. i went home & rushed out somethins ..
in the end im LATE again f0rh my another date out wid peng , kaisheng , kaiheng , farhan , boon & binwei .. really s0rrie f0rh lettin those guys tat waited ..
watched the m0vie music & lyrics .. n0rt bad narhs .. i shuffled the tickets & let dem choose the tickets .. in the end , i sat at the c0rner . grrs ~! but nebamind narhs .. hahas .. the boiis laughed at mie .. at least it was n0rt b0redd ..
after m0vie , binwei went home .. we shopped at vivo tho wait f0rh him n0rhs .. den went pastamania .. in the end din eat dere , abit paisae narhs ..
went tho banquet eat .. lols .. boonwee spent 3bucks tho buy a fruit juice tat consists of tomato , starfruit & dragonfruit .. g0sh .. the colour sux .. the taste was still fine tho mie .. the guys don feel sho .. but it taste abit weird narhs . but stil can drink barhs .. lol .. we went tho walk in the water .. farhan , peng , heng & mie .. sheng & boon din walk .. it's fun walkin in the water . we walked almost all of the water except one or two .. i managed tho c the stars .. but n0rt much stars .. it was great & fun .. enjoyed myself t0dae .. i suppose eiu guys os0 enjoyed urself .. harhas .. binwei , sheng , heng & mie ran fOrh the bus 131 n0rhs .. we ran from somewhere vivo entrance tho the bus stop .. guess wad , we mangaed tho board the bus .. sheng said n0rt possible derhs .. in the end we still g0rt it .. hees ..
hmm reached home at 11.10pm on 15 feb .. lol .. tink i'm n0rt sleepin nerhs .. later goin out .. den if sleep n0w , later sure cant wake up derhs . .mit 8.30 at tiong neiihs .. siaos .. sho early siahs .. but bo bian .. later m0rnin bout 6plus will reach home . dunn0 if she will let mie gho out an0t .. cause i haven even wash my ytd derh clothes .. xD

2007-03-13T23:08:00.000+08:00

bleahs .. xp stickin our tongue .

ziyu , nicholas , zihui , peiishan

us ~! took it bef0re we went seperated .

ytd slept late .. slept only bout 2 .. haas .. x)
set alarm at 7am .. but was too tired tat i din manage tho get up at tat time .. c0sh bout 5plus , g0rt awoke by a replied sms by lihao .. haiiyoos .. den went back tho sleep .. g0rt sho many thins tho dho in the m0rnin .. woke up , found dad was n0rt at home nerhs .. den i quickly sweep & mop the floor .. warhs .. damn tirin .. my stomach was n0rt well .. keep goin tho the toilet .. haiish ..
went tho wash clothes .. it took mie some time c0sh i don dho all tish .. i was late when i've prepared myself tho gho out .. x(
went tho tiong .. mit up wid yu & lihao .. den took cab down tho taka .. urm in the end , lihao paid f0rh the cab .. a gentleman w0rhs .. lol ..
den mit up wid 2other guys .. hmm felt tired & xian .. they palyed p0ol .. the later part wid dem was abit betta .. bout 4plus-5 , lihao & i left first .. goin tho queenstown stadium tho mit boonwee & kaisheng .. in the end , when bout tho reach stadium , it rained .. the rain g0rt heavier .. the SHIITY thin was boonwee & kaisheng ish at safra ..
when the rain g0rt abit smaller , went tho the lan shop .. at first i din play .. in the end , i played .. i played maple .. LOLS .. nho joke kkiaeys ..
bout 7plus left the lan shop but GOSH .. it's rainin damn heavily .. ran fr0m the lan shop tho the shelter in the stadium .. i cant stand the coldness .. i cant continue walkin/runnin in the rain . it's sho cold tat i squat on the floor .. boonwee & kaisheng was at tiong lerhs .. i called dem tho buy an umbrella den brin it over tho stadium .. it was funnie f0rh the part when we tok on the phone , sayin wad type of umbrella tho buy & the umbrella tat i preferred .. in the end , the umbrella i wanted was too expensive & those tat r cheaper r n0rt of my type i wanted .. sho i decided tho walk in the rain .. kaisheng was like w0rried .. he asked mie if i really don wan dem tho buy the unbrella .. he said later i fall sick etcs den wil blame him .. hahas .. x) thanks f0rh carin barhs .. took train down .. huii & her sis & nicholas haven reach . den mit up wid boonwee & kaisheng first n0rhs .. walk round tiong till i received huii call ..
tat's was 8plus lerhs .. we only hab our dinner at tat time .. parted wid the boiis ..
received a call fr0m boonwee while eatin .. they hab n0rt left tiong , was waitin f0rh cheeho .. sho called him tho help us buy sweet talk .. kaisheng paid f0rh the drinks .. we insisted on returnin him the money .. he din wan it , die die os0 don wan & jush walked awae quickly ..
it was fun while eatin . we joked & laughed .. hahas ..
in the end , g0rt said by dad when he called .. when reach home , he os0 scold mie . haiish ..
todae n0rt sleepin early .. hees .. x))

thanks kaisheng f0rh the drinks , thanks boonwee f0rh bringin up the drinks , thanks lihao f0rh comin todae , thanks boonwee , kaisheng & lihao f0rh sparin a thought f0rh mie .. appreciate it , sincerely thanks eiu guys ..
sorrie nicholas f0rh n0rt takin cab wid eiu . in the end mie took bus as my bus came . really s0rrie .. h0pe eiu're fine after reachin home , w/o ani scoldin & nho groundin .. =)

2007-03-13T00:19:00.000+08:00

urm ytd woke up den mum was n0rt in liaos .. the shitty thin was i f0rget tho water the plants .. ehhs .. mie f0rgot .. hees .. im very b0red at home .. stared at the computer the whole m0rnin .. at 1st ish goin out wid yu derhs .. in the end she cant as she's n0rt well .. huii was in sko0l dancin .. in the end i went tho bm & dho my stuff .. after tat went over tho cheeho house n0rs .. pengpeng & kaisheng ish at his house .. urm abit xians .. but ish betta than stayin at hime wid dad , den mie starin at the computer .. haiish .. w/o mum , breakfast , lunch & dinner g0rt tho settle outside .. hmm bout 5 went over tho safra tho mit the others .. g0rt lihao , hongren , daddy kenny , deardear , thomas & his br0 .. den saw yongsheng , lennard & jeff .. x)
ehhs .. deardear was sho busy wid his games tat he din even n0tice i was actually wid juepeng & etc .. * sighs ..
den they went over tho play po0l .. sit d0wn dere watch dem play .. g0rt peng , lihao , thomas , kaisheng tho pei w0 chat .. n0t sho bad narhs .. n0rt like the h.u.m.p derhs .. alwaes busy wid his po0l games .. at first was tokin wid yongsheng .. in the end , he left .. played till bout 8plus .. den went tho telok blangah dunn0 where f0rh dinner n0rhs .. deardear was s0rt of xian , tinkin bout the p0ol game tat he caused lennard tho lose some m0ney .. but in the end , c his face like happie nerhs .. bout 9 left .. went home .. lihao pei mie tho wait f0rh my bus .. urm thanks nerhs , i appreciate .. betta than some0ne tat din even sae bye .. f0rget it .. standard derhs ..
dad was abit unhappie tat i went home late .. din sweep & mop floor todae .. hais .. todae , later in the m0rnin , g0rt tho wake up damn early tho m0p & sweep .. tho os0 wash clothes .. den mush rmb tho water the plants nerhs ..
goin town wid yu .. urm hopefully juepeng & boonwee comin barhs .. cause yu will b mittin some other ppl .. den i hardly will tok .. seems like i'm busy .. i'm afraid dad will b furious tml .. c0sh i haven tell him i goin out .. hmm n0w ish 1pm nerhhs .. mie still haven sleep .. hees .. chattin wid friens .. xD dunno h0w am i gonna survive later f0rh teh whole dae wif sho much thins tho dho & complete .. =(

the deadline ish one m0nth .. startin f0rm todae , 13th march ..
i said the wr0ng thins nerhs .. gosh ~!

deardear f0reva bo-chap .. don care & hack care ..
haiish .. os0 dunn0 wad m0re tho sae ..
h.u.m.p = hopeless , useless , meaningfuless , pointless ..
x(

2007-03-11T13:41:00.000+08:00

mm long time neba blog lerhs .. n0w ish free tho blog .. haish .. days was n0t go0d & well f0rh mie .. i'm sufferin tish few daes .. ytd was sho damn shitty unwell .. v0mited 6 times .. it's really very unwell .. i dunn0 wad i hab ate tat cause mie tho v0mit .. i hardly v0mit derhs .. =( ytd should b a dae tat can enjoy happily .. in the end , the dae din came out tho b a good one .. but still dere were times tat were fun .. * sighs .. din hab dinner ytd nite ..
din slept ytd nite .. was lyin on bed but was sho unwell .. turnin here & dere .. i din get ani sleep at all .. was really a sufferin dae .. mum & br0 left & went back malaysia tish m0rnin nerhs .. only left dadd & mie .. dunn0 wad i can dho durin tish 1week term break .. seems b0redd .. actually i should b grabbin tish chance tho gho out & enjoy as mum was n0rt in singapore .. abit m0re freedoms .. ehs shall c h0w den .. dad nho w0rk , g0nna b at home .
urm i don seems tho hab anithin m0re tho write .. tink im stoppin here .. but everythin tat ish happenin tho mie ish jush too much & it's totally cruel & unfair .. i simply hate it & wont t0lerate ani such thins .. the pains & hurts i've g0rt ish n0rt anione of eiu can imagine .. it's far too painful & hurtful ..

2007-03-03T21:48:00.000+08:00

it had been since sometime tat i din blog lerhs barhx ..
i don feel ani happiness n0wadaes .. n0thin happie barhs ..
life f0rh mie ish gettin w0rst .. stil sho sux .. n0thin seems well ..
i'm still f0reva tat lonely .. being alone ..
everydae ish boredd .. it made mie m0re tired & sick each dae ..
i'm breakin d0wn so0n ..

if nho one cares , den leave mie alone ..
i miss myprecious .. =(
my deardear nho longer seems tho care f0rh mie ..
g0rt deardear like nho deardear ..
haiish ..

ehhs .. wad tho eat f0rh breakfast tml siahs ?
nothin f0rh mie tho eat .. jush breakfast , i os0 dunn0 wad tho eat ..
life ish really sho miserable & meaningless ..

n0w dere's a virus called H2XJG virus .. wahahas lol ..
it's dangerous sho ppl g0rt tho beware of it .. x)

2007-02-27T21:01:00.000+08:00

do anyone of eiu n0e im sad ? do eiu all n0e i feel very unhappie everydae ?
i don feel like goin tho sko0l .. n0rt because im tired or xian of sko0l ..
it's jush tat i feel m0re lonely when im in sko0l .. i'm tired , super tired nerhs ..
i really hope tho leave here ..
honestly speakin , i feel the lOneliness m0re & m0re each dae ..
but stil , the w0rld wont stop f0rh mie ..
nho one cares , nho one bothers , nho one gib a damn ..
in everyone's eyes , i'm jush a perfectly fine gurl ..
bein a good person sux as nho one n0es h0w tho appreciate .. they only take it f0rh granted ..
hmm i tink i wont b here ani longer ..
=D i'm fine ~!
ppl around mie happie can liaox lerhs ..

2007-02-25T21:13:00.000+08:00

ehhs abit tired & lazy tho type out the details of ytd flag dae .. sho jush agar agar barhs .. hees ..

ytd was flag dae .. went plaza sing tho dho flag dae .. some ppl sho dao .. din even sae & smile when they reject .. eiu ppl r sho evil .. bo0s ~!
there r os0 kind ppl .. they donated 2bucks .. some donated all the coins they've .. eiu all r sho kind .. yeahs ~!
we din really tried our best in the flag dae as we slacked after doin awhile .. went suntec tho played arcade .. lols .. quite fun at times , quite bored at times ..
din went out todae .. was at home .. watched dvds again n0rhs ..
boredd .. tml g0rt skool .. * yawns ..

miss my precious .. f0rh daes , he din sms mie nerhs ..
den my deardear jush sms mie tish afternoon tho ask g0rt wad homew0rk .. den after tat sae sms mie tonite BA ..
well , n0w already wad time nerhs .. sure nho sms fr0m deardear derhs .. but he os0 neba sae will sms mie tonite .. c0sh he said sms mie tonite wid the " ba " .. meanin mayb only h0rhs ..
haiish .. n0w i g0rt nho one tho pei wo watch the m0vie just follow law nerhs .. c0sh deardear & friens ytd durin flag dae gho & watch liaos .. at first stil thought g0rt deardear & mayb others tho pei wo watch derhs as i did mention bout it tho deardear .. i tink deardear din care bout wad i said .. =(
perhaps i'm fated tho b lonely & alone tish year .. x(

2007-02-23T20:20:00.000+08:00

todae was such a yucks~ dae ..
because of tat jg , i g0rt tho run 1 m0re round durin the pe .. shit him larhs .. made mie sho xinku .. den durin chinese lesson , sway enough tho find out tat im sittin on the chair he sat bef0re as behind of the chair g0rt the big w0rd SELFISH .. good-ness .. im sho damn shitty unlucky .. den my water bottle os0 kana touch by him twice .. my pencil case too .. dunn0 wad a dae niahs .. assembly s0rt of b0red but it started wid some funnie thingys of deardear . cheeho . thomas & samuel tan imitatin jg actions .. lmao .. the tok in between was xian xian .. but after the tok g0rt a video .. it's still ok .. n0rt sho b0rin .. after skool g0rt a free treat by francise & dai wei .. they treated yu , hui & mie mcdonalds .. went queensway shoppin center derhs mac n0rhs .. francise spilled the coke accidentally .. den one if teh staff of mac like sho unhappie tat she had tho clean the mess .. i find her stupid n0rhs .. use the broom tho sweep awae the cups .. in the end make the floor even m0re dirty .. dunn0 how tho sae naihs .. jush cant stand the wae she clean the mess .. but g0rt tho thanks francise & dai wei f0rh the treat .. the treat abit expensive nerhs c0sh we only help dem write compostiton .. din went f0rh physic remedial .. but like abit unfair tho those tat g0rt gho forh the remedial .. hmm after tat , walked f0rm queensway shoppin center tho queensway mrt .. wid francise , dai wei , huii .. it's was still quite enjoyable barhs .. guessin lame riddles .. lols .. it's rainin at tat time .. =/
after tat went tho the mcring tuition center f0rh awhile .. after tat took cab wid dai wei .. went tho his place first bef0re the cab gho my place .. at first ish sae i pay the rest of the amount , he only hab tho pay the amount when reached his place .. in the end he sae he gave all .. ehs .. g0rt tho thanks him again f0rh the cab nerhs .. (=
urm tml g0rt flag dae .. w0nder h0w it ish g0nna b like .. haas .. stupid enough as hab tho wake up alm0st the same time like n0rmal skool daes .. grrr ~! bring home clothes tml as after flag dae goin out & plae ..
i miss b0th my precious & dear .. jush simply miss dem ..
tink end here lerhs barhs .. shall blog m0re bout tml flag dae barhs ..

2007-02-22T20:23:00.000+08:00

t0dae g0rt abit of difficulty wakin up .. den stomach n0rt feelin well .. in the end went tho the toilet at the market .. den hab tho take cab tho skool .. 5buck , my one dae allowance .. but bo bian .. late nerhs ..
ge0 test todae .. bao fail n0rhs .. quickly dho finish den gho tho sleep liaox .. fall asleep .. den g0rt woken up by tat ang's loud voice .. den somem0re sae mie , call mie write longer .. answers too short .. in the end , i 0s0 neba write longer .. stupid jg .. lend him my paper , already kind enough liaos . when i took back my paper , crumpled liaox .. shit larhs .. when i gave him tat time , it's sho damn nice h0rhs .. i gurantee kkaieys .. grrs ~!
mm .. lucky todae english ish abit slack .. c0sh only dho corrections .. but social studies ish quite b0red even though only one period .. den the last 2periods , went ava room f0rh the ite tok .. urm b0red too .. ater skool went hawker makan beancurd .. helped francise write abit of his english homew0rk .. math remedial copy answers again n0rhx . nothin much ..
after remedial , left wid yu .. yu took mrt .. but i take bus .. saw deardear & friens at bus stop .. after yu left , glad g0rt deardear they all tho tok tho .. deardear even let mie hab some seat at the bus stop (= .. took the same bus as dem .. deardear sat wid mie n0rhs .. haas .. den we chatted t0gether wid cheeho .. nice chat wid eiu guys .. haas ..
later still hab tho learn eng vocab .. tml g0rt test .. b0reds ..
ehs .. mypreCious ytd neba sms mie .. =( but it's ok .. he mush b tired or busy .. i'll wait f0rh preCious derh sms derhs .. x)

2007-02-21T21:43:00.000+08:00

2 days din blog lerhs .. urm jush a qiuck blog barhs ..
t0dae skool was still ok barhs .. junguang siaox lerhs .. mood todae like nho good .. mie nearly sae wron thin .. i nearly said out tat his head ish big .. lucky i mangaed tho keep my mouth stopped bef0re tat w0rd run out of my mouth .. after skool went suntec wid yu .. she wanted tho buy a flower f0rh her mum . her mother derhs birthdae .. went kfc & ate .. ermm saw a ang moh , a small kid .. boii niahs .. he's totally cute , when he smiles it's even cuter .. den after tat went tho find yu's derhx bf .. he went tho put tattoo .. ehhs , it's pain puttin tattoo .. grrrs ~! in the end , yu cant stay tho pei her bf .. sho she took mrt home & i took bus home n0rhs .. receive one hongbao from mum derhs frien .. (=
tml g0rt geo. test .. heng xian neiihs .. bao fail wan h0rhs .. c0sh neba study marhs .. math homew0rk anih0w dho as im tired .. if madam cheng don accpet den i g0rt nho choice n0rhs .. alort of questions neba dho .. the pr0blem ish i dunn0 h0w tho dho .. haiish .. tink i stop here lerhs .. shall blog m0re bout the past few daes if i g0rt the time & mood tml ..
* miss myPRECIOUS , love myDEAR .. *

2007-02-18T21:31:00.000+08:00

t0dae ish the first dae of Chinese New YEar .. hmm ytd slept at bout 2 .. lols .. watched tv & dvds .. g0rt hongbaos fr0m mum & dad ytd nite after the clock strikes 12 .. & os0 happie enough tho receive wishins fr0m friens .. =)
t0dae woke up quite early .. house ph0ne kept ringin n0rhs .. if im n0rt wr0n ish my relatives fr0m Ireland called .. tish m0rnin , ytd nite bout 2plus .. haas .. nho interestin pr0grammes on tv niahx .. xian kkiaeys .. sho watched dvds again .. bout 2plus went out tho plaza sing tho mit yu .. played arcade .. den went cineleisure .. checked the charges f0rh kbox .. yu ate pasta mania .. mie din eat c0sh todae cant eat meat .. was like alort of thins cant eat .. =( sadd but nebamind lor .. once a year .. but stomach very hungry sho bought peanut pancakes tho eat .. hmm both yu & i felt unwell wearin our shoes as it hurts our leg .. bought plasters .. it's very pain when we're walk n0rhs .. red red derhs .. walked tho far east .. hmm but nho shops opened .. yu's stead called & in the end , went tho mit her stead n0rhs at tiong .. ehs .. her stead was late by 15mins or sho .. hees .. went up arcade .. but n0rt long , i hab tho leave lerhs .. mum called .. yu stayed wid her stead & ling at tat time said she'll gho d0wn & find yu ..
urm .. later orderin kfc .. lols .. dad ish payin .. at first dad wanted tho try pizza .. but as only after 12 den we can eat meat , den im afraid tat the pizza will become cold .. den n0rt tasty lerhs .. ehhs .. i scared i put on weight .. sho i cant zzz after eatin kfc .. mush let it digest first .. c0sh i really don wan tho become fat ..
tml goin kbox .. mayb in the m0rnin goin cheeho house tho bai nian .. hmm till n0w my deardear haven sms mie .. myprecious os0 .. deadear said he will sms mie tonite derhs .. lie tho mie .. ehhs precious at least one dae will gib mie an sms derhs after 14feb , our mini affair .. but todae still n0rt yet neiihs .. =(
cheeho os0 neba sms mie tellin mie bout tml .. seems like i'll ahb tho gib him an sms later nerhs .. y all like tish wan .. lols .. nho wonder eiuu guys r teletubies .. x))

2007-02-17T20:43:00.000+08:00

todae chinese new year eve .. ermm everyone g0rt reunion dinner but well i don hab n0rhs .. =( haiish .. w0ke up quite late tonite .. was very tired c0sh somethins last nite ..
watched dvds after i w0ke up .. went out wid my bro , huii & her sis , yu , deardear , juankit , lihao , kweexiang , juepeng .. tink tat's all ? shop shop at city link .. den went tho suntec .. tried a free sample drink of starbuck .. walked at the fountain of wealth .. at first wanted tho splash water at the boiis derhx .. in the end , they din walk n0rhs .. & only we gurls walked .. ended up we splashed one another .. g0rt said by the security guard niahx .. hees .. we were all wet .. i felt s0rt of cold n0rhs .. went tho the arcade & played .. time passes sho fast .. bout 4plus , m0st of dem hab tho leave f0rh their reunion dinner lerhhs .. leavin mie , yu & my br0 .. a guy wanted yu's number but yu din gib .. hmm took neoprint wid yuu (= .. leave at bout 6 or sho .. at tish time , shops r m0stly closed lerhhs .. took 16 .. yuu g0rt d0wn at d. ghaut .. she's rushin .. my br0 & i den continued the bus journey nOrhs .. reached home at bout 7 ..
Chinese New Year ish approachin lerhs .. when the clock strikes 12 , i cant eat meat till tml when the clock strikes 12midnite .. os0 cant kill anithin .. n0rt even ants w0rhs .. every year os0 like tat derhs .. os0 dunn0 tish yr can collect h0w much hongbao $$ .. tink os0 n0rt much derhs .. os0 nho relatives here .. =( my relatives in malaysia ish sure tho b playin , tokin , gambling etcs. n0w .. & dere will sure b firecrackers .. misses dem .. misses the funs & joys dere ..

but yupphs .. GONG XI FA CAI ~!
hees .. x))

2007-02-16T20:04:00.000+08:00

din blog f0rh 2daes lerhs . it's g0nna b a long blog barhx ..

valentines' dae was quite funnie in sko0l .. haas .. c0sh played a prank on jg .. bought him a b0x of swit tat c0st $2.2o h0rhs . wrapped it nicely & put it on his table wid a letter .. wantin tho c wad was his reaction n0rhs .. although it's abit bad larhs .. hees .. he din hab ani BIG reaction .. after recess , a rose appeared on his desk .. vincent they all bought derhs .. mm tish time g0rt reaction nerhs . he don seems tho like the r0se worhx . g0rt abit fed up liaos .. he even gave it tho ms lim . but ms lim din take it . haas .. juepeng wr0te happie valentine's dae on the board tho him , he said tat it's sho embarassin when he saw his name on the board .. lol .. tat m0rnin os0 woke up early & hab breakfast wid yu , huii & her sis .. after sk0ol took the swit back secretly fr0m under his desk .. den he told huii tat someone had stolen his present .. waharhas ! after sko0l went home & get changed etc .. gettin ready tho gho out & enjoyy .. at first ish said tat all mit at raffles mrt derhs .. in the end , only hab yu , boonwee , juepeng , huii & mie mit at raffles . kweexiang & kaisheng was late . den said tho mit dem at d. ghaut & sho while waitin f0rh dem , huii & yu played para . in the end , kx & ks sae tat they're at cineleisure nerhs .. yu was like abit unhappie wid dem lerhhs .. sho went over tho cineleisure .. yu's face was like xian wid unhappie n0rhs . played in the arcade & walked walked .. s0rt of xian .. den left dere , went over tho hereen .. huii left as she had a dinner tho b attended . in the end , yu bought a cake at hereen & sat down tho eat n0rhs .. the 5 of us c her eat lohs .. she let mie tasted the cake .. it's delicious .. boonwee left too .. he had tho gho home .. den walked tho lucky plaza derhx mac .. the remainin 4 of us * jp , ks , kx , mie ate mac n0rhs .. after tat we played zhong ji mi ma again .. lols .. used curry sauce , added salad & coke .. it's fun h0rhs .. & whenever jp sae the numbers , it's funnie & sound abit scary~ .. i can sae quite lucky lerhs c0sh when they've all dio bef0re , i'm the only one tat hab n0rt . & guess wad . i dio in the last round wid the number 1o tat came out by kx .. grr ~! the " curry sauce " tasted salty . we all took a long bus journey of 111 .. laughed , tok , chatted & lots m0re in the bus .. was gettin tired in the bus nerhs .. we all alight at queentown but n0rt jp .. he c0ntinued the bus journey . took trian tho tiong den took the bus .. bus sho damn alort of ppl n0rhs .. push & push .. went tho zzz as soon as i finished my thins as dere's skool the next dae . i tink tat was bout 1oplus-11 . suddenly w0ke up at 1plus .. f0rgot tho actually set the alarm at 12 as it was my deardear derhx birthdae . in the end , i blurblur derhs , wid my small & tired eye , i typed a sms & sent it tho deardear at 1plus & quickly went back tho sleep ..

i should b the first one tho wish dear happie brithdae derhs .. dear os0 thought im the first one n0rhs .. but in the end , it was thomas who was the first one as he did set an alarm at 12 .. haas .. but it's ok .. im the first gal tat wish dear .. dear os0 ke lian .. g0rt beaten by his friens & others .. haiish .. in the evenin went tho celebrate dear's birthdae .. mum din allow .. quarrel wid her .. in the end she n0rt happie wid mie .. but s0rt of don care lerhhs barhx .. sho mit yu at tiong first .. played para .. =/ still din n0e h0w tho play hard but still practisin .. lols .. dear derh celebration g0rt quite alort of ppl .. g0rt hongren , junren , kenny , andrew , cheeho , juankit , kaisheng , kweexiang , yu , mie .. in total g0rt 13 ppl n0rhs .. walked tho dunn0 where eat .. ordered 6dishes wid 13 bowls of rice .. in the end some of the boiis added another bowl of rice as the dishes came out abit late .. it's really funnie durin the dinner .. quite somethins happened .. our table ish filled wid laugter .. our table ish very big os0 .. haas .. junren ish gentleman enough .. he helped us all took fish & in the end he din even n0e tat he din get himself s0me fish .. the others only care bout demselves .. took their own food & eat .. din even care bout yuu & i who r the only 2gals dere .. i can only sae they're n0rt gentlemen at all .. & i n0ticed tat kenny looked like our dad niahhx .. haas .. sho we n0w called him daddy .. lols .. we played zhong ji mi ma again .. tish time round ish wid a big group of ppl .. boonwee bein the birthdae boii start the ball rollin . im SWAY enough tho dio in the first round lorhs .. ate a small red chilli .. i don eat tat wan n0rhs .. abit yucks .. hees .. im consider quite sway nerhs n0rhs .. dere's a round tat lihao dio & hab tho eat the piece of chicken tat ish left as everyone ish very full lerhhs .. den they sae the next one tt dio wil eat the chicken together wid him . but ish only half piece . im once again sway enough . i dio h0rhs ! g0rt tho eat tat half piece chicken . i damn full nerhs norhx . nho choice .. hab a great fun ytd nite too .. real great fun .. bout 9plus nerhx , g0rt tho rush home .. wanted tho take cab but nho cab .. den quickly took trian tho tiong , hopin dere's cab dere . at tiong , long queue n0rhs .. walk very fast tho the bus stop , lucky g0rt bus .. reached home 5mins bef0re 1o .. did my homew0rk till 12 den zzz n0rhs .. sho damn tired .. =(

t0dae had some difficulty wakin up . sho tired n0rhhs .. den mum din gib mie my allowance n0rhs .. den gib mie a black face in the early of the m0rnin .. i stole $4.50 of coins .. she don gib mie allowance marhs sho i stole n0rhs .. t0dae in skool sho sho n0rhs .. pe i managed tho jog 4rounds non-stop which i alwaes cant make it .. hees .. jg ish disgustin n0rhs .. alwaes doin those dirty thins in the public .. but os0 dunn0 wad tho sae n0rhs .. g0rt a chinese new year concert .. was n0rt really interestin tish yr .. nho physics remedial after skool .. at first said gho home changed den gho suntec tho plae derhs .. but i tink in the end only yu & huii went barhs .. i dunn0 .. they din contact mie at all .. haiihs .. well , sho i stayed at home & watch dvds n0rhs .. went tho bukit merah tho buy thins & pay bill .. after tat went home & mum was at home liaos .. gib mie tat stupid black face larhs .. show mie her attitude .. in skool & when i reached home , my mood already dunn0 like wad already .. still show mie her temper .. i g0rt tahan , but it's too much .. i g0rt my own limits .. den dunn0 f0rh wad shit , started qurrellin wid her .. i cant tahan n0rhs .. sho i tok back .. i n0e tish time , the " c0nflict " ish very bad .. n0rt easy tho resolve .. she ish n0rt goin tho gib mie ani m0ney includin my allowance .. n0rt gonna buy anithin f0rh mie .. n0rt ven goin tho tok tho mie .. os0 n0rt goin tho dho anithin f0rh mie .. n0rt payin my " N " level papers m0ney .. wadeva larhs .. wad m0re can i sae or dho .. all i n0e ish , one dae when i cant stand everyhtin tat ish happenin round mie , one ish i leave tish place , tish country or n0rt ish i will leave tish w0rld .. all tish has been appearin in my mind lerhhs .. either one of tish thins will happen derhs , it's only a matter of when .. but it's n0rt too long nerhs .. ='(
habin flu n0w .. haiish ~!

_ i dont belong tho here .. i felt that i've no one , n0thing .. n0t my friends too .. i feel very stress & tired here .. there's hardly fun & joy in my life .. people seems to only like care bout themselves m0re .. in here , i've no one that's related besides family & one uncle .. my friends are those that are related to mie liaox .. but yet eiuu all n0e wad i feel marhs .. i feel the loneliness .. i dunn0 y .. my heart jush feel sho damn terrible .. i cotrol my tears & my heart ish sho damn unwell .. i kept everythins tho myself .. & f0rh long i hope tho hab a shoulder , whoeva os0 can , f0rh mie tho lean on & let mie cry out real loud .. yarhs , nho one n0e & obviously nho one n0tice tat im very troubled over all s0rt of thins .. nho one gob mie a damn care .. NO ONE .. sho wad's the point of mie stayin here .. izzit it wil b a betta choice f0rh mie tho leave tish place . i tink sho . goin back tho where i should b at , the country im b0rn in or gho tho Ireland where my relatives r dere .. the only thin i lack dere ish some friendship barhs . seriouly speakin , i os0 don feel tat i g0rt much friendships in singapore barhs .. since my family has difficulty stayin here f0rh long , den must well we leave here . one stone kills two birds marhs ? perhaps n0rhs .. i'll enjoy the times im g0nna be here barhs .. c0sh we'll neba n0e when i'll leave . it can be very suden too .. i dont even n0e . but my feelin ish i wont b in here f0rh long nerhs . if one dae , my mum bring up the idea of leavin here , i seriously dont tink i'll hab ani objections . i'm prepared ! _

dunn0 if tml can dho wad .. watch dvds again marhs ? wonder if goin out tml an0rt .. nho one contact mie os0 .. haiish .. i missed the funs i've badly .. i wan m0re of tish funs .. c0sh all tish funs & joys will b stored in my heart & mind .. and when the dae i leave , i can only brin tish wid mie & n0rt eiuu ppl who created all tish funs & joys .. * tears dr0pped * =( im realy very lost ..

2007-02-13T20:37:00.000+08:00

todae i tink n0thin much happen .. pe played game .. den hab a pysics test .. sure fail .. confirm .. haiish .. less0ns was abit b0red n0rhhs .. my mood someh0w don seems well .. i dunn0 wad happen tho mie .. after skool was chinese remedial .. quite funnie .. ehhs .. i tink tml ish gonna b fun ..
tml ish Valentine's dae .. urm im alone .. =(
tish yr nho valentine .. last 2yrs os0 g0rt someone tho spend it wid mie .. sad n0rhhs .. haiix ..
tink n0thin much f0rh todae lerhhs .. habin flu n0w .. very xinku ..
shall c if i g0rt wad tho write tml ..

2007-02-12T17:54:00.000+08:00

sleep at 12 ytd nite .. haas .. c0shh c0pie poa answers f0rh yu , boonwee & cheeho .. x)
m0rnin woke up late .. tired .. i was too tired till tat i f0rgot my skool badge till i boarded the bus .. & after a few stops den n0tice i din put on my skool badge .. den tried my best tho c hu g0rt badge n0rhhs .. sway enough .. nho one g0rt extra derhhs .. in the end , g0rt a badge fr0m haris .. less0ns tho mie todae was like b0red & tired .. chinese did test .. h0pe can hab a just pass barhx . eng less0n , mr ali came in awhile & den he had tho leave lerhhs .. we were left without ani relief teacher in the klass .. hmm den after skool was chemistry remedial .. we were given w0rksheet tho dho .. after completin , went tiong & bought sliced p0rk .. after tat walked home .. the weather was humid .. nho wind .. den os0 dark dark derhhx .. once again my mind was n0rt wid mie .. im tinkin of somethins .. i din even n0tice tat dere's a bike behin & the lady ish actually callin mie tho gib wae f-rh her bike tho pass .. dunn0 wad happen tho mie .. =(
xian niahs .. tml g0rt physics test .. confirm , bao fail wan .. even if i studie , i tink i os0 cant pass .. c0shh it c0nsists of 3chapters .. it's difficult n0rhhs .. tired n0w .. tat's all f0rh todae barhhs ..

2007-02-11T18:36:00.000+08:00

wahs .. din blog f0rh quite a few daes lerhh .. urm shall jush start tish p0st by sayin wad happen ytd .. well , went out wid yu , b0onwee , kewwxiang , kaisheng & binwei .. at first ishh mit yu 12 at tiong dehhx .. in the end it end up mittin bout 12plus-1 .. den played arcade at tiong & after went tho greatw0rld first as we g0nna mit b0onwee & kweexiang at kimseng at 2 .. in the end only g0rt tho mit dem at 2.15 .. hmm they're late w0rhhs .. haas .. sho pr0ceeded tho play p0ol .. i din play & sat dere .. den kana hit by kweexiang wid his po0l stick .. but of cause it's n0rt on purpose derhhs .. but till n0w , it still hurts .. =(
binwei came in abit later .. f0llowed by kaisheng who dunn0 where ish kimseng .. sho t0gether wid boonwee & binwei , we went tho pick him up at greatw0rld .. leavin kweexiang & yuu continuin playin po0l .. kaisheng os0 din play po0l .. very quiet & shy .. din tok much .. keep pressin his phone n0rhhs .. actually its n0rt tat b0red lookin at dem play po0l as it's funnie .. jokers lol .. x) after tat went tho the arcade at kimseng .. dere was tish bunch of ang m0hs , playin on one of the machine which i dunn0 wad izzit called .. but tat machine ish count on luck derhhs barhhs .. they s0rt of like bang on tat machine & den the machine went black out ..
they did tat n0rt only once but quite some times .. den the uncle of the arcade went over & sae dem .. hmm we did played on tat machine , tryin my luck but luck n0rt tat good .. kweexiang os0 g0rt played .. luck os0 nho good .. haas .. & sho we took the tickets & changed f0rh 9 lollipops .. hees .. after tat , yu , binwei , boonwee & kweexiang played dytona * wr0ng spellin barhs .. the 1st time was still ok .. but the second time , when yu , boonwee, binwei & kaisheng played , it was very funnie of b0onwee .. cause he cant get his car tho reverse back .. lmao .. it's really damn funnie .. kweexiang & i was laughin at it .. he wasted his remainin 4laps on h0w tho reverse back but yet in the end , still haven reverse .. wahahas .. went tho safra after tat as the boiis wanted tho play lan .. d0ts .. hab n0thin much tho dho at safra .. g0rt tho wait f0rh the boiis f0rh an hour ..
g0rt followed by 2small malay boiis .. urmm they're quite cute but was abit too irritatin .. even when we went tho the toilet , they followed & switch on & off the lites of the toilet .. naughty .. after we went out of the toilet , yuu decided tho gho in & played po0l .. haas .. the 2small boiis disappeared after we went in as they're n0rt able tho gho in .. den only yu , one person played p0ol .. i sat & looked at her play .. haas .. time passes quite fast n0rhhs .. so0n the boiis finished playin their lan lerhhs .. tat was bout 7.45 .. decided tho gho tho clementi & hab dinner .. went tho the bus st0p tho wait f0rh the bus .. somethin funnie happened .. haas ..
a boii was in his bike & yu had blocked his wae .. sho boonwee called yuu tho let his bike pass .. & yuu asked : ur bike nho bell arhs ? guess wad happen .. when boonwee & kweexiang made a sound " BOOM " , his bike boom & went d0wn the path of the bus stop .. it's really funnie n0rhhs .. while waitin f0rh bus , den yu & i was huggin marh .. den boonwee & kweexiang saw .. they os0 hugged together .. lmao .. somem0re hugg till sho happie , like a couple in love .. waharhas .. waited f0rh 195 quite long n0rhhs .. in the bus , quite enjoyable .. we occupied the last r0w .. i was in the middle .. wid kweexiang & boonwee on my left side & yuu & her dear kaisheng on the right ..
kaisheng ish jush damn too shy .. urm , a bunch of bois went up the bus .. & yu started tho n0tice dem .. searchin f0rh handsomes .. den i tink she spotted one or two .. hmm they g0rt d0wn at queenstown mrt st0p , which ish os0 same as us .. they os0 g0rt on the same train as us .. but we g0rt d0wn fisrt at clementi .. went tho a c0ffee shop f0rh dinner .. at fisrt wanted tho order stingray but as we dho find it n0rt w0rth it sho din order in the end .. yuu & i ordered a plate of " chao xia mian " & the guys ordered rice wid a plate of dish .. dunn0 called wadd lahhs .. the name cute cute derhhs .. but it tasted n0rt bad .. we shared the food among ourselves ..
binwei was n0rt wid us f0rh dinner as he left early due tho the nid of sendin off his dad as his dad ish goin tho japan .. after completin the food , we played a nice game .. lols .. the game ish called " zhong ji mi ma " .. one pers0n will write d0wn a number .. & we hab tho guess the number .. whoever guessed the number will hab tho eat/drink either the lime , chilli or vinegar .. everyone of us g0rt dio bef0re .. haas .. lime was quite sour .. vinegar g0rt abit of spicy as the spo0n ish filled wid chilli by the time i drank abit of the vinegar .. suddenly our table g0rt a cup of water which does n0rt belongs tho us .. & we're n0rt sure who was the one tat put it dere .. lols ..
boonwee tasted abit of tat " water " .. he said it tasted weird .. haas .. hab a great time durin teh dinner .. when we completed the dinner , it's quite late nerhs .. at first we wanted tho gho yu house & play derh .. but in the end , kaisheng don wanna gho , den boonwee don gho lerhh , den kweexiang os0 din wanna gho .. if they all don gho , den it's quite meaningless f0rh mie tho gho .. sho in the end , all gho back tho our own house n0rhhs .. tat's was bout 10plus lerhhs .. we seperated at clementi mrt station .. the boiis r takin bus & yuu & i took train .. but yuu ish takin the train towards boonlay & mie ish towards pasir ris ..
s0rt of b0red in the train .. mind was tinkin bout somethins .. alm0st missed my tiong stop .. my mind was like away .. den waited f0rh bus .. waited quite long .. managed tho get a seat in the bus .. again , my mind ish away .. abit tired lerhhs when in bus .. but ytd was really a great & fun dae .. sho far , i tink ytd was the m0st enjoyable dae in tish yr .. at least i laughed happily wid dem .. i enjoyed the times .. let's hab m0re of such enjoyable times together soon ((= .. woke up quite late t0dae .. 10plus .. quite tired .. den in the aftern00on , clean my room & decorated the plants outside the house .. hees .. urmm tink i stoppin here lerhhs barhx .. tml g0rt skool .. xian .. * yawns ..

2007-02-07T21:13:00.000+08:00

t0dae was late as stomach n0rt feelin well .. in the end take cab tho sk0ol .. mum don wan gib mie m0ney tho take cab .. den went tho queenstown mrt taxi stand tho let yuu & juan get on the taxi .. at first wanted tho drop d0wn at queenstown mrt derhhs , den mit yuu & juan .. but in the end , yuu scared by the time we walked tho sko0l will b late sho she said tat they get on the can instead .. c0st $7.60 .. haiish .. den dr0pped 2bucks on the cab .. nana ~! SWAY .. was like habin gastric pain the m0rnin .. mm , poa less0n , mrs tan din come but g0rt w0rk tho dho .. dho hab a hard time doin .. hmm yuu went behind & tok wid her friens . could hear her laughter & os0 the others laughter & voice .. math g0rt a m0ck test .. tml g0rt one real math test .. recess din eat .. den yuu went tho find her deardear n0rhhs .. haas .. her dear was like sho sho shyy n0rhhs .. lols .. chemistry g0rt a test .. h0pefully can pass neiihs .. den chinese was quite funnie .. hahas .. samuel tan chinese name was cheng wei .. & was like used his name & made fun by addin lian tho it & it becomes CHEN WEI LIAN .. lols .. madam ku g0rt influence & called him weilian os0 .. s0cial was quite funnie ,, at fisrt ish yuu .. she p0inted middle finger tho juepeng den mr siah saw it .. called her tho sit in the middle of the klass , vip seat .. haas .. & we watched a short funnie video fr0m youtube .. tat's was DAMN SUPER funnie HORHS .. i tink the boiis enjoyed lookin at the sexy lady .. wahaas ,, especially my deardear n0rhhs .. his eyes was like cant get off the screen , the lady .. my tat deardear ish n0ne other than boonwee .. haas .. while walkin wid boonwee , kaisheng , cheeho , kweexiang , juepeng out of the skool , it's funnie too .. we parted wif dem at the hawker .. took train tho tiong .. yuu peii mie tho return my bills .. after tat went tho eat kfc .. ermm saw a very cute gal .. she's wid her br0ther .. she's really cute & the wae she waved goodbye ish even cuter .. shopped awhile & some other stuffs .. after tat walked home ..

_ .. h0w will my Valentine's Day Be like ? .. __ // At home 0r Outside ? .. ~** =(
haiish .. wadeva it's , i jush hab tho take all tish easy barhhs ..

2007-02-06T20:45:00.000+08:00

at first t0dae wanna wake up at 4.3o am tho learn the idioms .. but in the end when the alarm rang , i jush cant get myself out of the bed .. sho in the end i w0ke up at bout 6.o5 .. mum was the one tat w0ke mie up .. on the parade square , madam cheng called laisheng , jaz , gaya & yuu out as they din went tho wac .. & they've tho gho & xplain tho chua .. ge0graphy was b0redd .. & yuu g0rt an " confilct " wid tat ang again .. alwaes tat ang derhhs .. den yuu had tho gho back tho her seat which ish behind .. pe ran n0rhhs .. t0dae was still ok but my hand was like c0ld ..all my friens r like h0t , but im n0rt .. os0 dunn0 y .. physics less0n , yuu g0rt an " c0nflict " wid madam cheng .. den she was called tho gho out of the klass .. dem durin the less0n , madam cheng keep starin at huii & mie .. very unesy n0rhhx .. when it was about the end of the less0n , somethin funnie happened .. the action of jun guang like bein g0rt dian .. it's was real funnie h0rhs .. english g0rt tat idiom test .. os0 dunn0 can pass an0rt .. dunn0 h0w tho dho n0rthhs .. after sk0ol g0rt chinese remedial .. bef0re tat went hawker tho makan beancurd .. haas .. den went back sko0l & we're early .. hmm yuu g0rt a deardear in klass w0rhhs .. kaisheng ish her deardear .. hees .. & her deardear was alwaes shyshy derhhx .. durin remedial , jun guang " yeahs " lols .. warhas .. huii left f0rh her tuition .. den i waited f-rhh yu as she's tho c chua first .. hmm they din hab tho stay back .. while yu went inside the hod room , i was outside & lucky yuan mun was dere & i chatted wid her n0rhhs .. die lerhhs .. c0shh m0nthly pr0gress rep0rt g0rt tho pass 4 or m0re subjects if n0rt tio white f0rm .. haiish .. like tat still don mati mehhs .. went tho huii's tuition center tho tell her n0rhhs .. toked awhile den after took train tho tiong den walked home .. bought an egg tart tho eat as im feelin hungry . x)

tink on Valentine's dae , i'm goin home lerhhs .. c0shh nho one seems tho b free tho pei w0 .. my friens g0rt their own plans on tat dae .. i'm alone .. tat's y my blogskin ish n0rt wron at all .. im alone & lonely n0rhhs .. it's a fact .. mayb shall jush gho home after skool on tat dae .. n0ne of my friens r free .. haiish ~! ='( but jush g0rt tho face such thins n0rhhs .. jush b the lonely & alone gurl .. * tears *

2007-02-05T20:27:00.000+08:00

todae was abit m0re early when i reached sko0l .. less0ns t0dae was still ok barhhs .. n0thin much really happen i tink .. hmm after sk0ol g0rt chemistry remedial .. went hawker tho makan bef0re tat .. was quite funnie wid all s0rt of thins .. haas .. den miss lim wasn't in klass durin the chemistry remedial as she g0rt meetin .. in the end we're given w0rksheet tho dho .. was quite relax .. it's funnie of yuu takin kaisheng's h0use key .. waharhas . after remedial , yu c0ntinued tho jOke wid kaisheng .. it's was funnie .. lols .. took cab tho huii's house .. c0sted $3.3o .. hmm den saw the new clothes she bought ..

i've g0rt the dress tat i've long wanted .. the dress tat s0meh0w looks like wad felicia , chen feng ling w0re bef0re .. used the hard-saved m0ney tho get tat .. it c0st 18bucks .. urmm n0rt too expensive barhhs .. i tink it's w0rth it .. LOVE tat dress loads as i've wanted it since last time when i saw chen feng ling w0re it .. & had been lookin out f0rh such similar dress .. hees .. finally i g0rt it ~!

hmmm .. tml g0rt idiom test .. g0shh ~! alorts n0rhhx .. dunn0 if im g0nna study it later as it's n0rt easy .. & i'm tired t0dae .. habin slight headache plus my eye ish itchy .. i doubt passin tish idiom test .. haiish .. i will try tho learn n0rhhs .. xianns

valentines dae ish gettin nearer & nearer .. hmm tink it's g0nna b a lonely valentines dae .. =( maybb get a bunch of friens tat r single & free tho gho out & enjoy on the 14th tish m0nth .. i os0 dunnO h0w larhhs .. * sighs *

2007-02-04T19:18:00.000+08:00

din went aniwhere todae .. was at home .. watched tv & den did my math homew0rkk .. in the end , i only g0rt tho eat my lunch at 2plus .. haiish .. after tat , i dunn0 wad tho dho liaos .. veryy b0red .. & ytd my mood was n0rt good at all .. n0rt even todae .. sho it's betta n0thin g0nna happen in sko0l .. 0r n0rt i wont n0e wad will happen .. & sometimes i jush cant understand wad eiuu ppl wants .. i don wanna b someone kind okiaeys .. if sometimes eiuu ppl tink tat im in fault in wadeva shit , den pls , don call mie tho dho anithin or help kkiaeys .. im such a kp0 horhhs .. i should jush hack cares c0shh i don hab tho help eiuu derhhs as it g0rt n0thin tho dho wid mie .. i c eiuu as a frien den i help .. i've enough of everythin .. really enough .. im sick & tired lerhhs .. real sick & tired kkiaeys .. n0thin lerhhs .. tat's all ..

2007-02-03T20:30:00.000+08:00

us again .. d0lphin wid s0tong ..

in the t0ilet xD

shan plus huii .. * after remedial

taken ytd durin physic remedial ..
# shOe land #

woke up at bout 9plus todae .. g0rt runnin n0se .. sho damn xin ku .. den at 11plus went tho c s0fa widd mum & br0 .. at first went tho Brighton at bukitmerah derhhs .. din c ani nice wan den walked tho bus interchange & took 139 tho alexandra r0ad .. at first i still scared i g0rt down at the wrong stop but lucky in the end i din get d0wn at the wr0ng stop .. in the end managed tho buy the s9fa at The Green House .. the s0fa will b delivered on the 14th tish m0nth .. Valentines dae .. haas .. lolx .. hmm s0methin went wrong .. mum said tat she wanna gho bukitmerah central .. shi ok we went tho take 139 .. guess wad .. im dumb enough tho direct mum tho take it at the bus stop opposite . mum said it's n0rt the opposite wan but i said it's .. in the end we g0rt over tho the opposite &took 139 .. DIE ~! it's n0rt goin tho the interchange .. i quicky told mum .. den we g0rt d0wn asap .. den went tho the oppsite side tho take 139 .. waited sho long nho bus .. mum was like fed up liaos .. den she sae if 65 cum first den she g0es home & my br0 & i gho tiong buy thins tho makan .. in the end 65 came & mum thought tat behind ish 139 sho she din take 65 .. in the end it's n0rt 139 .. good-ness .. but soon , 139 came & we took tho interchange n0rhhs .. bought somethins den went home lerhhs .. haiish .. reached home at bout 2plus .. den went tho buy lunch .. haven eat wan n0rhhs .. poor mie .. in the end i ate my lunch at 3 .. after eatin , took out homew0rk & started doin .. at the same time watchin tv .. hees .. xD in the end i only c0mplete one long math question .. still left widd 2 questions .. hmm c if later g0rt time tho dho marhhs .. :] dad gave mie & br0 each 2o bucks .. haas .. but cant spend it .. waitin f0rhh tish m0nth bill tho come .. i tink it will b quite alort c0shh i g0rt sms widd h0cky tat time .. but hope it's n0rt too much .. hees .. n0w keep coughin .. eye itchy too .. fallin sick again .. haiish .. ytd slept at bout 11plus .. cant fall asleep .. mind ish full of thins .. haiish .. =(

2007-02-02T20:26:00.000+08:00

t0dae's blog g0nna b long & long .. c0sh ytd din blog till tho some pr0belms wid the blogger barhhx .. let mie start from ytd barhhs .. f0rh ytd plus t0dae's m0rnin , i mit widd huii & came tho sko0l widd her n0rhhs .. madam cheng changed both huii & my seat .. the b0th of us still sit together jush tat we're n0w in the 2nd r0w .. ge0 was damn b0redds .. simply veryy xian .. yuu sat right behind & she slept .. haas .. don like ms ang teach niahhs .. eng was taken by a relief teacher .. we did the eng trial examinati0n passage A .. it's once again xian n0rhhs .. s0cial haihao .. at least g0rt some laughter barhhs .. pd was slackin peri0d wan .. wrote reflection n0rhhs .. but os0 xianns larhhs .. c0sh n0thin tho dho .. after sk0ol g0rt math remedial .. keep c0py the s0lutions n0rhhs .. hand sho suan n0rhhs .. & i c0pie till DAMN slow .. in the end i took huii's paper back home as she c0pied fast enough .. after tat huii went f0rhh her chinese dance & yuu & i went tho find the counsellor .. chit chat n0rhhs .. den listenin tho those relax music .. haas .. yuu fall asleep .. & well we heard some thin .. well , shhs .. i wont sae i heard wad larhhs .. x) hees .. w0ke her up & den went tho the hawker & she ate fried kway teo .. i din bought anithin & ate .. guess wad .. i f0rgort tho remind yuu tho take her ic .. & sho we quickly walked back tho sk0ol .. lucky she still manange tho get her ic .. waharhas .. yuu saw madam cheng's ph0t0 & imitated the wae she took phot0 .. sho damn funnie .. i kipp laugh n0rhhs .. cant tahan marhhs .. after tat yuu tokk train home & i took tho tiong den walked h0me .. tried d0in the poa ytd . but i cant get the answers .. in the end it was bout time tho sleep sho i gave up on the questions .. peter called ytd nite but i din pick upp .. t0dae m0rnin i managed tho wake up abit m0re earlier .. yuu din came tho sko0l t0dae .. juepeng came tho sko0l .. pe t0dae ran .. 6rounds of outside the track of the c0urt .. i ran widd sujuan .. good-ness .. wo mei qi lerhhs n0rhhs .. haiish .. after the r0unds , gals nidd tho dho 2o sit-ups & 3o push ups .. but we din really dho c0shh mr ben ish busy widd the boiis as they're doin the pull ups .. haas xD .. huii & i den went tho the t0ilet .. kana scared c0shh when pushed the d00r saw ms ang inside .. & the lites were n0rt on n0rhhs .. haahaas .. ms ang was the relief teacher f0rhh eng n0rhhs .. xian xian XIAN .. did passage B .. wid ms ang in the klass , sure g0rt thins wan .. she unhappie wid sho manie thins n0rhhs .. grrR ~! idiotic teacher .. math was quite funnie .. harhas .. i dunn0 h0w tho type it out sho i shall leave out the details of it .. hees .. assembly only hab the sec 4&5 .. the sec3 are back frOm camp but they went home lerhhs .. assembly ishh quite funnie .. os0 abit xian at times .. after assembly , g0rt bullied n0rhhs .. huii to0 .. tat stupig aar0n pushed his frien den kana mie & huii .. big ELEPHANT . den the yongsheng keep sae huii neba bathe c0sh of the m0le .. yongsheng os0 used his tie tho wack mie n0rhhs .. such a bad k0rk0r .. slapped aar0n .. den he gho tell his teacher tat i m0lested him .. xcuse mie n0rhhs .. ish hu m0lest hu .. lmao .. harhas .. g0rt physics remedial .. bef0rhe tat went tho hab beancurd at the hawker .. sat widd b0onwee & thomas & friens .. jush nice 2seats left .. i made thomas cant ate his dessert .. i kept laugh .. it's funnie .. whenever thomas wanna hab his dessert , i will sae : yeah , baby , open ur m0uth .. & alorts m0re .. he cant tahan mie & cant eat his dessert in peace .. i'm os0 very thick-skinned .. don wan face .. lols .. mie & huii went off first .. went back sko0l took bag den went tho computer lab .. physics remedial was b0redd .. din really pay attenti0n .. took a phot0 n0rhhs .. hees .. bout 3 g0rt release lerhs .. went tho the hall wid huii as they ish rehersal in the hall f0rh the chinese dance .. stayed at the hall till bout 4 .. harhas .. it's fun stayin at the hall , seein the wae they dance .. but i g0rt hit by the volleyball once .. painful n0rhhs .. after tat huii went tuition & i waited f0rh 195 f0rh quite longg .. b0ard the bus & saw jun ren , hong ren , kenny & andrew .. was sho tired durin the journey back home .. saw mum & sho went home t0gether wid her .. br0 came back fr0m camp liaos .. he's like tiredd .. jush n0w g0rt frightened by a BLACK lizard . yucks .. digustin n0rhhs .. =( lizard ish one of the thin i FEAR m0st man .. hmm .. tml ish weekends lerhhx .. can hab m0re sleep .. hahas .. tml g0rt tho gho & c sofa in the m0rnin & aftern0on nho matter wad , g0rt tho miit yuu tho pass her some papers .. i seems abit busy tml .. den still g0rt homew0rk tho dho .. xiann rite .. m0ndae , mr ali & mrs cindy tan ish back in sk0ol liaox .. even xiann h0rhhs ! m0od was n0rt really sho good n0w .. abit d0wn .. haiihs .. os0 dunn0 yy .. but it g0rt n0thin tho dho wid him derhhs .. =/ tinkk i st0ppin my post here lerhhs .. it's a longg post .. urmm valentine's dae ish gettin nearer & nearer .. g0nna b alone on tat dae .. actually abit n0rt used tho it .. c0shh f0rh the last 2yrs , i g0rt someone special tho spend it wid mie .. but n0w , lonely , all by myself .. x__ UNL0VED & UNWANTED __x sObs s0bs ..

2007-01-31T20:33:00.000+08:00

todae the sec3 went f0rh their camp lerhhs .. 1st 2periods ish poa but den mrs cindy tan ish awae .. wohoos .. can realx abit even though dere's work f0rh us tho dho . durin recess was like sho co0l niahhs .. c0sh lesser ppl in the canteen .. buy food don nid wait .. shioks kkiaeys ! xD hees
chinese was s0rt of funnie .. social was bored .. failed social test .. haas .. only 8 passers out of 33 pupils .. tish m0nth progress rep0rt failed 2 .. humanlities & poa .. hmm , after skool , yu , nigel & patrick went tho find yu's " m0ther " .. i was wid dem too .. ermm waited f0rh huii lorhhs .. c0sh she g0rt eng remedial .. den i waited f0rh her as the both of us are goin chinatown .. hmmm at first yuu was wid mie but she left abit earlier .. after she left im alone sittin outside the klass .. den tat stupig aaron .. sae i'm a beggar & worst still he even act like a beggar lorhhs .. really make mie dunn0 should laugh or scold him .. chase after him & keep gib him slaps .. hahas .. i even twitched his finger .. den his good buddy , jasper , even knocked my head wid his knuckle .. it hurts n0rhhs .. & i tink we made quite alort of noise outside the klass .. the w0rst thin ish while slappin aaron , he snatched my file & ran .. wah lao n0rhhs .. they took my file & ran into the boy's toilet .. & i jush din care anithin & went into the boy's toilet as there ish nho one in the toilet .. but gettin back my file ish n0rt easie at all .. i run & run .. beat & beat .. slap & slap .. shout & shout .. it's all of nho use .. they even put the file onto the roof top of their klass .. callin mie tho get it .. but i din c0sh it's very ugly tho climb up the table when it's all boiis in the room .. wid only mie & xiuwen bein the 2gals .. at first when they smatched my file , i din wanna take back & sho huii & i took the lift down lerhhs .. i keep callin aaron but he jush din pick up my call .. den i went up again but while huii waited f0rh mie at the first floor .. in the end she waited quite longg as they jush dont want tho allow mie tho hab back my file .. BAD GUYS ! in the end they still don wan return mie .. sho i jush f0rget bout my file & leave .. & while walked till outside skool .. jasper shouted & said : eu don wan ur file ar ? haas .. of c0sh i wan larhhs .. den he walked tho mie & put the file on the ground .. wantin mie tho take the file my own n0rhhs .. grrr ~ ! bully n0rhs .. i knew huii was unhappie lerhhs .. she looked xian .. but lucky her mood ish much betta while we were at chinatown .. helped my mum buys thingys .. i bought a belt & a thights . bought 3pairs of earrins too .. an anklet .. huii os0 bought 3pairs of earrins .. haas .. it's quite enjoyable .. =) reached home at bout 6plus .. quite late todae .. abit tired after doin all the walkins at chinatown & runnins/chasins in sko0l ..
hmm haven dho the engg c0mposition .. i tink i'll b in dead meat .. i tink i betta get goin & dho it & make sure i hand in tml .. tink tat's all f0rh todae .. but i tink i did someh0w missed some thins which i din post .. but sort of lazy & too much thins tat occur todae in skool ..

2007-01-30T20:32:00.000+08:00

tish m0rnin we've house electi0n .. s0rt of b0red but sometimes quite funnie .. 1st less0n was ge0 .. mm although ge0 t0dae was quite short due tho the elction delayed , but still " c0nflict " still happen .. in the end yuu & juepeng's name g0rt written in the management bo0k f0rh bein rude . but actually they jush tell ang tat it's end of her less0n . ang ish jush too old tho get thins right . * yawns
at first still thought pe g0nna run .. lucky in the end was game . played netball .. mr ben was real very funnie . like a j0ker . we gals jush cant stop laughin . but somethin happen tho juepeng . =(
one of his eyes g0rt hit by izwan's shoe . n0w tat eye of his ish blocked by blood clot & he cant c wid tat eye . he's given one week mc .. h0pe he'll get well asap .. haiish ! sad case n0rhhs ..
physics did some practical . it's b0rin .. recess , yu went f0rh some jOggin .. she should hab jog f0rh ten rounds , in the end the " disc0unt " she g0rt was real much .. haas .. eng , mr ali wasn't around . we've tho write a c0mposition & hand in todae . in the end , i din dho at all .. c0shh i dunn0 wad tho write ..
tml mrs cindy tan & mr ali w0nt b around . they will b awae f0rh camp .. harhas .. although they're awae , but still they left us some w0rks tho dho ..
after skool g0rt chinese remedial . remedial t0dae was damn funnie . jun guang siad " yeah " when he g0rt the answers right . & when yu s0rt of intimate him , he heard & actually looked at yu wid the fierce look & den diao her .. lols . jun guang kept lookin at her durin the remedial & alwaes diao her .. harhas .. keep luaghin t0dae durin remedial .
after tat took a train & went tho tiong . den from tiong took a walk back home . at first at tiong was still tinkin if i should buy somethin & hab a bite . in the end , i still tink betta n0rt . firstly can save abit m0re $$ . sec0ndly , don nid put on m0re weight . xD
but when i reached h0me , i ate 2 kit-kat chocolates . cant tahan anim0re . hees ..
=/ mie still haven wirte my engg c0mpo . mayb n0rt gonna dho yet . im sort of tired & lazy n0w . brain lazyy tho m0ve . shall c h0w niahhs ..

2007-01-29T21:36:00.000+08:00

get ready f0rh a long p0st . once again im late when i left home f0rh sko0l t0dae .. but lucky i walked fast & in the end it was not late .. my poa test was really BAD .. i failed badly h0rhs .. 4/15 marks neiihs .. g0shh .. i din fail my poa test wan n0rhhs .. haiish ..
lucky i passed my chemistry test .. did quite well but g0rt one careless mistake tat cause mie tho lose tat important 2marks .. recess s0methin happen .. yuu manage tho catch tat joseph soh .. yuu was sho fierce n0rhhs .. she grabbed joseph's shirt & keep scold him ..
he din dare tho dho anithin back but jush tryin tho get off yuu's hand .. yuu beat him .. his shirt was like tore .. button came off .. he said he wont dare tho follow anim0re but huii & i share the same thinkin tat he wont b scared & will still follow .. hmm we shall c n0rhhs ..
dunn0 wadd happen tho tat jun guang t0dae .. temper was like badd .. he kept suddenly look at yuu & den diao her .. g0rt once todae he even shouted at yu shut up when she only praised tat his pen ish cute .. im like afraid tat he will jush anih0w throw a chair over .. lucky he din ..
let mie n0w sae bout somethin funnie .. guess wad ? weiquan g0rt pushed into the girl's toilet todae .. tat aaron was the one behind all tish .. he pushed weiquan in & after tat stopped weiquan fr0m comin out .. xiuwen , huii & mie was inside the t0ilet .. laughed throughout till weiquan g0rt out of the toilet .. waharhas .. xDD
after skool was chemistry remedial .. did the ten yr series .. after tat huii went home wid mie .. after tat the 2 of us went down tho chinat0wn & shopp .. yuu went home .. we ate at mac bf0re startin our shoppin journey .. at mac was funnie .. haas .. even though my sick still haven really ok , i ate mac as too long meiyou eat lerhhs .. huii ish os0 diggin her own grave by eatin mac as she os0 n0rt feelin well .. at first she sae wanna eat kfc but i don feel like .. she's good enough tho gho the wae i wanted .. thanks .. (=
huii bought thins like graph pad , highlighter , straws .. f0rh mie , i will b buyin thins on wed as we will b goin dere again .. i'll wait f0rh her on wed as she g0rt engg remedial .. din manage tho shop finish todae as the time ish too limited .. hees .. the trip tho chinatown ish full of joy & laughter .. jush cant stop laughin todae in skool wid huii , as well as after skool at chinatown ..
felt cold todae in skool .. my hands are icy cold .. it's true .. tml g0rt geo .. BORED .. ang ish comin in .. * yawns .. hmm shall c wad i've g0rt tho write in my tml post .. tink i g0rt tho stop here .. hees ..

2007-01-28T20:23:00.000+08:00

shuyu , peiishan & zihuii

took ytd in the t0ilet .. xD

ytd quickly c0mplete my w0rk .. i anih0w dho my eng summary .. c0shh i'm really g0nna faint if i c0ntinue .. quickly went tho bed after tat .. tish m0rnin g0rt woke up by my mum & uncle .. uncle t0dae came tho paint mum's ro0m & the kitchen .. their tokin voices & os0 m0vin those thingys g0rt mie awoke .. tat was bout only 10plus .. i'm still quite tired but nho choice hab tho wake up lerhhs ..

i looked sho shag & restless .. my fever din went off .. but n0rt as hot as ytd nite lerhhs .. hab runnin n0se when i woke up . mm den ate 2cakes den took my medicine .. t0dae i din help out .. i sat dere & watched tv .. haas .. maybb c0shh mum n0e i sickk .. sho din let mie dho anithin barhhs .. =) dad din w0rkk todae but he din help out uncle in the paintin n0rhhs .. he's lazy i tink .. & he on his old songs sho loudly .. i cant tahan sho i went into my r0om n0rhhs ..

i on the radio in my r0om .. den i'm jush too tired tat i doze off on my table .. when it's about time tho bathe , mum woke mie up .. den after tat din sleep lerhhs .. c0shh ish bout time f0rhh dinner .. n0w my fever ish gOne lerhhs .. cough ishh still dere as it has neba been g0ne f0rh dunn0 h0w many months liaox .. throat ish still abit pain c0sh i don hab ani medicine f0rh tat .. but i drank alort of water liaox ..

lucky din hab tho spend ani $$ tho c d0ctor .. & still able tho gho sko0l tml .. it's n0rt i hardworkin but because i don wanna miss ani less0ns & den hab additional w0rks when my klassmates hab already c0mpleted it in klass .. it's b0red & tiring attendin skool .. i've packed finish my sko0l bag sho can relax ..

2007-01-27T19:18:00.000+08:00

t0dae im g0nna blog earlier .. c0shh later mie wanna dho homew0rkks sho tat tml i can rest m0re .. i'm SICK n0w & ish DAMN sickk .. habin fever n0w .. & my body ish h0t , very .. my throat os0 very pain .. jush n0w took medicine lerhhs .. if tml still habin fever den i g0rt tho visit the d0ctor liaos .. haiishs .. ytd nite din sleep well at all .. i only get tho sleep well at 3plus .. =(

but t0dae went out widd yu , huii & my br0 even though i'm sick .. w0ke up at bout 8plus by huii's call .. mm at first went out widd mum tho tiong market awhile c0shh she buyinn pyjamas f0rhh mie .. in the end i bought 2 .. it c0st $20 niahhs .. after tat mit huii at tiong .. s0rrie as she waited f0rh mie .. when i reached , i cant c her when she's ish jush right in fr0nt of mie .. c0shh mie n0rt feelin well liaos ..

went up tho arcade tho play para .. at first ish mit yuu at tiong , 11.45 .. in the end she cant make it at tat time sh0 mitted her at marina .. took 195 tho marina .. in the bus ish very funny .. dere's a fly near the seat we're at .. den wheneva the fly m0ved , i will os0 m0ved .. & i sticked tho huii .. huii laughin dere n0rhhs .. urm i'm scared of tat one small fly .. i n0e it's stupig .. x))

quickly changed place when the passengers alight .. after reachin marina , went up tho the arcade .. warhhs , it's very c0ld .. den huii went tho buy c0rn at the Golden Village .. & she bought a mentos tat c0st $1.50 .. den we went tho sit d0wn .. we chatted while waitin f0rhh yuu's arrival .. quite a long chat n0rhhs .. i tink g0rt bout 45mins or m0re or less ..

went tho arcade & yuu played para .. huii & i sat at the machine next tho it .. it's again veryy funny .. huii g0rt frighten by the hairy spiders * disgusting * , & i g0rt frighten by the fr0gs which p0p out fr0m the machine's screen .. lols .. tish time round huii sticked cl0se tho mie & i sticked close tho the side of the machine .. xD huii shout & shout .. waharhas ..

walked tho suntec .. & yuu was like tokin bout food when she g0rt an ice cream in her hand .. & the both of us s0rt of hab an " arguement " .. but we're jush jokin .. =) huii bought a crown belt at suntec & yuu bought an anklet .. mie bought n0thin .. but i tinkk i will wanna buy a belt .. it's cheap & nice .. went arcade & played para .. finally g0rt tho play tat para machine .. hees ..

yu sae wanna gho look f0rh xiuqun .. sho went tho kfc .. at first yu wanna eat buger at mac .. but in the end changed tho kfc after steppin into kfc .. yupphs , saw xiuqun n0rhhs .. huii & yuu shared a chicken meal .. my br0 & i din eat .. i din eat c0sh my throat .. but dunn0 yy my br0 din eat .. maybb because he jush recover from his sickness .. feelin even unwell at tat time ..

haiish .. after eatin , yu went tho dho her " white pen " .. after tat went back arcade .. played f0rh awhile den leave suntec .. yu ish goinn tho west mall tho mit her frien & after tat attendin her frien derhhs birthdae .. huii & mie went tiong n0rhhs .. at first wanted tho get down at tiong , in the end she alight at plaza sing .. huii & mie c0ntinue the bus journey ..

but in the end , we din shop at tiong .. i went home .. huii os0 gho home .. my bus alort of ppl n0rhhs .. at first im still afraid i might hab difficulty gettin d0wn .. but in the end i alighted quite easily .. reach home i gho bathe .. after tat went tho buy birthdae cake wid my br0 .. his birthdae .. HAPPY BIRTHDAE ! =)) later eatin cake sho h0pe i don put on any weight .. hees ..

h0w i wish eu can be by my side n0w ..

nidd eu badly n0w ..

but eu jush wont care bout mie ..

ur care& love matters sho much tho mie n0w , at tish m0ment , tish point of time ..

i cried silently jush n0w ..

i could n0rt c0ntrol it anim0re ..

eu're neba by my side when i nid euu ..

i n0e everythin w0nt b like the past ..

but i'll jush accept all tish ..

it's ok , it's fine wid mie ..

c0shh life still g0es on w/o eu , ur care & love ..

dere's n0thin i can dho ..

i can only sae tish ish all fated & the w0rld wont st0p f0rh mie ..

2007-01-26T20:32:00.000+08:00

t0dae neaRly latE f0rH sko0l .. rUn rUn & run .. at last n0rt laTe .. luckyy siahhs ..
m0od tish m0rnin wasn't g0od at all .. i jush dunn0 yy .. partly c0sh of the $5 , n0rt really feelin well & perhaps some other thingys to0 .. played netball t0dae under the small rain .. s0rt of co0lin .. it's funny to0 .. overall still fine ..
eng took v0cab test .. chinese i felt damn unwell .. veryy c0ld .. ill ..
recess , yu treated mie widd a b0wl of prawn mee .. thanks f0rh tat lerhhs .. (=
wahahars ! joseph smiled look sho funnie .. lmao .. good-ness ..
the rest of the periods still okiaeys .. b0ring n0rhhs ..
after sko0l g0rt physics remedial .. ermm , din did ani w0rk cause madam cheng wasn't around .. another teacher , mr foo was around .. he os0 don seems tho care .
i went tho bukitmerah after tat .. went dere helped mum buy thingys & tho settle my bills .. i've a hard time carryin the things i bought .. it's heavy .. & i'm habin a bad headache .. dizzy & i don seems tho hab ani strength .. i really badd .. & i'm sho damn tired .. it seems like i'm gonna fall .. i cant even walk pr0perly .. keep like g0nna fall .. haiish ..
reach home , after a bath .. feel much betta .. but eye started tho get itchy .. & i rubbed .. & it g0rt swollen .. my throat ish startin tho s0re .. it hurts .. & my c0ugh .. dere's sho much sho much .. i tink i g0rt slight fever lerhhs .. feelin very unwell n0w .. i n0e my runnin n0se ish comin .. my n0se very itchy .. ARHHS ! ENOUGH LAHS !
n0w m0re thins ish happenin round mie .. as well as my friens .. who ish jush the idiotic pers0n tat ish behnd all tish thins ?

tml goin out .. my br0thers birthdae .. bought him somethin lerhhs .. but it's abit simple but it's of use .. overall it's still the thought tat c0unts ..

I'M DAMN DAMN TIRED & SICK LERHHS .. I'M AFRAID I WONT BE ABLE TO TAKE IT ANYM0RE .. & N0RT ABLE TO HANDLE THE PR0BLEMS .. WAD SHOULD I DO ? =( * tears

2007-01-25T20:18:00.000+08:00

t0dae to0k the same bus as hui they all .. jush nicee they os0 take the bus i took .. due tho the rain tat caused the gr0und tho b wet , we went back tho klass f0rh the m0rnin assembly . huii stomach n0rt feelin well sho we went tho the t0ilet after puttin d0wn our bags .. haas .. when the skool ish takin the anthem & pledge , the b0th of us were in the t0ilet ..

glad tat i g0rt full marks f0rh my math test .. it's been sho long time since i get a full marks f0rh math test .. ge0graphy t0dae was real bad .. Ang ang ang came in tho take our klass lorhhs .. Mrs Brenda tan dunn0 gho where , den ang wil b takin our klass till march barhhs .. god - ness h0rhs .. we din dho geography h0mework den she called us tho gho & sit on the floor & dho ..

yuu was veryy unhappie wid her .. & sho they have a conflict .. binwei os0 g0rt angry wid ang lorhs .. michelle t0o .. she s0rt of shouted at ms ang .. ms ang n0rt good wan .. sho unreasonable n0rhhs .. but well , jush hab tho hack care her can liaos .. eng was b0red to0dae .. did c0mprehension .. caught yuu sleepin .. but awhile later c her , she's woke up .. lols ..

pd was abit m0re relaxin n0rhhs .. after skool g0rt math remedial .. tiring n0rhhs .. hengg stress .. damn sad n0rhs .. i dr0pped 5dollars neiihs .. tho some ppl , $5 ish n0thin .. but tho mie , the $5 ishh alort .. the w0rst thin ish i din even n0e tat i dropped $5 .. & i don even n0e when i dr0pped it & at where .. i saved tat m0ney till very xinku .. tish few daes' recess i hardly eat .. & n0w it's gone ..

my m00d really went d0wn .. i really wanna burst into tears .. when i reached home , i keep sae bout it .. i cant take it anim0re tat i actually cried .. it's mayb silly tho cry f0rh jush $5 .. but tat $5 ish i saved it derhhs .. mum came home i told mum .. f0rh bout 2hours , my face ish totally black & xian .. haiish .. yy am i sho damn sway ? aiyarhs , drop tish topicc larhhs .. cant stand myself f0rh bein sho careless , stupig & dumb ..

jush n0w eye swollen & habin headache cum dizzy .. n0w feelin cold & habin cough .. c0ughin like last time .. f0rh sometime , my cough betta lerhh .. n0w ish back again .. g0rt n0thin tho sae bout all tish n0rhhs .. stop my post here lerhhs .. tml g0rt vocab test .. wanna gho learn ..

On 11 feb , i'm gonna give you up .

i cho0se that day cause we 0nce have a pr0mise on 11 September 2006 .

Is that still in your mind ? I think n0t ..

For the days before 11 Feb ,

I'll Be trying my Best tO give you up t0tally ..

& als0 be still waiting f0r you ..

And if bef0re that day ,

you c0ntact me ,

then i will see h0w things g0 ..

I might be fo0lish or what ,

but maybe that's me ..

& I'm n0t happyy f0r all this !

2007-01-24T20:57:00.000+08:00

heart pain n0hs .. haiish .. early in the m0rninn stomach pain .. went tho the t0ilet twice lerhhs .. den in the end if i'm tho take bus i'll b late f0rh skool .. sho nho choice , of c0shh had tho depend on cab lohs .. seven o'clock neiihs .. peak hours addition 2bucks siahhx .. xing tong .. the m0ney i saved f0rh last few daes went flew awae jush like tish .. the fare of my cab ish $6.50 .. very expensive .. cant bear tho let it gho .. ahhhs ! don wanna sae bout it liaos ..

t0dae ish a tiring dae .. guess wad .. we've g0rt 4 tests in jush a dae . at the start ish poa & followed by math .. den after recess was chemistry .. chinese nho test but we wrote chinese c0mpositon .. & last 2periods ish social test .. god-ness ! we're jush sufferin under stress .. s0cial ish 101% fail dehs . but f0rh the other 3 , h0pefully ish a pass lorhhs ..

after skool went hawker .. urmm den ling , meiling & qianqi came n0rt long after we reached .. when qianqi came , huii walked off & went tho tok widd qianqi .. & huii din came back lerhhs , only when ling & meiling ish gonna leave liaox .. den she came & was like sae bye barhhs .. den she wnet back skool wid dem n0rhhs .. =( haiihs .. os0 dunn0 wad tho sae bout tish liaox lerhhs .. * sighs & sighs *

before goin tiong , went tho the library as yu nid the toilet .. gaya & jazz was dere .. & sho we chatted dere awhile bef0re settin off f0rh tiong .. weather sho hot n0rhhs .. went tiong & ate long j0hn .. warhs .. a few gals was sho damn n0isy at dere .. treatin dere like a playground .. # dottys * den went home after stayin at tiong f0rh some time .. den tok wid yuu f0rh awhile .. her train will only arrive in 6mins time .. we tok till left 1min lols .. den she ran f0rh her train .. haas .. den i walked home n0rhhs ..

todae i felt sho broke ( nho moneyy ) .. & my mood don seems good .. well , i shall sae tat i'm n0rt mood-swing .. seriously my senses & feelings tell mie tat s0methin ish gonna happen .. n0rt love but between close friens & friens .. i dunn0 yy i will sae tat .. but it's very strong .. or izzit i've tink too much .. it don seems sho .. sometimes i feel tat dere's ppl tokin behind my back .. i've tish feelin f0rh quite sometimes lerhhs .. but jush uncertain bout it . wadeva it's , i jush wont b able tho dho much .. haiihs ..

opps .. it's a long post todae .. hees .. i jush seems tho hab quite alort tho sae todae .. t0dae nho homework & tml nho test .. feel much more relax .. shall stop here ..
my life ish gettin harder lerhhs .. but nho matter wad , i'll try tho overcome it ..
i'm waitin f0rhh some0ne hu can truly love & cares f0rh mie .. will tat dae come ?

2007-01-23T20:28:00.000+08:00

din get tho p0st ytd .. was busy wid my homew0rk ytd nite ..
t0dae durin ge0 , nho teacher .. the klass was sho free .. chit chat & tok & laugh ..
pe played netball .. LOLS .. mr ben ish real funnie .. at least pe t0dae was enjoyable ..
physics was b0redd , real b0red barhx ..
recess peii yuu n0rhhs .. she g0rt turf ..
the other less0ns sho sho bahx ..
after skool g0rt chinese remedial .. madam ku really bought us swits .. f0rh todae derhhs remedial , it's still fine .. after tat i went tiong .. b0ught an egg tart makan den after tat walked home even though it's rainin .. haiish ..
reach home at bout 4.3o ..
tink i g0rt n0thinn tho sae lerhhs .. shall end here lerhhs ..

=( * i suddenly feel sho sick & tired , physically & mentally .. it's enough f0rhh all tish ..
i've really suffered real enough .. will anione of eu really understand h0w i live my daes .. ?
nhoo , eu all dont .. im os0 a human being n0rhhs .. i nidd real cares & love too .. besides my parent tat cares f0rh mie , i d0n tink dere's ish others tat really truly cares f0rhh mie .. i dunn0 .. mayb my close friens dho ? i really wanna burst into tears .. it's really hard tho control the tears & tho stop myself fr0m gettin upset .. but all tish daes , i c0ntrol my tears & tho make myself feel happie .. but the p0int ish everythins fake ..

2007-01-21T20:39:00.000+08:00

was at home todae n0rhhs .. din gho aniwhere ..
xian worhhs .. n0thin muchh tho post ..
tml ish skool again .. real stress ! tml after skool still g0rt chemistry remedial ..
mm haven pack my bag .. =(

i miss my preci0us real loads .. haiish ..
i love him .. still lovin him ..

i cares f0rhh eu ..
i'm givin him my support ..
i'll neba leave eu by the side nho matter wadd , as long as i'm allowed tho b by ur side ..

wo derhh ba0beii , ni yao yong yuan derhs jiayou ..

2007-01-20T20:49:00.000+08:00

t0dae went tho bugis widd mum in the n00n .. ermm alort of ppl n0rhhs ..
but mum din gho dere longg .. reach home at bout 3plus .. den br0 was sickk ..
jush n0w evenin mum brought him tho c d0ctor lorhhs .. feelin sho b0redd siah ..
n0thinn tho dho .. n0thin tho p0st lerhh barhhs ..
urmm still haven dho my homew0rk .. stress .. lazyy tho dho .. hees ..

2007-01-19T21:57:00.000+08:00

todae i still thought i will b late f0rhh skool .. but luckyy .. in the end din .. c0shh ran f0rh quite a distance .. durin pe , we ran fr0m the parade square tho the basketball c0urt .. den after tat dho 20 push ups & 20 sit ups .. after tat was s0ccer games .. pe was at least betta .. but mie g0rt abit hurt durin pe .. my elbow still hurts .. haiish =(
eng took test .. ermm it's quite easy if g0rt learn .. i tink can pass .. hees .. chinese took back test paper & g0rt chinese spelling n0rhhs .. assembly was still fine barhs .. after skool g0rt physics remedial .. ermm , dunn0 h0w tho describe .. it has g0rt some funny parts .. after tat went home alone .. huii went tuition .. the weather was hot ..
tml ish sat .. yeahhs .. zzz late .. hees .. * yawns ..

i misses eu .. sms eu , neba reply mie .. haiish .. =(
eu said eu will care mie derhhs even if eu're busy ..
but n0w it don seems sho .. actions speak louder than w0rds ..
pr0ve tho mie tat eu're w0rth my trust ..
d0nt lie tho mie 0r eve joke wid mie using love ..
i w0nt b able tho take it ..
but wadeva it ish , im still by ur side givin eu the support eu wan ..
i'm lovin w.w ..
in my heart , i jush treat him as my preci0us , wo derhh baobeii ..
but still * SIGHS

how long m0re will i be waitin ? that's still a question mark till n0w ..

2007-01-18T21:41:00.000+08:00

i went tho skoOl t0dae alone ..
hmm i failed my ge0 .. haiihs .. but i can only sae i tried my best liaos lorhhx .. i g0rt 7/20 .. the number 7 again .. i can only sae im s0rt of like fated tho tat number .. 7eva .. ms ang ish like an nuisance lorhhs .. keep stand behind of the klass & walk here , walk dere .. stupigg !
eng was abit too b0redd .. dho descriptive writing .. difficult n0rhs .. i anih0w write .. hees .. pd was like slack n0rhhs .. hahas ..
after skool ish remedial .. math derhhs .. dho questions n0rhhs .. n0rt easyy .. stress n0rhhs ..
warhhs den rain sho heavily siahh .. mie nho umbrella .. den shared it widd yu .. the small umbrella n0rhhs .. of nho use .. in the end the b0th of us still get wet .. but still g0rt tho thanks yu f0rhh her umbrella .. was damn wet till when i g0rt the bus it was damn sho cold n0rhhs .. haiish .. s0bs ..
reach home at bout 5 ..
xiann .. mie nho time tho revise my physics test f0rh tml .. & v0cab test os0 haven prepare .. g0rt tho off c0m soon lerhhs .. * yawns .. i h0pe can pass englishh v0cab ..
tml after skool g0rt physics remedial .. 1.30 tho 3.30 siahhs .. 2 full h0urs .. =(

the joy in my heart was when eu chatted with mie .. i'm totally shocked .. ytd & todae ..
kn0win tat eu n0w guaii guai , sho happie ..
& eu n0e tat bef0re eu went in , i've benn givin eu my supp0rt ..
but eu said thanks tho mie .. when eu thanks mie , i felt tat i'm jush like a frien tho eu .. ='(
someh0w i'm lost .. & one of tish daes , i'll get my answers fr0m eu tho all my un-answer questions ..
i said i'll support eu f0reva & i will .. trust mie ..
love eu .. muackies .. =)

2007-01-17T21:09:00.000+08:00

mm t0dae i went tho skool alone n0rhx .. =( but it's fine ..
urmm less0ns was still okok n0rhh until chinese .. dho test .. i tink yu finished quite fast & she slept .. & yea , madam kuU g0rt difficulty callin her .. friens near her tried tho wake her up but they failed .. in the end , madam kuU walked till yu's seat tho get her up .. lols .. mie was laughin over it .. XD hees ..
den i saw huii dozing off .. she slept but madam kuU keep callin her tho wake up .. dOtts ..
after chinese went tho the t0ilet .. huii helped mie tho plait my hair .. & of c0shh we're late f0rh s0cial .. lucky mr siah din sc0ld us .. 6 klassmates of mine g0rt punished f0rh n0rt doin their w0rkk .. & mr siah wanna dem tho c0pie alort of pages lorhhs .. haOo ke lian ..
after skool went tiong post office widd yu as i've tho settle some bills .. thanks yu f0rh acc0mpanyin mie gho .. =)
after tat went tiong f0rh awhile & we went up the neoprint shOp .. den yu took some photos wid her phone .. hees ..
went home after tat .. as usual i walked home .. hees .. the weather hot lorhhs ..
lucky todae nho homeworkk .. tink tat's all lerhh bahs ..

2007-01-16T21:29:00.000+08:00

early in the m0rnin , my dae din start well lerhhs .. but manage tho get my anger tho co0l d0wn fast .. p.e run till i wanna die .. ha0 xin ku .. run widd yu lorhs .. hahas .. hmm physics was b0rinn .. poa less0n huii was abit out of MIND .. keep joke & laugh .. hahas .. cant tahan lorhhs ..
after skool g0rt chinese remedial .. we went late .. den madam KU was unhappie lorhhs ~ .. scolded us .. den TOK os0 cannort siahhs ~ .. really shiit lohs .. keep call mie & yu tho st0p tokin .. den huii on s0ng wid her handph0ne , in the end g0rt c0nfiscated by HER .. huii was furious .. but in the end lucky she managed tho get backk n0rhs .. den s0mem0re dunn0 wan ask c0ppie wad chinese thingyy larhhs .. must c0pie hao lerhhs den can gho home .. DOTTYS ..
was like damn TIRED & BORED ~!
after tat went home lorhhs .. weather was hot in the afternoon .. GOSH ..
recess i ate laksa , dinner os0 laksa .. todae ish my LAKSA DAE .. XD
Opps .. it's late & i hab tho off c0mputer lerhhs .. * YAWNS

2007-01-15T19:16:00.000+08:00

sko0l todae was still fine .. chemistry went tho the lab & dho praticals .. haas .. samueltan br0ke one test tube lorhhs .. sho careless .. as usual , chinese less0ns tho mie ish till b0redd .. mayb nid time tho get use tho it lohs .. after skool went tiong tho mit wenxin .. den took ne0print lorhs .. den after tat walked home wid her .. hab quite a nice chat .. reach home earlyy .. bout 3.45 reach home lerhhs ..
feelin rather tired todae .. dunn0 yy .. watchin tv os0 nearly fall asleep .. lols .. todae nho homew0rkk .. tat's great .. but g0rt alort of remedials in a week .. m0ndae f0rh chem , tues f0rh chinese , thurs f0rh math & frii f0rh physics . very cham .. =(

boii , i didn't hear from eu f0rh quite sometimes lerhh .. has been w0nderin h0w eu .. but i tink eu're perfectly fine .. tish time it really seems like eu g0rt s0meone in ur heart lerh .. ur pr0mise & love wid the gal ? saw ur msn nickk .. sometimes h0w i wish i could hear ur v0ice again .. miss eu & the tokings on phone .. but i don hab the courage tho actually call eu , n0rt even a sms .. i jush dunn0 yy .. i believe all this ish fated .. wad mines will b mines ..
as long as he's happy , be guai & n0rt like last time & he takecares of himself .. everything ish fine wid mie .. h0pe tat in his heart , nho matter wad , he remembers tat i'm always here f0rh him ..

2007-01-14T21:26:00.000+08:00

t0dae zzz till quite late .. den in the aftern00n after luche , went tiong wid br0 .. bef0re leavin bought h0ney milk tea .. din drink f0rh quite some time liaox .. hees .. den b0ught egg tarts tho eat too .. den walked h0me even though it's rainin .. but well i g0rt an umbrella .. t0dae ate quite alot .. ate durians at bout 5plus .. den 6plus hab dinner .. h0pe i w0nt gr0w fat .. in the m0rnin took my weight , lose weight by o.5kg lols .. XD
tml g0rt skool .. abut xian .. & i haven packed my bag siahhs .. haas .. ermm tink i've g0rt tho end here lerhhs & go pack my skool bag ..