` My life is still the same . As usual , working .
Nowadays , busy doing house chores as Mummy is away .
It can be quite tiring at times cause I've to do all this after my work .
Well , it is okay .
Last few Nights , when I'm free , called Mummy .
Chatted with her for awhile .
Today cant call her cause grandma & mummy & my uncles are going over to my Aunty's house for buffet .
Sians . I'm not there with them ..
Tomorrow will be the big day for my cousin .
She's getting married . Sorry & sad that i cant get to attend her wedding .
It's such a happy occasion .
However , I will be going back Malaysia very soon .
At least i get to attend my Jiujiu's wedding .
Still unsure which day going off but it will be next week .
I misses almost everyone at Malaysia , especially those small little cute Precious of mine .
And by the time i come back to Singapore from Malaysia , It is time for receive my ' N ' level result .
There's still filing to do . I don't feel like doing it .
But i have to get it done before i leave for my holiday as I won't be back here so fast .
So shall take one night to get ready all the subject files first .
After getting result then see whether should go up Sec5 a not.
Sometimes things happen because people caused it to happen .
There are a lot of things which are far beyond our own control .
Is it everyone only have themselves in their eyes ?
They have never spare a thought for the others ?
Some people take friendships for granted .
Some people take love for granted .
In everyones' life , it is full of regrets .
But everything will just be too late .
Time will never stop or turn back for anyone of us .
So we shall learn how to treasure what we have got .
Grabbing well of every little small chance that is given to us .
Happiness wont last long .
It is just for that moment or so .
So it is on how people feel the happiness & what is the cause of it .
I'm tired to always seeing the same situations happening on me .
Sometimes i Don't even know what's happening to me & around me .
I don't seems to be able to understand why .
I just want a peaceful life and nothing else .
I don't need love , care & concern .
It's okay with me to only have myself in my world .
At least i don't get any hurt from anyone .
I know who really cares for me and who don't .
I believe in my own instinct .
Somehow no one understand but it's alright for me .
Cause i don't need anyone to understand .
I keep everything to myself .
I'm used to it and i know it is consider a bad habit of mine .
No one can help me and I know very well that only i can help myself .
But well , the conclusion is I have given up on almost everything & myself .
Friends , nothing has happen to me .
I'm fine .
PeiShan is still PeiShan .
