Saturday, November 10, 2007
Erm yahs , didn't blog for quite some time . so here to update my blog .
Have been working all this while since school holidays had started .
If during weekends , there's no prom0ter job , I will be rotting at home .
My life is just DEAD . I have no mood for almost every thing .
And for weekdays , I get to see all those cute & boisterous kids .
Although working for the bookshop was not that easy but at least the people there is kind & friendly .
I've been late for my work . I really cant get myself to wake up a bit earlier ..
However , on monday onwards , I cant be late but got to be more early . Cause will be doing sales already .
Hopefully i can handle the parents & customers .
I cant spend much even if i have got my pay . I got to return Mum S160 ..
Firstly was the money for the clothings bought for the promoter job .
Secondly is my handphone bill . It's $78 this month .
I'm shocked when i saw this amount . Because normally my bill will only be about $35 .
Too much outgoing calls made this month . No more for the following months .
I got my own things that i want to buy . I don't find it happy to spend all my pays on the bill .
I have to handle the bill all by myself . So it's enough ..
Didn't have good sleeps this nights . I cant fall asleep whereby I'm feeling so damn tired .
In the mid of night , i will be having running nose . I will be sneezing & sneezing ..
Yesterday's night , i got woken up by the thunders . Yuphs , I'm afraid of that & i got difficulty going back to sleep .
Hm , Mum & me started to talk today . For 1week & 5days . we've not been talking .
Well , maybe it's some thing good . At least we can talk things more easily .
Hais . There are things which outsiders wont be able to understand . There are things which me myself don't know & don't understand .
Still there are things which i know very well in my heart . I'm able to understand too .
There is too much things happening round me this days . But from this incidents , i get to know who are people that really cares . Really thanks .. (x
I'm a girl with no confidence & my mind is filled with negative comments about myself .
I don't know what i can do to change all this .
My life is still in a mess now . I don't know what i can do to make myself live my life a little more happier .
I hate myself , my life too .. I see nothing good in myself . Somehow i wish i could just run away from all this sorrows & not get affected by it .
I don't know how to cheer myself up . Some times , i laugh at my friends' joke or entertainment but after it ended , everything is back to the same .
Suddenly i misses my childhood . Those days when I'm back at Malaysia . Playing & enjoying every happy moments with all my cousins there . I misses everyone . Hais ..
What should i do ? I have no idea ....
* My girl Shuyu , I've blogged .
She's the one that called me to blog .. [:
Loves .
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8:16:00 PM
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