Friday, November 30, 2007
# Sorry friends that tagged me & I have not reply or whatever at all . Cause i didn't even bother to see my own blog to check if there's any tag .. But surprise to say that there's tags .
I will link or relink you all soon . I'm sorry about all this ..
` My life is still the same . As usual , working .
Nowadays , busy doing house chores as Mummy is away .
It can be quite tiring at times cause I've to do all this after my work .
Well , it is okay .
Last few Nights , when I'm free , called Mummy .
Chatted with her for awhile .
Today cant call her cause grandma & mummy & my uncles are going over to my Aunty's house for buffet .
Sians . I'm not there with them ..
Tomorrow will be the big day for my cousin .
She's getting married . Sorry & sad that i cant get to attend her wedding .
It's such a happy occasion .
However , I will be going back Malaysia very soon .
At least i get to attend my Jiujiu's wedding .
Still unsure which day going off but it will be next week .
I misses almost everyone at Malaysia , especially those small little cute Precious of mine .
And by the time i come back to Singapore from Malaysia , It is time for receive my ' N ' level result .
There's still filing to do . I don't feel like doing it .
But i have to get it done before i leave for my holiday as I won't be back here so fast .
So shall take one night to get ready all the subject files first .
After getting result then see whether should go up Sec5 a not.
Sometimes things happen because people caused it to happen .
There are a lot of things which are far beyond our own control .
Is it everyone only have themselves in their eyes ?
They have never spare a thought for the others ?
Some people take friendships for granted .
Some people take love for granted .
In everyones' life , it is full of regrets .
But everything will just be too late .
Time will never stop or turn back for anyone of us .
So we shall learn how to treasure what we have got .
Grabbing well of every little small chance that is given to us .
Happiness wont last long .
It is just for that moment or so .
So it is on how people feel the happiness & what is the cause of it .
I'm tired to always seeing the same situations happening on me .
Sometimes i Don't even know what's happening to me & around me .
I don't seems to be able to understand why .
I just want a peaceful life and nothing else .
I don't need love , care & concern .
It's okay with me to only have myself in my world .
At least i don't get any hurt from anyone .
I know who really cares for me and who don't .
I believe in my own instinct .
Somehow no one understand but it's alright for me .
Cause i don't need anyone to understand .
I keep everything to myself .
I'm used to it and i know it is consider a bad habit of mine .
No one can help me and I know very well that only i can help myself .
But well , the conclusion is I have given up on almost everything & myself .
Friends , nothing has happen to me .
I'm fine .
PeiShan is still PeiShan .
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9:46:00 PM
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Saturday, November 10, 2007
Erm yahs , didn't blog for quite some time . so here to update my blog .
Have been working all this while since school holidays had started .
If during weekends , there's no prom0ter job , I will be rotting at home .
My life is just DEAD . I have no mood for almost every thing .
And for weekdays , I get to see all those cute & boisterous kids .
Although working for the bookshop was not that easy but at least the people there is kind & friendly .
I've been late for my work . I really cant get myself to wake up a bit earlier ..
However , on monday onwards , I cant be late but got to be more early . Cause will be doing sales already .
Hopefully i can handle the parents & customers .
I cant spend much even if i have got my pay . I got to return Mum S160 ..
Firstly was the money for the clothings bought for the promoter job .
Secondly is my handphone bill . It's $78 this month .
I'm shocked when i saw this amount . Because normally my bill will only be about $35 .
Too much outgoing calls made this month . No more for the following months .
I got my own things that i want to buy . I don't find it happy to spend all my pays on the bill .
I have to handle the bill all by myself . So it's enough ..
Didn't have good sleeps this nights . I cant fall asleep whereby I'm feeling so damn tired .
In the mid of night , i will be having running nose . I will be sneezing & sneezing ..
Yesterday's night , i got woken up by the thunders . Yuphs , I'm afraid of that & i got difficulty going back to sleep .
Hm , Mum & me started to talk today . For 1week & 5days . we've not been talking .
Well , maybe it's some thing good . At least we can talk things more easily .
Hais . There are things which outsiders wont be able to understand . There are things which me myself don't know & don't understand .
Still there are things which i know very well in my heart . I'm able to understand too .
There is too much things happening round me this days . But from this incidents , i get to know who are people that really cares . Really thanks .. (x
I'm a girl with no confidence & my mind is filled with negative comments about myself .
I don't know what i can do to change all this .
My life is still in a mess now . I don't know what i can do to make myself live my life a little more happier .
I hate myself , my life too .. I see nothing good in myself . Somehow i wish i could just run away from all this sorrows & not get affected by it .
I don't know how to cheer myself up . Some times , i laugh at my friends' joke or entertainment but after it ended , everything is back to the same .
Suddenly i misses my childhood . Those days when I'm back at Malaysia . Playing & enjoying every happy moments with all my cousins there . I misses everyone . Hais ..
What should i do ? I have no idea ....
* My girl Shuyu , I've blogged .
She's the one that called me to blog .. [:
Loves .
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8:16:00 PM
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