ytd nite my gurls called mie & we conference .. they wanna cheer mie up .. they tried tho entertain mie & hopin tat i'll laugh or at least mood will change abit tho betta .. but sorrie gurls .. i din get ani happier .. i jush kept quiet .. i really cant cheer up .. it's sho painful .. the blow tish time round was too big ; i cant take it .. i'll try my best tho get myself out of tish asap as i gort my gurls & os0 goodboii tat really cares forh mie .. but still it's very hard .. wadeva i dho , my mind ish nort wid mie .. my soul seems apart from my body .. it's true & real .. i cant believe tat someone tat once loved , cared , doted & treated mie sho good & much will dho all those thins behind my back .. & he manage tho lie & keep all tish from mie forh sho damn long .. & yet in the end i knew all tish betrays nort from his own mouth but someone else ..
i dunn0 wad ish happening .. my health seems sho weak tish yr .. i vomited jush now .. it's the second time tish yr .. throughout 2-3 yrs i can don even vomit once but yet tish yr i vomited twice in 2months .. now my stomach hurts & i feel tat dere's still more tho vomit out .. i din even hab the appetite & mood forh my dinner .. i sort of skipped my dinner .. last month i jush vomited sho badly .. i find it sho cruel .. there're problems forh mie tho handle & solve .. there's hurtful facts forh mie tho accept .. & now my health ........
it's really sho tiring ..
[ will you people return the lively & cheerful of me back !? ]
[ my life is dark ; my heart is shallow ]
[ i hate everything that is befalling on me ]
[ it's too cruel & unfair for me to face all this now ]
