~ Dreams In Reality ~

Tuesday, March 27, 2007

although ytd went tho orhorh much earlier but i cant get tho sleep & really had a hard time sleepin .. my heart & mind ish feelin sho terrible .. i was still hopin i'm able tho b happier when i woke up & gho tho skool .. i din feel ani betta todae .. my mood was totally down .. even the pe teacher asked mie y i'm sho moody & cause of tish he reduced the running around the field from 5rounds tho 3rounds .. * haiish * wadeva i dho , i don hab the mood , simply nho .. i tried tho cheer myself up but i still cant b happie naturely .. everyone asked mie wad happen , y i looked moody , sad , troubled .. all i replied ish nothin , i'm okaieys blahblah .. i tink the mie todae was really very very different from the mie i normally looks like .. even when todae i laugh i cant laugh ani longer .. i laughed & stopped .. i tink i will b like tish forh tish week ; unhappie .. nho one seems tho b able tho let mie feel happie & cheer mie up .. & those tat can don seems tho really care .. i don wan tho lie tho myself & tell myself all those lies which r nort real at all .. i'm tiredd . tish 9months , i really live my life till very sick & tiredd .. i nho longer hab the courage , confidence in anithin .. i nho longer feel the happiness but only feel the sadness .. i'm unable tho b the cheerful mie .. DEAD & GONE FOREVER !

by tellin mie eiu'll change but needin time tho get over somethin , my heart & eiu gave mie the slightest hope . but yet my eyes tells mie tat eiu're nort tryin ur very best everydae tho change & get over .. this had caused mie nort tho hab the slightest hope .. eiu treated mie as if i'm nho one , i'm invisible .. eiu've neba seems tho notice wad ish happenin tho mie .. wheneva eiu noe , it's obviously someone told eiu bout it .. everytime when i see the cares from eiu , it might b good but yet it appears tho b bad .. cause eiu dho sho as someone called eiu tho dho .. sho dho eiu all tink i should feel happie or ??eiu don hab tho feel guilty forh anithin .. eiu did n0thin .. wad i did ish jush on my own will .. eiu din call mie tho dho sho .. everythin ish jush my wishful thinkings & doings .. mayb all tish while , i'm jush another gal tat eiu used tho flirt .. i really dunno .. i knew eiu told someone tat eiu wanna care forh mie but jush dunn0 y eiu're unable .. but eiu said eiu'll try .. i n0e all tish but i choose nort tho sae anithin .. even when i'm unhappie or angry wid eiu , i will always n0rt let eiu n0e tat it's eiu .. & os0 n0rt tellin eiu wad happen tho mie cause i hope tat eiu're happie & don get affected by my thins as i don wanna add any burdens tho eiu .. eiu've ur own problems too .. x(( haiish .. sadded .. sobs sobs .

i really hab tho sae sorry tho people like my gurls , my good boii , peng & some others tat gort worried forh mie todae .. but thanks forh all of ur cares .. as forh deardear , thanks f0rh botherin tho ask mie wad happen even though it ish someone tat told eiu tho dho sho & sorrie tat i din tell eiu wad happen ..

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5:39:00 PM

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