Friday, November 30, 2007
# Sorry friends that tagged me & I have not reply or whatever at all . Cause i didn't even bother to see my own blog to check if there's any tag .. But surprise to say that there's tags .
I will link or relink you all soon . I'm sorry about all this ..
` My life is still the same . As usual , working .
Nowadays , busy doing house chores as Mummy is away .
It can be quite tiring at times cause I've to do all this after my work .
Well , it is okay .
Last few Nights , when I'm free , called Mummy .
Chatted with her for awhile .
Today cant call her cause grandma & mummy & my uncles are going over to my Aunty's house for buffet .
Sians . I'm not there with them ..
Tomorrow will be the big day for my cousin .
She's getting married . Sorry & sad that i cant get to attend her wedding .
It's such a happy occasion .
However , I will be going back Malaysia very soon .
At least i get to attend my Jiujiu's wedding .
Still unsure which day going off but it will be next week .
I misses almost everyone at Malaysia , especially those small little cute Precious of mine .
And by the time i come back to Singapore from Malaysia , It is time for receive my ' N ' level result .
There's still filing to do . I don't feel like doing it .
But i have to get it done before i leave for my holiday as I won't be back here so fast .
So shall take one night to get ready all the subject files first .
After getting result then see whether should go up Sec5 a not.
Sometimes things happen because people caused it to happen .
There are a lot of things which are far beyond our own control .
Is it everyone only have themselves in their eyes ?
They have never spare a thought for the others ?
Some people take friendships for granted .
Some people take love for granted .
In everyones' life , it is full of regrets .
But everything will just be too late .
Time will never stop or turn back for anyone of us .
So we shall learn how to treasure what we have got .
Grabbing well of every little small chance that is given to us .
Happiness wont last long .
It is just for that moment or so .
So it is on how people feel the happiness & what is the cause of it .
I'm tired to always seeing the same situations happening on me .
Sometimes i Don't even know what's happening to me & around me .
I don't seems to be able to understand why .
I just want a peaceful life and nothing else .
I don't need love , care & concern .
It's okay with me to only have myself in my world .
At least i don't get any hurt from anyone .
I know who really cares for me and who don't .
I believe in my own instinct .
Somehow no one understand but it's alright for me .
Cause i don't need anyone to understand .
I keep everything to myself .
I'm used to it and i know it is consider a bad habit of mine .
No one can help me and I know very well that only i can help myself .
But well , the conclusion is I have given up on almost everything & myself .
Friends , nothing has happen to me .
I'm fine .
PeiShan is still PeiShan .
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9:46:00 PM
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Saturday, November 10, 2007
Erm yahs , didn't blog for quite some time . so here to update my blog .
Have been working all this while since school holidays had started .
If during weekends , there's no prom0ter job , I will be rotting at home .
My life is just DEAD . I have no mood for almost every thing .
And for weekdays , I get to see all those cute & boisterous kids .
Although working for the bookshop was not that easy but at least the people there is kind & friendly .
I've been late for my work . I really cant get myself to wake up a bit earlier ..
However , on monday onwards , I cant be late but got to be more early . Cause will be doing sales already .
Hopefully i can handle the parents & customers .
I cant spend much even if i have got my pay . I got to return Mum S160 ..
Firstly was the money for the clothings bought for the promoter job .
Secondly is my handphone bill . It's $78 this month .
I'm shocked when i saw this amount . Because normally my bill will only be about $35 .
Too much outgoing calls made this month . No more for the following months .
I got my own things that i want to buy . I don't find it happy to spend all my pays on the bill .
I have to handle the bill all by myself . So it's enough ..
Didn't have good sleeps this nights . I cant fall asleep whereby I'm feeling so damn tired .
In the mid of night , i will be having running nose . I will be sneezing & sneezing ..
Yesterday's night , i got woken up by the thunders . Yuphs , I'm afraid of that & i got difficulty going back to sleep .
Hm , Mum & me started to talk today . For 1week & 5days . we've not been talking .
Well , maybe it's some thing good . At least we can talk things more easily .
Hais . There are things which outsiders wont be able to understand . There are things which me myself don't know & don't understand .
Still there are things which i know very well in my heart . I'm able to understand too .
There is too much things happening round me this days . But from this incidents , i get to know who are people that really cares . Really thanks .. (x
I'm a girl with no confidence & my mind is filled with negative comments about myself .
I don't know what i can do to change all this .
My life is still in a mess now . I don't know what i can do to make myself live my life a little more happier .
I hate myself , my life too .. I see nothing good in myself . Somehow i wish i could just run away from all this sorrows & not get affected by it .
I don't know how to cheer myself up . Some times , i laugh at my friends' joke or entertainment but after it ended , everything is back to the same .
Suddenly i misses my childhood . Those days when I'm back at Malaysia . Playing & enjoying every happy moments with all my cousins there . I misses everyone . Hais ..
What should i do ? I have no idea ....
* My girl Shuyu , I've blogged .
She's the one that called me to blog .. [:
Loves .
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8:16:00 PM
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Monday, October 22, 2007
19th Oct - meet up with ling at Tiong as we're going down to Fico sports hub . yu came awhile later . did nothing much there . see our class boys play soccer . about 6+ , we left there . went to Redhill market for dinner with ling . she ordered a stingray . it's damn spicy but nice . she could not really finish it as it is too spicy . we were like so full because we drank too much water & not because of the food we ate . walked to ling's house & she went her way & i went to take my bus home . was bout 9 when i reached home .
20th 0ct - last min decided to meet up with hui to kbox as she cant come for steamboat yesterday night . i was so careless that i forget to take my ez-link card . quickly called my bro & asked him to take it down for me . at Tiong , layed para before taking bus down to town . shop shop awhile . After kbox went down to plaza sing to have pizza hut . waited for ling . shopped at plaza sing while waiting . it's really bored there . as pizza hut was full , so got to wait . after we ate our dinner , thought there was still shuttle bus to Tiong . so we waited & the securiy told us that there's no more shuttle bus as we missed the last shuttle bus . grrs ~ . went to the main road to flag for cab to Tiong . took neoprint wid ling & huii . After that took bus home . At 1st my bus came but i didn't take it . ling bus came & she also never take as she's still smoking . yet in the end , it was still ling's bus that came first . not long later was my bus . hui was last to board her bus home . after reaching home , bathe etc then conference with ling & yu . hang up about 11+ . slept at 12+ .
21st 0ct - meet up with yu first at town about 3+ . there was still samuellim & his friends . they went to play pool . bout 4.30 , left as we need to reach queenstown at 5 . took train down but still we're late . after that , i think we were waiting for boonwee to reach . yu was quite moody already due to her hunger & love . trained down to marina south . hueyting & jaz have reached . took bus to the place where we're gonna have our steamboat . got 2tables as there were 14 people . yea , got to thanks samuel lim , jaz , yu & hueyting for making the foods for me . it's tasty . (= after finishing our food , we were deciding where to go . erm most of the boys wanted to play dota . so well , let them go & play norhs . so the girls went down to town . i suggested to take neoprint . we went to Cineleisure but the neoprint shop was closed . we quickly went to Hereen . thought that i will be closed . lucky it was still not closed . jaz asked the lady if we could still take . she allowed us to take but well we have to make it fast . lucky ! happy to be able to take that neoprint with jaz , hueyting , yu & also to be the last group to take neoprint in that shop . wont forget it . [: after that i have to go home already . hais . wanted to take cab home but no cab . we girls went to the bus stop . then hueyting & jaz took the same bus . yu & i took different bus . reached home at 11+ . my house area was like so quiet & dark & i'm abit scare so i walked fast . dad was still watching tv . quickly went for a bath as i was tired & having headache . was feeling better after a bath .
Thanks Hueyting , Jaz & Boonwee for the Birthday presents . Thanks to all my friends who wishes me . Although the birthday yesterday was not perfect in the end but it's really really good enough . As long as all are happy , then Ok norhs . [: Actually there's no need for any sorry from Jaz , Hueyting & Peng . Cause I'm happy enough to see you all coming & but yet ate very less . Still , Thanks for those who came & a very big THANKS to Jaz , Hueyting , Yu , Ling & Hui for the past 3days . Great fun & enjoyments . LOVE YOU GIRLS !
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7:09:00 PM
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Wednesday, October 17, 2007
The days back in school were boring & tired . Have to wake up early . This 2days Yu didn't come to school . She's sick . * Hope she is feeling better today . *
During lessons , were not really listening to what the teachers were talking . =x were talking more . Last 2periods Mr Siah didn't come in . So slack till the dismissal bell rang .
Went to find mummy & br0 at Chinatown . Bought things etc ..
That's all barhs .
Byes ! =))
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7:20:00 PM
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Monday, October 15, 2007
Yesterday night talked on the ph0ne with Ling & Yu . * Sigh *
After hanging up the phone at bout 11.3o , i thought i can go to zzz but i cant . & i remembered that i drank c0ffee in the morning . I'm damn bored lying on my bed , trying hard to fall asleep .
This m0rning woke up early at bout 8.3o . Going out with my girls & friends to celebrate Peng's birthday . Went town for k-lunch . It rained & only i had umbrella . So 3girls shared an umbrella (: It's fun as we sang , laughed & celebrated Peng's birthday with a birthday cake & birthday song . Went plaza sing for awhile as Yu wanted to have a game of rock fever . By then , we're actually tired . Trained down to Vivo . Met up with the others . Slack slack then . We girls left bout 5 while the others went for their movie & some other activity . Reached home at 5.3o . Felt tired & quickly took a bath .
Tomorrow reporting back to school . Simply no comments . =(
I'm blur today . Firstly i forget to give a call to the boy that i'm giving tuition to cancel off today's tuition . Secondly i told him to come down tomorrow morning to give him tuition . Tht problem is i have school tomorrow . So when i reached home , i quickly called him again & his mum laughed . =/ paisae .
Stopping here . I want to treasure the remaining time to watch my Taiwanese Dramas .
Lastly , Happy Birthday Juepeng .
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7:08:00 PM
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Sunday, October 14, 2007
Simply after 1month , there's a new post from me . Actually i dont know what to p0st ..
Finally ' N ' level was over .. For the time being , didn't have to report back to school .. However on tues , it's time for school again . Going back to school for the Step Ahead Programme . Have no choice but to attend for the sake of attendance in order to get promoted to Sec5 . If there's a choice i think no1 will wanna go back to that boring school .
My life is dead . Do what also dont seems to have the mood . Hais .. I dont know what's going on with me . Stayed at home everyday to watch my Taiwanese Drama . I just enjoy watching those dramas . Some i could even watch it again even though i've watch it once . I know i cant always stay at home & must go out to shop & enjoy . Got no mood & energy to step out of my house . Mummy wants me to stay at home . Sometimes when i see how sunny & hot the day is , i rather stay at home . Some days when i have enough sleep , i still feel tired . Ehs , now i can quite understand how yu feel when she's tired even with umpteen sleep .
Now from monday to friday , i'm giving my mum's friend tuition . Free of charge .. Just take it as doing a good deed for myself . As long as he can improve & not get worst is good enough for me .
To My Girls :
I know my attitude sometimes really lousy , the way i talk LL . * Apologies *
Me myself dont even know what's going on with me . Got moody dunno for what . Sometimes because of my family thingy . But i will cheer up no matter what . Thanks for letting me know that you girls care & will be by my side . You girls got your own problems . I really have to say that i dont know how to be good friend & that maybe i'm not all this while . Still , i'm always willing to hear all your happiness & sorrow . Importantly , you girls must cheer up especially Lingg . & Yu shall stay as happy as today . As for Huii , although long time no chat & go out together but still hope she can smile always . I seriously treasure the friendship with you girls . Maybe saying all this sounds funny or stupid but it is from my heart .
Once again Thanks load & Sorry . Loves & Misses ! Takecares .. <33
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7:10:00 PM
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Friday, September 14, 2007
have not been blogging for dont know how damn long .. since i'm not watchin taiwanese drama now , then i shall blog .. after more , my girl shuyu asked me to update my blog as it is getting boring .
finally prelims is over .. just today only .. but 2weeks later is N level already .. it just seems no more time to relax .. well , today knew our results for science ( phys + chem ) .. as expected , i failed .. mum still dont know bout it .. dont feel like saying cause i dont know how her reaction will be .. but i'm sure there will be disappointment .. shall stop talking bout studies ..
went bugis with mum after school .. she wanted to buy her groceries & also to buy birdnests ( yan wo ) for god-grandma as mid-autumn is around the corner .. my purpose there is to help her with the carrying of groceries .. reach home bout 3+ & i grumble to her that we reached home so early .. then she shoot me back by saying that i was the one that did not mention to go shopshop .. she did want to go shopshop .. perhaps i rushed her so she thought i did not want to shop .. i ended up having nothing back home but just earned a meal from her .. at first she still want me to pay myself for my own meal .. gosh ~ !
hm i'm tired now .. i just cant stop yawning .. maybe i'm boredd .. it's almost time i go watch my taiwanese drama already .. dont know if i can stay up late tonight anot to watch tv & again it is a taiwanese drama .. hees .. mum said last week that this week she will not let me watch again .. shall see later how .. somemore tomorrow is saturday .. i'm gonna sleep enough .. xD
shall stop here .. blog again soon barhs .. byebyes .. [:
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7:39:00 PM
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